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I know people really like disheveled Odysseus but like, wouldn't it be worse if during his stay at calypso's island he's the most cleaned up and groomed he's ever been during his voyage. His hair is long and silky smooth, his beard is trimmed, his clothes are pristine and hang nicely from his body. Calypso treats him like a prized possession, and how could she possibly let it (her pet? her toy?) get unkempt and scruffy? Idk something about him having a complete lack of agency and no choice in even the way he looks and his stay in a supposed paradise reflecting on his person

A lot of what I write anymore is directly related to my dnd character Ithmaris so I can't exactly post them because MAJOR context will be missing, but I am really proud of some lines, so here they are:

(Note: these are from multiple pieces)

"Eyes lock on eyes, and an arrow between them."

"Fear was the sound of screams and storms."

"Ithmaris has grown up, and neither of her parents have been there to see it. She wonders if either of them would still love her."

"Time takes more memories, and she claws to hold on to the remaining scraps like a trapped animal in the death throes of starvation."

"All the same, she’d spent hours daydreaming what her father’s face would look like when he finally came home, how he would wrap the siblings in a hug warm enough to melt away the ice of Ithmaris’s skin. What a beautiful dream. What a beautiful lie."

"Solitude means tears without witnesses. Anxiety attacks without supervisors. Solitude is the verdant shoots of spring, the shining growth of summer, and the fading of autumn that allows winter to persist. Her oldest friend and most faithful tool."

"She wields a bow of starlight and can summon the might of the heavens, and yet, she is not strong enough."

"Will [love interest] always want to waste the years of her life, growing older and older, on someone who stubbornly refuses to age? "

"With one hand on the door, they look up to the silent watchers. Will the stars remember this? Will they judge her, throw down their celestial sentencing of cowardice the next time she wields their light? Her mind pleads their case to the firmament: they are not weak for this. Maybe selfish, but they are not weak for this."

"The sentencing is clear. So long she focused on staying strong, on getting stronger and yet– They are weak for this. They are weak for this."

Listen, I understand why people are upset with Eurylochus (Epic). I get it! He makes choices that damn the entire crew, questions Odysseus when he shouldn't, etc. He's easy to blame.

But can you blame him? For opening the bag a god had given them when all the last god did was drown hundreds of their men? For being afraid on Circe's island and wanting so desperately to just go home? For being angry when the man who is known for his intelligence, who REFUSED to leave behind a single man, who SAID THAT NO ONE ELSE WOULD DIE, then sacrificed 6 men? Six people you've fought beside for a decade in a ruthless war and survived every battle, problem, and smite the gods had sent?

Can you blame him for his hunger?

There’s something terribly poetic in the inevitability of events in EPIC. The choices Odysseus is given lead to no win situations. They aren’t really choices at all.

Kill a foe’s child or witness the death of your own. Sacrifice six men or sacrifice them all. Allow your crew to starve or watch as they slaughter sacred cattle.

Sacrifice your friends, your brothers, or give up your last chance at reaching home.

In the end, the result is always the same. He destroys himself

NO-ONE AND I MEAN NO-ONE UNDERSTANDS EURYLOCHUS LIKE I DO

HIS FATAL FLAW IS HUNGER. HE WAS THE FIRST ONE TO BRING UP HOW LITTLE FOOD THEY HAD IN THE TROY SAGA. HE OPENED THE BAG BECAUSE OF HIS HUNGER FOR A MYSTERIOUS TREASURE. HE KILLS THE COW BECAUSE OF HIS UNYIELDING HUNGER.

HE TRIED TO TALK ABOUT THE WIND BAG AT THE START OF THE CIRCE SAGA BUT ODYSSEUS WOULDN’T HEAR HIM. HE HAS LIVED WITH THAT GUILT FOR THE ENTIRE TIME.

HE WAS NOT HYPOCRITICAL FOR BEING MAD AT ODYSSEUS FOR SACRIFICING 6 MEN BECAUSE EVEN THO HE WANTED TO SACRIFICE THE MEN TO CIRCE, ODYSSEUS TEACHES HIM THAT THEY MUST FIGHT. SURE NOT ALL OF THEM WILL SURVIVE BUT THEY MUST TRY NONETHELESS. SO ODYSSEUS CHOOSING NOT TO SAVE THEM WAS THE PROBLEM. THEY PROBABLY WOULD HAVE DIED REGARDLESS BUT IT WAS THE FACT THAT THEIR DEATHS WERE PLANNED AND THEY WERE PURPOSELY SACRIFICED THAT EURYLOCHUS WAS ANNOYED AT. HE WAS PISSED THAT ODY HAD TAUGHT HIM TO BE BETTER AND THEN ODY CHOSE TO BE WORSE.

HI, THIS IS ADRIEL!

