This.

this.

when it hits that i don't have to compulsorily write anything or that I don't have to pressurise myself into posting something that feels mediocre to me, it already feels so much better and helps me look forward to any new ideas that I may have.

still reaching that phase where I allow myself to take breaks, and relax and not worry about not having posted.

please take time to feel better <33

heyyyyyyy 👉👈

yeah i'm just gonna go ahead and start off by apologizing for going m.i.a. again unannounced </3

i once again (surprise, surprise) got into a mood where everything i wrote just felt blah, i was pressuring myself with deadlines, sucked the joy out of writing all together and, in the end, decided to delete tumblr and give myself the time to reset. i think i've discovered writing truly comes to me in waves, and that's perfectly okay !! but i need to be gentle with myself when i'm in these slumps instead of spiraling over how i must be disappointing everyone by not pumping out fics. like girl! it's just fanfic! it's not that serious! calm down you're not even getting paid!!

writing is meant to be for my enjoyment and slowly, i've been unlearning all the stress i've put into it to reclaim that joy! so, with a (tentative?) return, just wanted to stop in and give an update that hopefully, fingers crossed, i will be slowly getting back into the groove of things.

i've got a lot to catch up on, but for now, i will be active (:

for those still here, loving and supproting my works, thank you as always 🫶

im glad you found good moots here but still 😔😔😔 (jk lmao, on a serious note, im so glad you did !!)

you're one of my moots, lola, OBVIOUSLY I LOVE ALL OF YOU GUYS!!!

All my worries of not finding moots has been solved🥹🫶

(also this shows how you're camped up in here, lola. welcome😌)

absolutely adore this.

something about peeling fruits is just so intimate and under-talked about. it's the way they take utmost care to peel them as nicely possible, giving you the bigger portions, of the fruit, and of their love.

i need people to talk more about the love language of peeling fruits.

───── “imperfections?”

               ⋆˚｡ or, in which svt appreciates your beauty.

pairings; maknae line x reader, established relationship. | a/n; sorry that this took so long! the creative juices vanished. but i hope this provides to comfort to anyone who needs it! again, pls be kind to yourself and love yourself, just a bit more today <3 | [ check out hyung line ! ]

⋆ MINGHAO ⏤ hands; minghao fell in love when he saw you peeling tangerines for him. most would call it the bare minimum, but it is another thing to be on the receiving end of it. he takes your hands in his, kissing your knuckles, the back of your hand, your fingertips and your palm. he will never let go of your hands, and he always finds a way to hold them. he shifts the all the grocery bags to one of his hands, so that he could hold yours with the other. his fingers trace the creases and crooks of your hand, memorizing them like a prayer. it doesn't whether your hands are short, long, chubby or skinny. what matters is the love they hold in them.

⋆ MINGYU ⏤ tummy; there's a certain happiness that blooms in his heart when he notices you've gained weight. it's both an affirmation of his culinary skills and his love for you. his large hand lays gently on your bloated stomach, thumb caressing the skin beneath. he sometimes loves to lay on your tummy as well, and lull to sleep to the faint sound of your heart beat. his hands always find your stomach, making a home for it within his hands. he frowns, when you try to hide yourself. he assures with you a kiss to your belly and the next you find a note from him. “oh, muse of the ancient Grecians, what I would do to carve your curves on marble, and in my heart that belongs to you.”

⋆ SEOKMIN ⏤ thighs; his hands are molded to the soft curves of your body. a warm feeling vines from your chest, seeping through out your body when he touches the soft flesh of your thighs. whether it's when he's driving, he's making love to you, it makes you feel loved. a furrow nestles between his brows and his beautiful lips pull down when you express your dislike for them. he listens to you and responds that he finds them beautiful and that he wishes you can see yourself from his eyes. his head lays on your lap, heavy with worries and sorrows. only the soft plush of your thighs can provide him comfort. he nestles on your thighs, content with the solace they can provide him.

⋆ SEUNGKWAN ⏤ freckles; angel-kissed skin, diamonds painted on your skin with colors spilled by the universe. seungkwan's hands ache to touch your skin, and trace the tiny specks littered all over it. the gentlest of his kisses are reserved for your freckles. the brush of his lips, and the tender adoration swirling in his eyes is enough to lift any insecurity. even during cuddles, his hands find purchase on the freckles. a long finger tracing each and every speck of it. the first time he realised he's in love with you was when he looked up at the night sky. but all he could think of was you, stars littered on the vast canvas of the sky. after all, what's a night sky without stars?

