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"Name one hero who was happy"

"I can't"

I need neil josten to chew somebody out again like he did with riko so vehemently, no mercy to be found, he was locked and loaded within seconds. He took one look at riko and decided to ruin his ENTIRE LIFE without hesitation. I miss it. The antagonism of it all. Neil "I have a bit of an attitude problem" Josten was not only there to play stupid games, he was there to win those stupid prizes. And he sure won those stupid prizes and more.

The disabled feeling where you're in pain but you don't want people around you to fuss over you so you just try to live through the pain until medicine kicks in (if it kicks in), meanwhile tears involuntarily fall down your cheeks.

The very strange disabled experience of constantly downplaying your own pain and then out of nowhere you have an Epiphany and realize that most people don't have days where they wake up feeling like a deboned fish.

Katelyn and Neil are the only people that can differentiate the twins when they're wearing big hoodies (that cover slight differences in their muscles and cover Andrew's armbands). This is because they think the twin they're not dating is ugly, even tough the Twinyards have the same face. It's like a 6th sense.

(It's probably something in their eyes - Katelyn likes the underlying soft sadboy-ness in Aaron, while Neil is drawn to the calculating edge and protectiveness in Andrew)

the andreil brainrot will never end because they own my entire heart so here's more fanart🤧

Roach headcanons because he’s actually my favorite

Has an obnoxiously bright pink flip phone that is his main phone

He has the entirety of DOOM on said flip phone and plays it constantly. How? Nobody knows

Drinks out of puddles

May be silent but is super chaotic and sassy

Will talk around people he feels safe with, including Soap, Gaz, and Ghost

Takes photos of Ghost like he’s a cryptid

Constantly begs for cuddles from Ghost or Gaz, just because

Will randomly go up to privates and tell them something cryptic and then say “no one will ever believe you”

LIVES for drama. If there’s tea, he’s the first to know

Loves bugs and will collect them

Has adhd and autism

Fell out of a tree as a kid and has a scar from that. It’s his favorite scar

lives off 2010 white girl music

Drives scarily good

Adores twinkies

Has the best music taste and is always on aux

Can’t dance for shit

I’d love to hear other peoples’ thoughts on this, but hear me out…

Soap is lowkey way scarier than Ghost

He’s not usually scary because he doesn’t try to be. Soap is very charming and boisterous and has a great sense of humor.

But I saw someone point out how Soap’s eyes are just on the side of too blue if he wants them to be. Too intent. Have you seen the way he looks at graves? Have you seen the way his ADHD ass focuses with that wide-eyed, predator-like intensity?

Soap isn’t a bad guy, he wants to fight for what’s right. But he likes the fight. He has fun. I sincerely believe this man has a very well-hidden and controlled sadistic side.

He’s a demolitions expert. He’s incredibly smart and incredibly destructive. I feel like people headcanon him as being the most effeminate or happy-go-lucky of the 141, which he very well may be! But I also think he is the most batshit insane and quite possibly the last person I’d want to cross.

Me: I'm so exhausted and drained from my chronic pain that I'll sleep well tonight

My body:

Maybe im faking all of it, maybe none of this is real. Am I real? Am I a person? I don’t think I am anymore. Do I still breathe, sleep, eat, drink, bleed? Am I still human anymore? Is my blood still red or is it some other color? Does it still taste of iron or will I taste another metal instead? What am I if not human? Am I anything at all?

I hate being in between. Not actively suicidal, but hell how I want to die… I just want to vanish, disappear into thin air, I’m not strong enough to attempt… I wish I had though…

I’m Andreil sexual; not in the sense that i’m attracted to Andreil, but that I want to be attracted to someone like Andrew and Neil are attracted to eachother.

im obsessed with andreil winning every fucking queer tournament in existence this niche book not only seems to have a huge fansebase but also the main couple hits like coke and has everyone on a leash nora could dominate the whole world

completely obsessed with this set of words that I came across on twitter

Not having many memories from childhood only make it harder to accept self. So much blurry and fuzzy and foggy. Lots of it dissociated away. Can recall very few moments and memories. Wish could find answers for stuff. But all alone with only my memory. Hate it hate it hate it.

Today is my birthday. I don’t particularly like my birthday. In fact, I hate it. I don’t like to be reminded that I’m alive and real. It forces me to acknowledge that time passes and im still broken inside. That I have not gotten any better. i dont feel older, in fact i still feel like a child hiding under my bed.

I wanna cry, scream, hurt myself, and die so bad, but I just don't have energy for anything anymore...

I feel so damn exhausted

andrew being in the foster system for 13 years before juvie, his home with nicky being his 13th, bee being andrew’s 13th therpaist, the ravens scoring 13 goals in their first match against the foxes on the 13th of october, there are 13 ravens drills, neil’s interrogation with the fbi lasting 13 hours, andrew and neil’s numbers adding to 13

andrew: do you believe in luck?

neil: only the bad sort

13 being the ‘lucky number’ of the series despite it being a superstitious sign of bad luck. mirroring the subversion of expectations within the series that starts with andrew and neil beginning to understand each other after a shaky start, and ending with the foxes beating the ravens.

I think the reason why I'm so obsessed with Andreil ( so much so that they are the only reason why I got AO3 and after years they are still the only ones I religiously read fanfic about ) is because I'm in complete awe of the idea of two people so violent and angry and crooked falling in love so hard it makes them gentle, kind to each other like no one else has bothered to be with them, protective and a little stupid.

What have I done to have all this hurt inside me ?

No no you don't understand! I want to watch this show/movie, read this book, listen to this podcast, etc.! But I must be in the right mindset and the exact head space to begin, or I just can't!

The ‘you’re mature for your age’ to sleeping with a bed full of plushies in your mid twenties pipeline is real

andrew’s first outing after easthaven tbh

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