Changbin X Reader Winter Falls, Now I'm Running Back To You

Changbin x reader ❄winter falls, now i'm running back to you❄

Changbin x reader

Warnings: maybe some typos, sorry!

category: Angst, no fluff

Authors note: with the Xmas season here I decided to make something for SKZ! I've been listening to 'Winter Falls' a lot this season, and Changbin's lines have me crying 😭😭😭 But don't worry! All of my Binnie lovers! I promise I will make it up to all of you!

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Changbin, he was your boyfriend for close to three years. But suddenly you both had a big fight one day. It had escalated quickly, so much so that you're sure the neighbors would be complaining to HOA in the morning about how their neighbors would not shut up. You weren’t even sure what the argument was about by the end. When there was a slight break in the screaming you had started to break down, but Changbin seemed to be unaffected by it. He used to always stop what he was doing and comfort you. Instead of going to comfort you, he scoffed and went into your shared bedroom. Not even ten minutes later he came back out with a bag of clothes. You jumped up and ran to block the door so he wouldn’t leave.

“Chang, please,” you pleaded with him. “Please don't leave me. I’ll change! I’ll get better! I swear, just please don't leave me Binnie. I don't know what I’ll do without you! I can barely function when you're on tour, I can live without you, please!!” But all of your cries and pleas fell upon deaf ears. Changbin simply moved you to the side, and without looking back left.

When the door closed you sobbed into your hands. You knew it was for the best, you both had been fighting for a while now, and it was over stupid things. But you loved him, you truly did. On the other side of the door, Changbin still stood there, tears streaming down his reddened cheeks. It was cold outside, winter was just around the corner. Winter… It was your favorite time of year. The snow, the cold, cuddling up with him under the blankets watching one of the dramas Hyunjin had recommended for you. Everything about it, you loved it all. Changbin was so close to opening the door and running back into your arms. But he held himself back, scared that you would not take him in again after what he did. He knew it was for the best that you both go your separate ways, the fighting had been getting out of hand for a while, and tonight was the last straw, for the both of you. That night Changbin went to the dorms to stay with the other members. When he arrived they were shocked to see him, but let him in none the less. He told them what happened and they consoled him, then Hyunjin went to console you. The members knew that you and Hyunjin were like brother and sister and he could always calm you down if Changbin couldn’t. You and Hyunjin ended up talking about what happened as well as watching more of his k-dramas.

*One year later*

You and Changbin still have not talked after a year. Even though a lot of time has passed, neither of you have healed completely. It has been exactly one year since Changbin walked out of your shared apartment. You knew that you would be most sensitive today, and most of winter. Winter reminded you too much of Changbin, the times you would cuddle by the tv under all of the blankets you both had, when he would build a snowman with you, the times you would have hot chocolate after you were done outside. Everything, from the cold bitter nights to the beautiful calm falling snow.

It was currently 12 O’clock in the morning, and you were curled up under Changbin’s favorite blanket to use during the winter times as he held onto you from behind. You grabbed the pig plush he had gifted you all those years ago, and grasped it tightly. You were watching a k-drama you and Hyunjin had started together, and you could tell that it was getting to a good part, the girl was going to finally confess to the boy. And hopefully he would return her feelings. You really wanted them to get together and had been rooting for them since the beginning of the show. Right as the boy was about to give his answer you heard a knock on your door.

You paused the tv, and got up, the blanket around you and the pig still in your arms. You unlocked the door and cracked it open and saw Changbin standing there, looking as nervous as the day he confessed to you. You both made eye contact for a split second before you slammed the door in his face, tears already gathering in your eyes. “y/n, please! I just want to talk to you! Please let me in… I-” he started but cut himself off. You heard him sigh and then start talking again. “I can’t function without you… I need you back in my life. I’m sorry for what I did, but… I thought that a break between us was needed. I see how wrong I really was. Y/n I can’t live without you, please let me in, I’ll make it better I swear!!” He pleaded but you ignored him, you wanted him to think you were doing so much better without him. “Please…” he whispered, you heard a thump, and you knew it was his head on the other side of your door. “y/n I… I really miss you, I can’t live with myself for what I did to you. I’m so so so sorry, I was wrong okay.” his voice was rising. You knew this was how it always went, first he would start off calm, then before you knew it, it would turn into a yelling competition between him and his echo. You held onto your plush and blanket tighter and you slowly started to cave around yourself. “I was wrong okay! Is that what you want to hear! Well there, y/n I was wrong to think we needed a break! Please let me in!” You shrunk in on yourself, holding the small pig close to your chest as you slid down the door. You go back to Changbin.

You couldn't be together anymore, you could see that, and you knew Changbin could too but he wanted to deny it, his mind wanted to move on, but his heart told him otherwise. It told him to go after you, to keep you from leaving his life for good. “Changbin we can’t be together.” you said quietly, but you knew he heard you. “Why?! Y/n I love you!! I’ve changed I swear!!” He pleaded again. But you shook your head, “no…no Changbin we can't, you know that! Sure you were right for me, but it just… it wasn’t the right time, for either of us.” and with that you locked your door again and went back to the couch where you're sure you would be crying for the rest of the night. Changbin had to accept it one way or another, and this was the best way for you. Both of you.