⋆ VERNON ⏤ chest; now, he adores you. he loves you, your mind and your heart. he cannot bear the blame for the fact that your breasts are in front of your heart. and who could blame him anyway? his ear presses into your chest after a long day. the rhythm of your heart serves as a lullaby, making slumber creep upon his bones. his hands are somehow, always, under your shirt. they fondle, squeeze and trace your breasts. vernon doesn't care whether your breasts are big or small. he simply loves them. after all, they make home for him in all ways he thinks he doesn't deserve. but you know better, he has a home inside your heart, anyway.

⋆ CHAN ⏤ height; his heart skips a beat every time he has to look up to meet your eyes. he leans his head on your shoulders, content with how easily your bodies fit together. your hand around his shoulders gives him all the comfort he ever needs. you don't have to voice out your insecurities for chan to hear them. he sees it in the ways you make yourself smaller, a bit more “acceptable.” that's why he always makes sure to let you know that he loves you just the way you are. you don't need to take up smaller space when you deserve all the big things. you don't have to fit in any beauty standards. you fit in his hands and in the nooks and crooks of his heart. that's all that matters.

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SISTAR THIS WAS LONG AGO??? i SAID ILY LIKE TWO DAYS AGO

yayyyy mutuals hiiiiiiiii reblog if you love your mutualssssssss hiii mutuals

very shocked and angry hearing the news concerning taeil.

shocked, because as someone who's been a fan of nct's music for the past few years, i never expected something so heinous. he wasnt my bias, but i still appreciated him for his vocal talents and as a member of the group. all this just goes on to show that there's a lot more going on beneath the 'nice guy' persona we see on camera. that we cannot fully know or trust any idol, tbvf.

angry, because of what he's done and because of seeing people defend and support him. always choose morals before kpop. this is a real victim we're talking about here. the victim always comes first, and should be supported.

i will not be supporting moon taeil from now on.

be a human first, before being a fan.

SHUT UP you're making my heart explode-

(i'm learning from the best)

warning: mentions of alcohol

"well, hellooo~"

you turn towards the voice, and find a very drunken (and very adorable) soonyoung standing to your right, a glass of whiskey (?) in hand. he was loud enough to be heard over the noise of the club, yet you still perked up and leaned towards him.

"hello."

"what'ss a pretty lady like you hic... doing over hereee?" his voice sounded almost like a sing-song. he probably had a little too much of the drink. confirming your thoughts, he stumbles into the chair next to you.

"just winding up after a long day, you know? what about you?"

"well, i jus wanna let loooose tonight. with my friendsss. they're prolly out there, hic, dancing or drinking," he waves his hands around, pointing towards his friends. but you're only looking at him. a small smile forms on your lips, but you're quick to hide it.

"i see... it's too crowded here, you wanna go somewhere private?" you offer, pretending innocence.

he lets out a loud gasp, "oh no! i have a girlfriendd!! hic she's somewhere around here. she'll end you iff she finds out."

"is she that dangerous?"

"sometimess, but she's veeery sweet. hic always takes care off me. kisses me goodnight and goood morning. hic, always sends me cute stuff that reminds her of me... hic-"

he stands up as he's speaking, but then stumbles again and falls into the seat, face first onto the counter.

you gasp and rush over to him, patting him on the cheek, "omg, soonie? soonyoung? are you okay??"

he lets out a slow groan before raising his head and looking at you. his eyes sparkle with recognition

"y/n!! omg you're here! i was hic just talking about you! come on, let'ss have a drink!" he shouts and turns to call the bartender, "sir-"

"soonie, come on, let's go home. you're way too drunk," you pull him by his hand to get him to stand. even in his drunken state, he laughs and let's you lead him.

"y/n you know something? i met a lady back at the counter. she kind of looked a lot like you. But! she tried to hit on me!!"

you play along, pretending surprise, "really? what did you say?"

"I pushed her away, of course. can't ever forget my baby. my sweet, lovely babyyy..."