I Think Im Going To Post It On Here Just To See How It Does! But Here Is The Link For The Ao3 Post!!!

i think i’m going to post it on here just to see how it does! but here is the link for the ao3 post!!!

to wish impossible things ft jeonghan and wonwoo

i just wrote the first member x member fic i’ve ever felt truly proud of but idk if i’ll share on in here :/ maybe this one is a story for ao3

comforting | bang chan

pairing: chan x gender neutral reader

genre: angst, fluff

warnings: depression, overall “sadness” talk

word count: 774 

summary: in which you’re not feeling like yourself, but chan is there to help you

a/n: i haven’t been feeling the best, so i wrote this chan drabble to help myself feel better. i hope this helps you, whoever you are, if you’re not feeling like yourself, too

you: can u come over?

chan: yeah. something up?

you: no. just wanna hang

door’s unlocked

i’ll be in the living room

it only took chan fifteen minutes to make it to your apartment, finding you buried in a blanket atop your couch. your eyes were on the television, but you didn’t seem very interested in what was going on. he could tell from your blank expression.

“honey, i’m home,” your friend sang with a smile, not gaining much of a reaction from you other than a nod. chan sighed slightly, pursing his lips at your form. something was clearly wrong.

“mind if i get in on this blanket action?” chan asked, earning a hum from you. he watched as you struggled to sit up, fixing the blankets so he could sit with you. chan kicked his shoes off, placing them by the front door before making his way to you.

you had expected him to sit beside you, but he picked you up instead, sitting down and having you lay on his body. his back sat against the couch arm as his legs sprawled out across the cushions. he wrapped the blankets around the two of you, hugging your body close to him.

“so...” he trailed off, watching as you lazily rested your head against his chest. your eyes were on the television again, not really watching the show that was playing. “what’s got you down in the dumps?”

“i’m not… in the dumps,” you mumbled, but you knew that chan was smart. he was observant, and he cared. sometimes you wish he didn’t care as much as he did.

“really? hm, i guess you’re right. i mean, this is the happiest you’ve ever looked,” he stated sarcastically, eyes peering down at you. you sighed, looking away from the television. you stared at the floor, eyes tracing the lines of the wood.

“fine... i’m not okay,” you admitted, even though you knew he already knew that. “i don’t know why, though. it sucks when this happens. i hate feeling like this, especially when i don’t know why i’m feeling this way.”

“well, you’ve been going through a lot. it’s probably just catching up to you now,” chan reasoned, one of his hands starting to run up and down your back. it felt comforting, and you nearly let your eyes close at the relaxing feeling. you wrapped your arms around chan, sighing again before speaking.

“i just wish i couldn’t feel anything,” you sighed, furrowing your eyebrows as you glared at the ground.

“i understand,” chan sighed with you, his hand now running through your hair. “but these feelings we have... they remind us that we are alive. i know that sounds like bullshit a therapist would say, but it’s true.”

“you said it, not me.”

“oh, whatever!” chan shook his head and chuckled softly at your words, holding you tighter as he continued. “anyway, i‘ve had feelings like yours too - i’ve told you about them. they last from a few hours to a few months - to a few years, sometimes. but i keep living; i keep going on because i have a life to live. and so do you.”

“i know that, but... sometimes i wish i could just... press pause,” you explained, earning a nod from your friend. “it gets too much sometimes... i just need a break, you know?”

“i know,” he reassured you. you believed him. chan had come to you with his similar feelings many times before. you felt comforted to know that you weren’t alone in your feelings.

“thank you for being here.” you hugged chan tightly, closing your eyes when you felt them grow wet with fresh tears.

“i’m always here for you.” he liked to remind you this a lot. it was comforting, having someone to be by your side during these times. “hey, we can put life on pause for now, okay? what’s say you and i go to your room and take a nap until dinner?”

“chan... it’s one in the afternoon.”

“five hour nap. sounds good to me. you in?”

you smiled for the first time that day, sitting up and nodding your head. you followed chan into your room and for the rest of the evening, you and your best friend slept soundly. for dinner, chan ordered takeout from your favorite restaurant, and the pair of you watched your favorite show as you munched on your food. life seemed to get a bit better with chan, and you were grateful to have him by your side.

these feelings are worth feeling, and this life is worth living. thank you, bang chan, for being a friend during these difficult times.

