Just Got Home From Seeing Carly And This Is The Happiest I Have Been Since Early 2021 In Fairness Ang

just got home from seeing carly and this is the happiest i have been since early 2021 in fairness ang daming pent up shit yung naiyak ko 🫢 makes me think that all this appreciation for pop music is my inner child doing the lords work lmao the older i get lalong bumababaw yung kaligayahan ko but thats another topic!!! good night carly rae jepsen i love you so much pls dont make me wait another 3 years just to see you again

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Well into the winter of my 20s, I wish I can tell my younger self not to run after validation from other people. I used to do that a lot. In the end, it didn't matter. Things have changed. I still don't know whether I'm making the right decisions most of the time. But unlike before, I'm slowly becoming surer of trusting myself, and whatever path things would lead me to, I will let them come as they are. I do things on my own now. I live and go through phases by myself. And that's just as hard as admitting that - wait for it - I'm okay. I have made so many grave mistakes. I fell in and out of love. I've dealt with loss and grief. On some days, I still feel so defeated and loathe myself. I didn't turn out how I pictured myself to be. And I never promised myself that things will get easier, but I have overcome so many adversities and learned from them. If that's not strength, then I don't know what is. So maybe I'm good enough? 🙂 Happy birthday to me! Hehe.

Feels like I'm grasping for straws 'cause I'm so overwhelmed by the amount of information that I need to take in - to the point where I feel so dumb and stupid and I'm questioning whether I made the right decision by taking this offer. I can only hope it is and I hope it gets better but the past 2 days have been kicking my butt, I'm not gonna lie. Hi.

I've always thought that my threshold was already stretched to no limits given all the circumstances that I had dealt with in the past but when something that you never expect happens and life takes a drastic turn for better or for worse, no amount of preparation is adequate. You'd still wish you were a better person. So I've been trying to find the answers to thousands of questions for the past 24 months - one of which is if things would have turned out differently if I were wiser and more patient. Does everything really happen for a reason? But enough about me, I'm writing this down to celebrate you. True to being the selfless mother that you always were, you did not say anything about the pain that you were going through in an attempt to protect me from what was about to happen, for the last time. I have always been that doe-eyed 5-year-old kid in your eyes. Of course, you were going to put me first above everything else. What a soulful and loving thing to do. I can't get any luckier than that! Happy Mother's Day to the woman of my life! Coincidentally (and unfortunately) - on this day, 2 years ago - she passed away. Can't believe it's been that long already but my grief is just as visceral. And when I say grief, it's all the unconditional love that I never got to express to her. Because I still have a lot more to give. So maybe this is the best possible version of it? Maybe things DID happen and turn out this way for a reason. I choose not to run away from it. Palaging dahil sa'yo, at palaging para sa'yo. Mahal kita, Mama. 💗💐

Wishin' y'all a very happy Christmas! 🎅🏼🎄🥳🎉🎊

since the gap between zed and renata's deaths exceeded the streak window this falls as an unofficial pentakill😄🥳happy sunday!