You looked out of your window a few minutes later, Changbin had left, and you saw that the snow was starting to fall onto the cold ground. It was beautiful, pure, untouched by the harshness of the ground. A glimmering white even in the darkest of night. Tears fell down your cheeks as memories flooded into your head of Changbin and you were out in the snow when it first started to fall. Changbin always used to say you were both like a movie, but it looks like this movie doesn’t have a happy ending. That's the thing though, it's not a movie, as much as you want it to be, it can’t. You wish it would have a happy ending where you ended up staying with Changbin, but life and fate had other plans. Maybe in another life or time, but not here, not now.

You made your way back to the couch and pressed play on the tv so you could finally finish the episode. Maybe this could make you feel better? You truly hoped it would.

‘The boy looked at the short girl in front of him, unsure of what to say. A minute passed before he finally spoke. “I… I don't like you that way Haneul. I’m sorry, but I can’t see us being together now, or any time in the future. I think it would be best to end our friendship here, I don't want you to get hurt or for people to start assuming things…” The girl nodded, tears already filling her eyes. She could have sworn that he liked her back. The moments they shared together, the amount of times he picked hanging out with her over his other friends. But no, it turned out she was wrong. Maybe he just wasn’t meant for her? She guesses she’ll never know. How could she when he walked out of her life forever? The boy smiled, but it looked more pity filled than anything. He turned and left the girl crying there all alone. She cried and cried, but he didn’t come back. Haneul wishes he would, but she knew he wouldn’t, so, she made her way home, in the cold winter snow.’

The screen went black and the song ‘Winter Falls’ by Stray Kids started to play. More tears fell from your eyes. Changbin used to sing this song along with ‘24 to 25’ to you all of the time when you cuddled on the couch when it snowed and you could not sleep. The memories hurt, but they were something you would continue to cherish for the rest of your life.

‘We are like movie, I feel out of breath / Talking about the old days makes me toss and turn again / While I know there's nothing I can do / I'm reminded once again as I hesitate after seeing pieces of you / Winter Falls, the snow falls / Purer than anything / Falls, I'll try to erase everything about you / That still remains with me / I loved you, loved you, loved you / As you did, loved you, loved you, loved you / Again it falls, the snow falls / We fall apart / Winter falls, oh / Winter falls, oh / Please fall before I fall / I loved you, loved you, loved you / As you did loved you, loved you, loved you / Again it falls, the snow falls / We fall apart.’

Blue and Grey

Taehyung x reader

Word count - 7k

Warnings: angst, fluff, smut-- protected sex, mentions of oral (fem rec), pwp, porn with plot, pet names (Angle, Tiger, Big shot, etc.), praise, soft dom tae, sub reader-- let me know if i missed anything!

Plot - after your breakup, you avoided Taehyung completely. bt what happens when your job as a photographer forces you to be in contact with him again? Will the two of you make up, or will things between the two of you forever be ruined?

Authors notes - Sorry I haven't posted in a bit, school has been very demanding, and sports even more so. please feel free to repost, and leave a heart if you liked it!

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You had known Kim Taehyung for pretty much your whole life, you both grew up together because you were neighbors. You and him were also complete opposites. For instance, you were an extrovert, and Tae was an introvert. Your favorite color was red, and his was gray. His favorite number was ten, even, and yours was seven, odd. But even with having so little in common with the dark haired male, you both were like two peas in a pod. It’s as your parents said, “반대 유치!(opposites attract)”

Now, over sixteen years later, you and Taehyung don’t talk. You hadn’t spoken a word to the other for three years. Why? Well for one, he shattered your heart into a million pieces, and two… well there wasn’t really a second reason. It was just that he broke your heart, and left you to mend it on your own. You had moved back to Australia because you had gotten a new job with photography.But even if you did go back to your hometown, it's not like you would see him! He moved to Seoul when he became a trainee, and now he’s known all over the world for his songs and great music.

You were currently being driven to the next concert you were to photograph, who knew that when you went to university for nature photography, you would have ended up taking photos for K-pop groups when they toured in Australia. You were not told exactly who you would be photographing, but you were to not only go backstage with them, but also get pictures from the floor, granted you were allowed closer than the fans were, but it would still be a challenge. You tried to think of who it could be. 

‘Stray Kids has started their world tour and I know they’re coming here. Same with Blackpink. I think Oneus will be here soon too. It could be Treasure though, they did just have a comeback after all. What if it’s-’ The buzzing of your phone snapped you out of your thoughts. You checked to see who it was, ‘Unknown caller’ it said. You knew your mom just got a new phone and maybe she was calling you from that, so you hesitantly picked it up.

“Hello?” you said into the speaker. “Hey, is this y/n?” a deep voice asked. “This is she, how may I help you?” You questioned the male that had called you. The line was silent save for the soft muffled sound of talking in the background. After about a minute of silence, you spoke up, “Listen if this is a prank call, I’m really-” The male cut you off, “It’s not! I swear, please don’t hang up, Angel.” The male pleaded on the other side of the phone. Your heart stopped, everything seemed to move in slow motion. What did he just call you? Angel? The only person who had used that nickname was… “Taehyung…” you whispered out. “Yeah, it’s me Angel, I… I just-” He started but couldn’t get far before you interrupted him. “Taehyung, why the 지옥(hell) are you calling me? After what, three years? You finally decide to speak to me?” You paused to see if he would answer you, but he stayed silent. You sighed, “Listen, I really don’t have time for this right now, okay? I have a shoot I need to get to and I need to be in the right mindset. Please, don’t contact me again.” You said as you ended the call, not even giving him a second to respond. 

