Difficult-to-deal-with - A Submissive

i always wondered what got me into bdsm? i figured that was for two reasons.

1. i wanted to not be in control. i constantly ache to let go and without having to worry about consequences.

2. i liked the concept of pain and pleasure mixed together. it brought me alive.

right now, i really want to let go and not think. i need that

completing one subtopic = 1 min of rubbing my clit

completing a chapter = 1 orgasm

i need this kind of reward system to help me focus!!

slow reassuring kisses trailing down my body. slowly fucking while looking into my eye and reassuring me that it is going to be okay. that is all i need right now.

please, take control of me. let me turn off my mind when i am with you.

I just wanted to be someone's new year fucktoy

i just want to curl up in someone's arms and fall asleep and never wake up