WELL SHIT.

WELL SHIT.

the number 87 kinda looks like a plague doctor

UGHHHHHH I love this.

「 Pretty Guardian Sailor Moon Eternal The Movie Trailer 」

This is fantastically accurate.

This one I can say with CONFIDENCE is accurate.

Here we go

“James Reed was born knowing his purpose, left his master in a shallow grave knowing his purpose, and fully intends to ascend to the heights of human knowledge with the fruits of his labors clutched firmly in his hand. Damn anyone who dares to get in his way. Damn them all.”

— On James Reed

just because being hard on yourself is your only coping mechanism doesnt mean its THE only coping mechanism. it might feel like it works for you, might give you the push you need to get things done, but there are other ways of achieving that same result that dont make you feel like shit after, and that dont distance you further from the idea you deserve kindness. you DO deserve kindness, just like any other person. it's not different just because it's you, and telling yourself otherwise is not going to do what you hope it will. it's okay to explore other ways of doing things.

Well fuck me just getting called right the hell out over here lol.

In all seriousness though, Anon, you're absolutely right.

This is something I have discussed on more than one occasion with my therapist, unfortunately it's not a behavior that is broken overnight. This is the worst I've snapped in quite some time but I'm in the trenches fighting to take myself back from destructive coping habits like, you guessed it, being overly-hard on myself.

Sometimes I'm able to stop the full on breaking and grab my journal or reach out to a friend in time. This time I was overwhelmed. It happens.

Knowing that I'm deserving of love and kindness is a HUGE challenge for me. I'm facing this step-by-step.

I've tripped and fallen on my recovery path this week. It happens. It's not the first time and won't be the last. Just have to keep getting up and continuing on.

Thank you, Anon. Sometimes I need the slap in the face.

Hey look at that. It me.

#MOOD