Your heart clenched tightly inside of your chest, you felt your throat start to get tight as a lump formed there. Memories from that day years ago came flooding back into your mind. 

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Dating an idol was really no easy task, you had to deal with crazed fans, people that would write horrible things about your relationship, social media, and their overly busy schedule. But even though you had to deal with all of that, you still chose to stay with him, with Kim Taehyung because he made you feel so loved, even if he came home late, he would let you know, through call if he had a little longer break, or over text if he was too busy. But Taehyung thought the exact opposite. He thought he was wasting your time. He thought you deserved someone better than him. So, when he came home from work early that night, he sat you down on the couch for a serious conversation.

“y/n, we really need to talk…” He said when he came into the small kitchen in your apartment. Not even a ‘hi’ or ‘how was your day angel?’ nothing, just straight into the conversation. Taehyung thought- no, he knew it would be better for him that way. You stopped the dishes you were doing, dried your hands on a towel and followed Taehyung into the living room and sat across from him on the couch. Once you were both seated Taehyung took a deep breath and started to speak. 

“Listen, Angel, I love you so so much okay…” you nodded and smiled, “I love you too Tiger,” Taehyung smiled ever so slightly. “But I think you deserve better than what I can give to you. I… I think it would be best if we split up, y/n.” Everything stopped, it felt as if someone just slapped you in the face. “You… you 무엇(what)?” you stutter out, your voice barely more than a whisper. “I can’t give you what you want y/n. We can’t go on dates. If fans even see me outside with you, we get bombarded! I don’t want you to have to live like this anymore, can't you understand that!” Taehyung burst. Tears welled up in your eyes as you saw him finally walk away from the conversation into the bedroom the two of you shared, slamming the door behind him in frustration. You and Taehyung rarely ever argued, but when you did it was always filled with many emotions from both parties.

You were left sitting on the couch alone with nothing but your thoughts. Did he really want to break up? Is it really because he couldn’t go on dates with you? Why does he think you deserve someone better? Taehyung is the only thing keeping you afloat at your worst times, so why does he want to split up? You’ve constantly told him how much you love him, and how you wish to be with him forever, and he's said the same thing to you. So why? Why the hell does he want to break up?

A few minutes later, Taehyung came out of the bedroom with his bag and was walking towards the front door getting ready to put his shoes on. You jumped up and hugged him from the back, making him stop what he was doing right away. “Please,” you pleaded, “don’t leave me Tae, I need you. Please, I love you so much. I promise you're enough for me. And… and we can work this out. We can go on our late night park dates like we used to, e-even when you get off work and you come home late, I’ll stay up for you and we can go on a date. J-just don’t leave me…please.” you begged as your grip around him tightened. Taehyung sighed and peeled your arms from around him and slipped his shoes on. Finally Taehyung turned to you. He placed his hands on your cheeks and wiped your tears. “This is for the best, y/n. I know you’ll be able to find someone. Someone that will love you unconditionally. Spend all of their time with you. Someone you can walk outside of your front door and not be bombarded with fans and paparazzi. I love you so much, but you can do so much better than me.” He placed a feather light kiss on your lips, and pulled away all too soon for you. Taehyung opened the front door and closed it again once he was outside. 

You fell to your knees as sobs racked through your body. You kept mumbling for Taehyung to come back, as if he was still right outside your door. But he was, Taehyung couldn’t leave you crying like that, but he had to. You deserved so much better than what he could give you. So with a heavy heart, a lump in his throat, and tears in his eyes ready to fall, he left.

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“We are here Ms. l/n.” The words from the driver brought you back to reality. You smiled and nodded at him getting out of the car. You went to the back of the car and got your camera from the trunk and put the strap over your head so that it was placed on your shoulder and the camera rested safely at your hip. You closed the trunk and thanked the driver once again and made your way to the front of the large stadium. Waiting for you were two guards, both dressed in a black suit with a white undershirt. You smiled to them, and pulled out your ID to show them. They inspected it thoroughly and then returned it to you and led you inside to where the stage was. “They will be out soon for rehearsals and mic checking.” The one to the right informed you. “That should be plenty of time for me to get my camera ready, 감사합니다.(thank you)” You smiled at them and made your way across the floor of the stadium. The two guards left and it was just you and the equipment crew until the group would come out. 

While you waited for the mystery group to come out onto the stage you started getting your camera ready. You cleaned off the lenses, made sure the different attachments still fit, and fiddled with the zooming and focusing of each attachment you had. Then once you made sure everything was working as it should be, you started to snap pictures of the empty stadium, some of the workers working, and the stage. After about forty-five minutes, the mystery group finally started walking out on stage. You turned to them and they all stopped dead in their tracks. 

You made eye contact with the male in front. He had long black hair that curled slightly at the tips. His eyes were a dark chocolate brown. And his smile was big and gummy. You almost dropped your camera as your brain finally registered who it was. “Kookie?!” You shouted out, your voice echoing in the empty stadium. His eyes widened, and his smile got even bigger, if that was possible, as he jumped off the stage and ran towards you. “오 이런(oh my god) Oh my god!” He hugged you tightly, “Is it really you? You're not fake?” he questioned as he pulled away from you and inspected your face. You laughed loudly, “No I’m not fake 바보(fool/idiot)!” You scolded him. Just then Jimin came up to you, then Jin, next Hobi, and soon almost everyone surrounded you. Almost everyone. The one person you didn’t see was Taehyung. Part of you was actually glad, you're not sure how you would react if you were to see him in person. But you pushed those thoughts away and started to catch up with the six boys around you. They bombarded you with questions, and you answered them all.

