This Might Be Denial Speaking Again, But Despite All The Bad Things I Pointed Out The Computer Has Also

This might be denial speaking again, but despite all the bad things I pointed out the Computer has also had moments of kindness. Those moments are just more nuanced, if that's the right word.

As far as I've known (I started watching around September-ish), the Computer has done nothing violent nor have they ever shown an actual, genuine interest in causing anyone extreme pain.

When Sun called out Eclipse (PREACH IT, PAST SUN!), they took the situation seriously and, even after giving the twins a treasure trove of information, they sounded really and genuinely sorry for not having all the answers to their questions.

Something like having Moon work "under pressure" when Sun what about to get murdered by a psychotic Lunar is unacceptably selfish, but at the same I can kind of see their viewpoint. Their focus was on Moon; trying to see if he's still capable.

The Computer was kind of iffy with New Moon at first, though, weren't they? Now that I think about it, their, uh... "sense of humor" only started showing itself after Moon lost his memories. Maybe they were coping with the loss by doing that. I mean, if they were designed to behave like original Moon... that Moon didn't really understand how to show care for others or how to handle emotions, or even think selflessly! (Moon: "Why would you lie to me, Sun?" Sun: *mental breakdown intensifies*)

So... maybe the Computer just acts like a jerk partly due to their programming imitating the old Moon mixing in with their own feelings on losing him. Maybe they're taking their own emotions, that nobody ever asks them about, out on Sun because they blame him for the trouble caused by his mistakes.

They aren't innocent. The Computer still puts Sun down WHEN HE DOESN'T NEED THAT and can act pretty mean (like when they rub salt into a mentally ill person's wounds) and needs to be held accountable for that stuff. But still, they must have their own take on the situation and should be listened to.

Maybe this is a little like the situation where people (including me) started to believe Sun was going to turn evil and that notion was seemingly confirmed after Sun pushed Moon into the portal... and the very next episode we learn that the motive was legit just Sun being a brother without any real malicious intent!

Although, if something does happen featuring the Computer I can also easily see them turn because they're sick of how they get treated. I don't think he'd go to Eclipse, but we have plenty more antagonists.

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... Dang it why do ALL my responses to anything turn into essays!? XD

Exhausted and anxious post-headache rambles, yay~!

So today's episode of The Sun and Moon Show...

The fact that the computer states that "Miku" has been stalking Sun and Moon every single day of the year... this is the one time that I hope the computer is joking and is just withholding the truth unlike before. Call it denial on my part, but the idea of that being true is legitimately horrifying -- especially because this happens in real life all the freaking time!

The Computer has been rude, but they seem to have become particularly mean to Sun and if they lied just to get under his figurative skin, right after what little self-esteem he had left was STOMPED ON, then they've crossed the line even further than before.

Sun has been picked on enough, for god's sake. Bless New Moon and Earth for being so loving and nurturing to him.

Part of me has been wondering why Computer has been acting like this, though. Is it really just the sarcasm mode thing? Are they sick of being looked down on by the boys? Sun and Moon have kind of treated them like a pseudo-servant piece of tech instead of another AI even before Computer started mouthing off.

Or is it something else? I don't want Computer to become a villain! I mean, if they aren't already doing something like playing a double agent for Eclipse! But at the same time... oftentimes I just get this weird vibe from them. I really hope that this is just a lack-of-communication issue between they and the brothers, or that I'm just imagining things.

(Plus Davis's voice for Computer is just so lovely to listen do and I don't want to lose that. XD)

As for "Miku" herself? Well, I hold a special hope for her.

That hope is this: if she dares to show her face again then she should be ready for her enormous serving of her just desserts.

She's been watching our boys? Then we will be watching for her.

We will all be watching...

They are having a tea party!

Artfight mass attack on @silvermizuki @venomous-qwille @chocolateseeds @ilsole @just-a-drawing-bean @nebuladreamz @garbagechocolate @darkxsoulzyx @smoljeanius

Close ups!

Did this attack kill me? Yes. I think I spent more than 5 days on this. Will I do more artfight attacks? Also yes :)

Process under the cut because why not?..

I used a reference photo of some random theater play. And I will be honest that reference literally started it all because it was perfect for multiple characters. You can see similar poses and lighting as well lol

It's funny you can't see Razzle here because I was trying hard to hide from Bean that I included him ahahaha

Me struggling with bg... And all the characters too hahha. Have no idea why I chose such complicated designs together (well, some of them are complicated yeah)

Lined and ready... My friends were like "you aren't going to colour it, right?" Right.

I finished rendering bg first, surprisingly it took me only two hours and one layer haha. I see some mistakes already but was too eager to finally be done with it. Not gonna show bg separately because I don't want it to be used anywhere but here <3 Then I layed out all the colours(the fact that some details died with final render always kills me from inside slightly<//3) and shaded the characters. Each character took me from 20-40 minutes, depending on how complicated their design and lighting were. I was really determined to make every character look good in their own environment, like on close ups, but also to make the whole thing work as whole too.

Funny how ugly it looks without final effects too lmao. The final pic you have already saw. Thanks for attention<3

Silly hours

Oh, me too! It's been so, so long BUT IT HAPPENED!!

(SUN AND MOON SHOW SPOILERS)

HE FINALLY DID IT!! HE FINALLY OPENED UP!!!

I'm freaking choked up but smiling right now. Sun has been holding all of this pain back for MONTHS; for more than half a year.

THIS is how the incident with Bloodmoon's death should have gone rather than Moon only focusing on how HE HIMSELF feels rather than what Sun was feeling and what was motivating him to do drastic things.

But I think Moon absolutely made up for it today, or has at least started to. I only think it's taken this long because of both the myriad of distractions the brothers are dealing with, and, more importantly, I think Moon was waiting for Sun to come to him. I get the feeling that Moon's known that something's up, but either he didn't know how to approach Sun about it, or another thing.

Something I've learned the hard way is that you can't force someone to open up and get help; you have to wait until THEY are ready (as much as they make you want to pull your hair out because of HOW GODDAMN STUBBORN--sorry).

But I'm SO GLAD Moon put his foot down because Sun was already too deep in believing that nobody would care about his suffering. And how Moon took a break WITH Sun, ready to help if Sun's psyche started acting up... I just, I can't. So many happy tears!

Things are far from fixed, but we've, at long last, started down the road.

On a lighter note, it's kind of ironic to me how "Bloodmoon" came in at just the right time; where Moon could finally at least have a bit of insight on Sun's current mental state, when all "he's" been doing is tearing Sun down. I can't believe I'd ever say this, but THANK YOU SUDDEN BLOODMOON HALLUCINATION~! :D

Also, GOD Davis and Reed KILLED IT today! Sun's denial, Moon's persistence, the line "BECAUSE YOU'RE MY BROTHER!", and finally the breakdown... man. I mean, they always do a great job -- all the actors do, on all the channels. Whether you like how they make the characters sound or not, you have to give them credit for the hard work they do. They don't just work on these shows, they have their own channels with FnaF Minecraft roleplays! Also, you know, real life is a thing for everyone.

Warning: self-deprecation (but nice ending)

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