I Hate Being In Between. Not Actively Suicidal, But Hell How I Want To Die I Just Want To Vanish, Disappear

I hate being in between. Not actively suicidal, but hell how I want to die… I just want to vanish, disappear into thin air, I’m not strong enough to attempt… I wish I had though…

The ‘you’re mature for your age’ to sleeping with a bed full of plushies in your mid twenties pipeline is real

No no you don't understand! I want to watch this show/movie, read this book, listen to this podcast, etc.! But I must be in the right mindset and the exact head space to begin, or I just can't!

completely obsessed with this set of words that I came across on twitter

Not having many memories from childhood only make it harder to accept self. So much blurry and fuzzy and foggy. Lots of it dissociated away. Can recall very few moments and memories. Wish could find answers for stuff. But all alone with only my memory. Hate it hate it hate it.

I’d love to hear other peoples’ thoughts on this, but hear me out…

Soap is lowkey way scarier than Ghost

He’s not usually scary because he doesn’t try to be. Soap is very charming and boisterous and has a great sense of humor.

But I saw someone point out how Soap’s eyes are just on the side of too blue if he wants them to be. Too intent. Have you seen the way he looks at graves? Have you seen the way his ADHD ass focuses with that wide-eyed, predator-like intensity?

Soap isn’t a bad guy, he wants to fight for what’s right. But he likes the fight. He has fun. I sincerely believe this man has a very well-hidden and controlled sadistic side.

He’s a demolitions expert. He’s incredibly smart and incredibly destructive. I feel like people headcanon him as being the most effeminate or happy-go-lucky of the 141, which he very well may be! But I also think he is the most batshit insane and quite possibly the last person I’d want to cross.