“기다림(wait),” Jimin spoke out, making everyone stop talking and look at him, “what happened to you and Tae? Ever since you left and came here, he’s been all off.” He voiced. You struggled to find and answer, but couldn’t come up with one, so you just told him the truth. “We broke up.” you said quietly. Jimin’s eyes widened, “뭐라고?!(wait what)” Jungkook was the next to speak, “왜(why)!” then Hobi, “But you guys were perfect together!!” He whined. “It was for…um…” you started but once again, could not think of anything to tell them. You didn’t want to tell them the truth because it would most definitely affect the way they saw Taehyung. Just then one of the many managers came out onto the stage and called them to get their mics. They all waved to you as they ran back to the stage. 

You got your camera ready and started getting pictures of the boys, Taehyung still nowhere to be seen. 

After about thirty minutes the boys were given a break and they sat down on the stage and started talking. You snapped several pictures of them from different angles, making sure they looked good once you were done with one round. Just as you were about to start taking more pictures you heard someone running on the stage. You pulled the camera from your eye so you could see who it was. You regretted it immediately. 

He looked more mature than he did three years ago. His hair was black and long and curly, just how you liked it. His eyes still as captivating as before. His smile still sweet. His voice still as deep and melodic as ever. His laugh, oh how you missed his laugh, it was still as contagious as you remembered it to be. “Y/n?” God how you missed the way your name sounded when it came from his lips. The lump in your throat made itself present as you tried your best to smile at him. You quickly brought the camera up to your face again and snapped a few photos of Taehyung by himself and Taehyung with the rest of the boys. 

You walked back up to the stage and squatted to the ground and placed your camera carefully inside of the bag. After you clipped it shut you pulled the strap over your head and stood up to leave. But before you could Jungkook came running up to you from atop the stage. “y/n, you gotta come to our concert tonight okay? It’s gonna be so good! You won’t have to pay a single dime either, I’ll pay for you-” “우리(WE)!” Namjoon corrected him. Jungkook laughed, “Yes, 우리(WE)! Will pay for you, and get you a VIP pass backstage.” He told you with a big smile on his face. You hesitated for a second before looking into his eyes, he was clearly giving you the puppy eyes he knew you fell for every single time. You huffed a sigh, “Fine, I’ll come to the concert.” Jungkook’s smile was so bright it could rival that of the brightest stars. “예(yes)! The concert starts at seven-thirty, so don’t be late! And when you get here the guys from earlier will be there so just tell them I let you come, and they should give you the VIP pass.” he informed you. You nodded, then said bye to all of the boys. Giving Taehyung a small wave. He smiled brightly and waved back to you.

Hours later you walked back to the entrance of the stadium, the line to get in was already incredibly long, and you knew it would be a long wait, but hopefully a quick one as the lines were moving fast. After about twenty minutes of being in line, you reached the entrance, and sure enough the two male guards from earlier were still standing there. You smiled at them and told them exactly what Jungkook had told you to say. They nodded and one of them escorted you to where you would be sitting. You were right next to the stage, and had a perfect view of everything that you knew would be happening. You thanked the male before he left you.

After about thirty minutes of waiting the concert finally started. The first song they did was ON, and it was great. Everyone did amazing throughout the entire concert. After two hours the boys started talking about how they are grateful for all of the ARMYs that had come to the concert and how they hope they will keep supporting them in the years to come. “Whenever ARMYs miss us, you can come to us. If you have to go or if you want to go, it’s okay for you to leave us. But always remember this. We will always be here.” Jungkook said. 

“Before you all leave tonight, we have one last song for you all!” Namjoon yelled into the mic. “V has been working really hard lately and just released this song a couple months ago,” music started to play as he spoke, “He wrote this song for not being able to see ARMY, 우리는 당신이 그것을 사랑하기를 바랍니다 (we hope you love it)! We hope you love it!” Taehyung then started singing, his deep baritone voice soothing you. 

“Where is my angel?” He sang into the microphone. Your heart clenched. That’s what Taehyung had called you when you were together. Even when you were still friends, he called you his angel. You had never asked him why exactly, but you remember when Namjoon had told you whenever he was writing a song and needed help with lyrics he would prey to his angel.

“하루의 끝을 드리운(at the end of a tiring day)” Whenever Tae had come home, late or not, he would still spend his time with you, even if it was just the two of you cuddling up on the couch together or in your shared bed. 

“Someone come and save me, please” Your heart clenched and tears started making themselves known in your eyes. Sure, you tried to hate Taehyung as much as you could, but no matter what, you still loved him. That, you know, you would never be able to deny. You hadn’t been there for Taehyung, then again he was the one that left you. But even still, you were also the one that stopped contacting him. He had never said that he wanted to stop talking. Still though, you cut off all contact with the boys and him, thinking and hoping that it would be best that the two of you never talked again. 

“지친 하루의 한숨뿐(is overshadowed by a sigh)” Taehyung always felt like he was just looked over. Someone that the other members never really needed no matter how many times you and the boys had tried to reassure him. It really hit him hard when a girl had skipped right over him at a fan sign. You remembered the look on his face like it was yesterday. He looked more than hurt. From afar you could tell his eyes were watery, you knew that once you would get back to the hotel he would not speak, and lock himself in his room. Sure you had a key card to the exact room, but you also knew that he wouldn’t want to be bothered. Either way though, you still went and comforted him at the hotel. 