Stayblr Fanfiction Survey RESULTS

Last week or so, I posted a survey on Stayblr for readers and writers of SKZ fanfiction to take. I’ve been on Stayblr for more than a year now, a little less than a year to write for SKZ, and I’ve always had some questions on my mind while being on this platform.

So I put those questions to the test, along with some other questions I was interested to finally get some answers to, and here are the results! A total of 205 STAYs took my survey, thank you so much!

But first things first, it’s promo time baby. Go check out all of these fantastic writers on Stayblr! And for your convenience, I’ve sorted out which blogs are 100% SFW and which blogs have some NSFW content in them.

Sorry it’s so long, but I’d like to promote these people first before getting into the actual data! 

100% SFW Blogs (Fluff and Angst)

@strykiss

@cotccotc

@dayaswonderfulworld

@blueprint-han

@wingkkun

@lewsr

@crscendoforsung

@cherryhanji

@inmyfelix

@marriael

@pwarkhans

@chogiwow

@461lightfire

@tracing-letters

@armysantiny

@spdrmrk

@scriptura-delirus

@skzfairies

@leggomylino

@binnieswritings

@changbinniee

@n8dlesoupguk 

@luvhyjr 

@seungmoe

@banqtlattae 

@peachyhan

@freckledberries

@crystal-snowing

@neo-shitty

@fairiejunie

@thepixelelf 

@softbbyg0rl

@svnghrt 

@squishygyehyeon 

@lveletters

@heyheybrownieboy (only on ao3)

NSFW Blogs (Includes smut or at least suggestive content, but I’m pretty sure 90% of these people here have a ton of SFW content too!)

@skzctnightnight

@delicatewerewolfsoul

@hanjizung

@ravenlixwitch (only suggestive content)

@dom–minnie

@mochinnie

@hanniiesuckle17 (only suggestive content)

@dreamyhan

@stayzenniesstuff

@goodcool

@sumideluxe

@hyunjeonnies

@missskzbiased

@binracha

@jimmychansimp 

@the-wonandonly

@hyunjinsdoll

@sturaykidseu

@jeonglixie 

@tabsteen

@16jan

@clandestine-lixie

@fictionxo

If I missed any of you, or misplaced you, please let me know.

Before we get started on the results, here are some things I’d like to point out:

No arguing under this post, however, I’d like to see everybody’s reactions through reblogs and comments!

Respect everybody’s opinions.

Please private message me if you’d like to spread this data on another platform!

Now, let’s get started!

(There might be some errors, I started at like 8:30 pm and it’s now 11 pm, the BACK PAIN MY GOSH)

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when you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! then, send to your last ten people in your notifs (anonymously). you never know who might benefit from spreading positivity :)

1. my cat, mai (whom i miss dearly) (she’s back at my hometown while i’m at college btw!)

2. walking around my new campus

3. being away from home

4. trying new foods

5. talking to my mother and my sisters over the phone

adore how love in hospital playlist is never grand or dramatic, but its epic-ness is shown through its simplicity and honesty.

love in hospital playlist is simply eating meals together, walking together, looking at the rain together, driving the one you love home, being their best friend before their lover, looking for understanding and common ground together, apologizing and maturing from mistakes, and telling the other that they’re okay. 

it’s jeong won hugging gyeoul without a single question, it’s jun wan making sure that ik sun’s physical health was doing good first, it’s ik jun bringing coffee for song hwa, it’s seok hyung bringing medicines for min ha’s mother, it’s jae hak wanting to make sure that his wife was okay in all situations……..love can be that simple. 

dramas tend to show love in the most over-the-top ways which is lots of fun, but at the end of the day, i feel that it’s not who’s giving the big speech while standing outside your door; it’s who’s there inside the house with you. 

update: i ended up buying monsta x tickets instead for my friend, my roommate and i! everything was sold out so we decided to see monsta x instead :) i’m excited to see my babies live

reblog and make a wish! this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)