He was a kid when Domita fell. While running from a giant with his family, a Mazmus knight stumbled across them. Instead of helping, the knight ran, and Adriel's entire family was killed underfoot of the giant. Adriel never forgot the face of the man who ran, and vowed to kill him someday.

On that mission, Adriel joined the Mazmus. A year into his training, he saw the knight that ran--now a captain, from his bravery in Domita. The captain barely had time to react, cutting across his attackers face, before Adriel slit his throat.

Usually, killing a captain would be an unforgivable crime. But it is wartime, and Adriel had talent as a Climber and an obvious skill for death. The Warlord Assembly determined that he could put hid bloodlust to good use as a PSK, so long as he would not turn on his squad. This was assured by an infestation from Captain Olivia Morr, whose Gift allows her to read the mind of an individual. Captain Morr deemed him to have no outstanding hatred to other Mazmus knights, and if he did, their connection would allow her to act the insant the thought of murder crosses his mind.

So, Adriel was assigned to Captain Morr's squad in training. The ones with the worst scores, the ones that no other captain wanted, the ones who would be kicked or killed first. Those were the ones Captain Morr requested, the ones she would whip into one of the best active squads in the Mazmus, the Midnight Ravens.

More to come for this little war criminal!

If anyone needs me I'll be in the corner making Tales From Cazilor OCs. So far the squad name is the Midnight Ravens, and I have Calendula (Blessed, Anchor), Veila (Stalwart), and Adriel (PSK, Climber). Yes, they have playlists. Yes, I'm working on art.

Yes, I'm hoping to GOD I won't have to change a bunch of shit after the sourcebook comes out because I'm making them based off of the sprinklings of worldbuilding we've gotten from the album and TGE.

I have a lot of creative energy built up, and apparently this is the project my brain has focused me on, so...

YES ALL OF THIS!!! I feel like there has to be an INCREDIBLE level of stress put on every person born Blessed, and that comes through in the similarities between the Scrittori twins and Arthur. Hell, even Winnie. The more I think about it, the more I'm convinced that Arthur is Blessed at the very least. Arthur not having any noticeable Gift tells is a really good point though! It would also be a great source of angst if Arthur was so committed to his duty to the Mazmus that he wanted nothing more than to be Gifted, only for him to go through the process and nothing happening. But if he was Gifted, all the pressure of using his Gift "properly" (i.e. to fight giants in the Mazmus) would ALSO be an incredible source of angst.

I really hope we learn more about Arthur and Apollo's squad. In the sourcebook would be wicked, but my guess is we won't really know more about their dynamics until the next album. I'm still putting my money on Arhtur being a Climber 😂

Fine. Fine fine fine fine, if NO ONE ELSE is gonna talk about Tales from Cazilor/Tales from Cazilor: The Golden Era, I WILL!

With the introduction of the squad roles (Stalwart, Climber, Anchor), I Deeply need to know what role Apollo and Arthur (from the OG album) fill. What was their training like? Are they Blessed? Gifted? We know Apollo was from Domita, but what about Arthur?

Given what little we know, I think Apollo would have willingly joined the Mazmus. (AKA doesn't need to be Blessed, would have willingly made the choice). Being in Domita during its fall and seeing all that destruction could spur anyone to join the Mazmus to make sure it never happened again. And with how much care Apollo has ("dying for a friend is a hell of a way to die" and all of "I Hope I Die Alone"), he feels like the type of person that would push through any hardship if it meant protecting those he cares about. Not necessarily from a sense of duty, but from a love for others.

Arthur, on the other hand, feels like someone who was born Blessed because he is So duty-bound. He "had no fond memories", dreams only of killing Toltag, never rests, etc. He kind of reminds me of Arge in TGE except to the extreme--born Blessed, told he is meant for greatness and has a duty to do Great Things. Except Arge is serving in a more peaceful time, and Arthur has likely only been serving after the fall of Domita, so there is more urgency, more pressure for Arthur. Arthur strikes me as the type that has had a singular goal--killing Toltag and ending the war--hammered into him since birth, and that would mean it is more likely than not that he would be Blessed.

This is, of course, assuming that the relationship between being Blessed and the Mazmus selection and training is consistent between the album and TGE. Which I guess isn't something we'll really know until the source books is released, Naethan reveals more information, and/or another album is released.

Join me for more theories and thoughts I scream into the void while Cazilor has no fandom, thank you thank you.

SIX HUNDRED LIFES AT STAKE IT'S JUST ONE LIFE TO TAKE

HAPPY CAZILOR SOURCEBOOK DROP TO EVERYONE CELEBRATING

THIS!

My legit first thought when I heard that line was "Huh, so they're transing Telemachus, dope"

Wolfy. The new songs in Epic. Do you have any thoughts.

I laughed when listening to Suffering because logically I knew it was probably the sirens, but my first assumption was that Telemachus was trans

part of what makes tragedies tragic is the story being preventable from the outside but unpreventable from the inside

Together they shine ✨