“거울에 비친 눈물의 의미는(the tears reflected in the mirror mean)” You knew exactly what they meant. You couldn’t help but know how he felt after what had happened. You knew that the break up hurt him just as much as it hurt you, if not more so. Every night you would cry. When you went into the bathroom the next morning the tear tracks were prominent as ever, making themselves known to the whole world. So, yes, you knew exactly how he felt when he sang that one singular line.

The next time Taehyung sang, you felt the tears you had been trying so hard to keep in finally fall down your cheeks. “Oh this ground feels so heavier  I am singing by myself  I just wanna be happier  이것도 큰 욕심일까 (am i being too greedy) ” 

Taehyung finished the song with the lines, “허공에 떠도는 말을  몰래 주워 담고 나니  이제 새벽잠이 드네 (after secretly taking back words floating in the air I now fall asleep at dawn) good night” and you saw him looking directly at you. His eyes looked as if he was pleading with you, telling you how sorry he truly was, how much he missed you, how he knew he fucked up, and most of all, telling you that he still loves you with his whole heart. At that moment you immediately got up, leaving your seat. Taehyung, not wanting you to disappear from his life again, called out your name and jumped off of the stage and ran after you. You heard the ARMYs going crazy, some calling out his name, others reaching for him, and some shouting compliments at him. You ran up the stairs that lead outside of the stage area, Taehyung hot on your trail. 

Once outside of the stage area you slowed down and caught your breath. Not even a minute later you heard Taehyung's deep voice from behind you. 

“y/n, please, can we just talk this out?” He pleaded softly. You sighed, wiping your stray tears before turning to him. “What is there to talk about Tae? You broke my heart. I was willing and more than ready to stay with you even though you were an idol and we couldn’t spend a lot of time together. But you… you pushed me away Tae…” More tears gathered in your eyes, but you tried your best to stay strong so that he would not have to see you at your most vulnerable state. “알아요 Angel, and I’m so sorry. I… I was just scared of truly losing you. I thought that it would be better to end things so that I wouldn’t be able to hurt you. But it seems I had done the exact opposite. I hurt you so much and I’m so, so sorry y/n. I know it’s selfish of me to ask this…but please, give me one more chance. I swear I will make you happy and I won’t break your heart. So, please…just let me-” You quickly cut him off by placing your lips to his in a sweet kiss that held your answer. Taehyung immediately kissed you back, his hands making their way to your waist whilst yours wrapped around his neck. 

When you both pulled away you looked at the other, pure adoration and love shone in the others eyes. You let out a light sigh, “I’ve missed you so much Taetae.” you whispered out. “저도요(me too), my Angel.” he said, placing his forehead against yours. Just as you were about to say something you heard fans from inside the stadium chanting Tae’s name. You both laughed lightly remembering where exactly the two of you were. “You better get going Big Shot.” You teased him. He scoffed, “Yeah, yeah I know.” You smiled at him, your hands going to cup his cheeks as you placed one last soft kiss on his lips. “I’ll come backstage and see you, 알았어(okay)?” He nodded. “Now get going Tiger, can’t have you being late now can we!” You winked. Taehyung laughed as he finally left your arms and turned to leave back to the stage. 

You knew that since the concert had ended people would be leaving the stadium soon, so you quickly made your way to the bathrooms and locked yourself inside a stall as you waited until most everyone had left save for the members and bodyguards roaming the stadium.

You came out of the stall and made your way backstage where you knew the boys would be waiting for you. Once you finally reached backstage you saw Taehyung waiting for you outside the doors leading to the back. You ran up to him and hugged him. “Looks like someone missed me.” He teased. You rolled your eyes and huffed out, “오 쉿(oh, shh), I haven’t seen you in three years, I have every right to be this clingy right now!” Tae laughed as he pulled back slightly to place a loving kiss on your lips. You leaned into the kiss, but quickly pulled away when you heard someone clear their throat. Taehyung looked behind him and saw Namjoon, “정말 얘들 아 (really guys)? I get you both just confessed your undying love for one another again, but at least wait until we get back to the hotel to be all lovey dovey.” he tsked. You and Taehyung pulled away from each other but your hands still interlaced together as you walked into the room where the boys were.

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You and Taehyung were currently walking down the hall to the hotel room he had gotten. Lucky for the both of you, he did not have to share it with any of the other members. When he unlocked the door he held it open for you, letting you inside first. You thanked him and went inside. Tae closed the door behind him and made sure it was locked before he took his shoes off and made his way to the bed where he flopped down. You giggled at him and laid down next to the dark haired male. You turned so that you faced Taehyung and saw he was pouting at you. “What are you pouting for 아기(baby)?” you laughed out. “I wanna cuddle you.” he said, giving you his best puppy dog eyes. You smiled and climbed on top of him, your head resting on his chest, listening to his heartbeat. His heart was racing, showing that he was nervous to be this close and intimate with you once again after so long. Taehyung slowly and gently warped one arm around your back and the other was placed on the top of your head. 

After a moment of silence you finally spoke up, “Why did you leave?” you asked quietly, picking your head up slightly so that you could look him in the eyes. You felt him stiffen from the sudden question from under you. “나는(I)...” He started, trying to find the right words. “I was just scared? I never wanted to let you go, never wanted to break up with you. But at the same time I never really felt that I was enough for you. I always felt like I could never give you what you want or what you deserved. I resorted to not calling you for those three years because I knew if I heard your voice that I would go running back to you. Truthfully I don’t even know what made me call you today. Maybe it was the fact that we came here, and I was just reminded of the times we took little tips together, or when you’d take time off of work to come with me for a couple of days when we would go on tour. Or the fact that you had moved here, and I could possibly see you. Even if the chances were slim to none, I still had hope that I would be able to see you again. Maybe talk to you about why I left, I could apologize. Honestly though, I’m still not really sure.” He paused, and you spoke up.

“Was the song you wrote… The one you guys did at the end of the concert, what was it about? Why did you write it?” You asked softly. Taehyung chuckled softly, a smile painting his face before he started to talk. “So the song was originally going to be a part of one of my own tracks, but the guys and managers liked it so much we all found a way to put it into our BE album. As to why I wrote it…” 

He paused trying to form his words, and you could tell he was nervous, so you did what you knew calmed him down everytime he was nervous and you were around. You reached for one of his hands and interlaced your fingers with his bringing it up to your lips, you peppered feather light kisses all over his large hand. Tae smiled and brought your laced hands to his own lips and kissed it softly. 

You could tell he was calmer than a few seconds ago, and he continued a moment later, “Well after we… you know, 헤어졌다(brokeup)…” He mumbled out, “I could never really sleep. The bed I was in felt too big for me, even after placing pillows on one side to make it seem like you were there with me, and after resorting to getting a smaller bed so I could not be able to feel your side of the bed cold, I still couldn’t sleep at all. I tried everything. A warm cup of milk, turning all of the lights off, just closing my eyes, playing jazz in the background. But nothing ever worked. So I would stay up all night, and when I went into work the next day I would be sluggish, and I would constantly be spacing out. Everytime I would space out you would appear. When I tried to get to you I would be blocked, it was like an invisible wall was keeping me from you. I would try over and over to get through the wall but no matter what I couldn’t. Then after a month I started seeing you and some guy there, I don’t know who it was, but it really hurt. I just had to stand there and endure not being able to hold you like I used to…” 

He paused again and you saw tears started to roll down his cheeks. You lifted your hand that was not laced with his and wiped his tears away. “Hey, it's okay, it wasn’t real alright. After you left,” He winced at the words, “I didn’t get with anyone else. I hoped that you would come back and we could be together again.” you told him, “And it turns out I was right, even if it took us three years to find eachother again, we were brought back to one another.” you kissed his cheeks, his nose, his forehead, and finally his lips. “우린 함께해야 하니까. (we're meant to be together)” Taehyung looked at you, his eyes wide but full of love and adoration purely for you. 

Taehyung let go of your laced hands and cupped your cheeks, bringing you into a kiss. You immediately kissed him back. God you’ve missed this. The feeling of his lips on yours. When the both of you pulled away, you were panting and your breaths mingled together. You met Taehyung’s eyes again and you both dove right back into the kiss. One of Tae’s hands moved to the back of your head, as his tilted to the side, deepening the kiss. You felt Taehyung’s tongue as he licked your bottom lip, as if asking for permission to enter your mouth. Your lips parted immediately allowing him in. Your tongues met as he explored your mouth with his, and you explored his with yours. Your hands moved into Taehyung’s  hair as the kiss got more and more lustful. Taehyung all of a sudden flipped the two of you so you were now caged under him. His arms coming to either side of your head. He looked at you, his eyes clouded over with love and lust for you. His eyes met yours, “괜찮습니까(is this okay)?” he asked. You nodded, and he started to kiss down your neck. Sucking and nipping at the skin of your neck and collar, slowly but surely moving south. Once he met the junction between your neck and shoulders he sucked harshly. You let out a light moan. Tae pulled away and admired the art that was you. Splotches of blue and red and purple covered your neck and collar. Taehyung’s hands went to the hem of your shirt and pulled it up slightly, exposing a bit of your stomach. His eyes met your own once again, you could tell he was asking if it was okay for him to continue with what he was doing. You nodded to the male above you, allowing him to continue. In a second your shirt and bra were on the floor next to the bed. Taehyung sat back and admired you from under him. “Even after years apart, you're still so 아름답다(beautiful).” he complimented softly before leaning down and capturing your lips in a soft but passionate kiss. 

That night you and Taehyung made up for all of the time you had both lost. Deep passionate kisses were shared. The phrases, ‘I love you’ and ‘I missed you so much’ were said too many times to count. The love between you and Tae was shared through him finally being able to be inside you after so long. It wasn’t the rough fucks like you had, had when you were both sexually frustrated. But the long passionate love making sessions you had shared when he was gone on tour and finally returned for a small break before leaving once again. 

“Tae 부탁해요(please),” you had whined out last night. Taehyung’s head had been between your thighs for much too long for you. “Tae 제발 난 그냥 널 원해(i just want you),” your hands tugged lightly on his hair, making him pick his head up. He smirked at you then moved up, placing his arms on either side of your head before dipping down and kissing your lips lovingly. Your own arms snaked their way around his neck as you held onto him. You both parted for air, then Taehyung got up from the bed and you whined, missing his warmth and touch. He dug through his suitcase and pulled out a little package wrapped in foil. “Do you seriously carry those around with you on tour!” you giggled out as he held it up with a proud smirk on his plush lips. Taehyung laughed loudly and walked back over to the bed and said, “Well I don't really wanna be cumming into a towel, so yes, I bring condoms with me when I'm on tour.” You laughed and pulled him into yet another loving and passionate kiss. This time it was cut short by Taehyung. He pulled away and ripped open the foil package and rolled the rubber out onto his member, then returned right back to you. Taehyung took it slow. He entered you with care and love, not wanting to hurt you. His thrusts were sharp, but sweet, hard, but soft. All of the emotions the two of you had missed out on those past three years finally being caught up. When Taehyung had finally spilled into the clear rubber, he stilled, his manhood still deep inside of you. Your eyes met one another, and a giddy smile spread on your lips. Taehyung smiled at you, his mouth going to meet your own. Your lips molded together as the after sex ecstasy filled both of you. You don’t remember much after that, only the part where Tae had grabbed a washcloth and whipped the both of you down. When you woke up the next morning Taehyung was still by your side. You were admittedly a little nervous to find out, your mind could have been playing a sick trick on you. But when you heard his ever so soft snores you breathed a sigh of relief. The golden warm glow of the sun had started peaking through the curtains. It made Tae look even more ethereal than he already did. You snuggled back into his chest. Taehyung groaned slightly, and shifted, his arms wrapping around your smaller frame and holding you close. God how you’ve missed this. You’ve missed holding him. His smile. His laugh. His… his everything. You’ve missed him oh so much. Both of your worlds had turned grey and it felt like you were blue. But now that you were back in each others arms, everything just felt right again. The color flowing right back to where it was supposed to be.

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Who Are You -Namjoon x reader-

Namjoon x reader

Category- Angst no fluff

warnings- none, just some angst, if you don't like angst please don't read :) not proof read, so sorry if there are any typos!

Authors note: This really hurt me writing this tbh. But every time I listen to "who" by Lauv ft. BTS, I get ideas about writing something, and since Namjoon is my bias I had to write something with him in it. Don't worry all my Namjoon lovers!! I'll make it up to all of you!

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You and Namjoon had grown up together and were practically inseparable. But that was years and years ago, now you two never talk. When you do, it is always work related. Something had happened, you're not sure what, but something in him changed. You had confronted him about it one day, but he brushed you off.

*Several years ago*

“Namjoon, what the hell?” you said annoyed. It was the tenth day in a row he had ignored all of your calls and texts. Namjoon looked at you, but chose to ignore you, making it seem like you weren't even there. “Kim Namjoon, if you don't at least say something to me, I’m going to be pissed.” you threatened. Still though, he said nothing. “Please, Joon. I just want to know what has happened. What's changed?” you tried speaking softer, but still, he chose to ignore your presence.

*three years later*

Namjoon was still ignoring you, you had tried over and over again to talk to him but he never listened. One day though, Namjoon came up to you during work. You worked at Hybe Corporation, and helped to form new k-pop groups. You were currently in the middle of packing for a trip. You would be a judge on the show I-LAND. You had been looking forward to it all month. You had been given information about the boys trying out prior to the day. You had even picked out two boys you hoped would do great. You picked Ri-ki or more commonly known as Ta-ki, and Nishamura Ri-ki also known as Ni-ki. You were in your office, you had to stop here before your flight because you had left something that you needed. Namjoon knocked on your door. “Come in,” you said, not paying attention to who it was, trying to look for that one important thing.

Namjoon walked into the room, he smiled when he saw you, his heart breaking slightly at how cold he had been to you the past few years. He truly regretted everything, but it wasn’t his fault truly! People had started dating rumors about him and another idol. Hybe threatened to put him on Hiatus if he didn't get cleared up soon. So Namjoon was forced to act as if you didn’t exist. These dating rumors though, there was some truth in them. Namjoon had given you a promise ring many years ago when he first found out you both had feelings for one another. He had promised you that one day you would be together, just not now. His career was just kicking off, plus, if Hybe found out he was dating someone, he could be forced to leave BTS.

Neither of you wanted that for him, so you thought it best to put off your relationship until he could work some things with Hybe out. Try to see if there was a way he could date someone without being let go. So far he hasn't been able to find a way. That was until today. Today he had talked to Hybe again, and they told him that since all of the rumors of him dating someone had left, fans had truly wanted to see him with someone. This person was someone who he was constantly with, and who would it be other than you!

Namjoon cleared his throat. You picked your head up, smiling at the person before your brain registered who it was. The color drained from your face, and your eyes went wide. You quickly pulled yourself together. “Hello Nam-RM,” you quickly corrected yourself, you didn't feel the need to call him that anymore with how he’s treated you the past couple of years. You saw Namjoon flinch slightly at the name correction. “How can I help you? It has to be quick, as you probably know already, I am getting ready to leave for I-LAND.” you said. Namjoon cleared his throat again, “I-I, um,” he paused, taking a deep breath, “I just wanted to apologize for how I’ve treated you these past few years. I want to explain myself-” you cut him off with a scoff before you spoke, “tch, it's been how many years since you started ignoring me? Three? Four now? To be honest, I’ve lost count. I tried talking to you every damn day, but you chose to ignore me. Namj-RM, you looked right at me so many fucking times, and just ignored my existence. Now you expect me to sit around and listen to you ‘explain yourself’” you air quoted him. “Your stupid if you think I’ve waited all these years for you.”

That’s not true. You did wait for him. You kept the promise ring he gave you so many years ago, but your pride and anger wouldn’t let you admit that to him or yourself. It's funny because the thing you're currently looking for is the promise ring. You had placed it down when you had to do a monthly check up on BTS during their dance practice as well as vocal practice, when you got back to your office, you couldn’t find it to save your life. It had scared you, you couldn’t lose the one thing you still kept so dear to you.

“Please baby-”

“Don't call me that. You lost the right to call me that three years ago.” “I’m sorry, y/n please, just listen to me. I swear I never wanted to ignore you, but Hybe had threatened to put me on Hiatus because there were dating rumors about me and some other idol flying around. They weren’t good ones either, it was negative about me. ARMY tried to back me up with it, and somehow they were able to convince Hybe that I could date someone. It created a lot of positive buzz with the good side of ARMY, Hybe will let me date a person of my choosing! Plus!!! ARMY already knows about you, you’ve been in so many of our past Vlives, and vlogs, plus, they’ve seen you in some when you come in to do the monthly reports on vocals and dance! They want us to be together!” he told you, a smile on his face towards the end, before it went away, being replaced with a look of seriousness. “So please, y/n” he walked closer to you, you took a step back but he continued forward. You hit the front of your oak wood deck, and Namjoon was right in front of you. He took your small hands in his larger ones and looked you in the eyes, “please y/n, give me another chance. I swear to you I won’t fuck it up like I did last time.”

You shook your head, “no, Joon, you can't do this. You can't treat me like that then one day decide you missed me and come running back and think I’ve waited for you the entire time. I don't even know who you are anymore. Who are you? Are you Kim Namjoon, the man I fell in love with, or are you RM of BTS, the man that chose his career over his relationship? I need to know. ‘Cause you're not the guy I fell in love with. Something has clearly changed Joon, because you’re not the same, and if I’m being honest…” You paused for a second taking a deep breath to stop from letting tears fall before you continued again. “I really hate it. I’m sick and tired of waiting for you. And now I know that you're not the right one for me.” you felt tears in your eyes before you quickly blinked them away. You looked at the clock hanging above your door. You pulled your hands from him, “look, I have to go or I’m going to miss the taxi taking me to the airport.” You walked to the door, turning back to look at him one last time. He was just as handsome as the last time you saw him, when you were both on speaking terms with one another. “Thank you,” you started, “for coming to see me today, it means a lot. Thank you for telling me this, but just know, we” you motioned to you and him, “we wouldn’t be able to make it out there,” you pointed outside your office door. “I’m sorry RM, I truly am, maybe in another life where you are not an idol and I don't work for your company. In a life where you’re just a normal person, and we met on normal terms. But that won't be us anytime soon. So again, I’m sorry, but we can’t be anything.” and with that, you left, closing your office door on the way out.

Namjoon was left standing there alone. He felt tears form in his eyes before they fell down his cheeks. He walked over to the door and locked it, sliding down it after. In here he was just Namjoon, he didn’t have to deal with the outside world, being an idol, the rumors or anything. He placed a hand over his eyes as he looked up, tears spilling from his eyes. Why did he have to be such an idiot? He ruined something so beautiful just to try to keep that beautiful thing. He had ruined your relationship, the promise ring he gave you so many years ago meaning nothing anymore except for the empty promise he made. He truly fucked up, now he could never make it up.

*present*

You and Namjoon still don't talk, you had blocked his contact information, and you chose to work with a different group within Hybe. They let you work with ENHYPEN. You had hoped Ni-ki would get in and thankfully he did! He did such a great job too! You had also worked with Tomorrow x Together, you enjoyed working with them. A lot of this helped you forget about Namjoon, but part of you still longed to be with him. But you knew it was better this way. You could focus on work, and he could focus on making great music for his fans and the company. Namjoon however still longed to be with you, but he also knew better. He tried to contact you, but you had blocked him. So to ease his ever aching heart, he listened to your old voicemails and read over the old text messages you would send back and forth. He missed you deeply, but he knew he could never be with you, he wanted you so bad it hurt. But you could never be, you had said that exact same thing years ago, and now he believes it.

10 YEARS WITH BTS (방탄소년단)

Even the desert has become the sea, so we swim forever Even the whale that was lonely is now singing together For we’re together, I’m not scared anymore to hope for eternity For you are my faith and my one and only reason (x)

d e v o t i o n — j j k · i n d e x

summary. your husband, could actually bring the moon to you if you asked him to, for he was so hopelessly in love with you. but that's his problem.

and it's not at all a surprise to see him actually try to bring the moon to you, seven days a week, every night to you. and maybe you love it silently as much, because your problem is, you love him back, just as much.

pairing. jungkook x female reader.

genre. implied e2L.., baby angst, fluff, romance, smut, mini series 🤭

warnings. stated in each chapter.

est. rel, smut in each part with baby angst and humour

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p a r t s :

—snowball

he knows he's screwed up.

—i must be favoured to know ya : coming soon

jungkook doesn't need to tell you that he's lucky to have you, because for him, actions speak louder than words.

—deeper than the ocean : coming soon

—every minute, every hour : coming soon

—i’ll be lovin’ you right : coming soon

a/n : possibly won't be in chronological order :D i cannot wait to share the little ideas i have in my head.