Dilettanteinlove - Do I Dare Disturb The Universe?

i hate how "being a girl's girl" has replaced feminism. I hate that enforced conformity has replaced genuine compassion for and solidarity with other women. I hate how women call each other "pick me's" for not conforming to femininity or for daring to critique something other women like. I hate how we just keep finding new socially acceptable ways to bully other women for being unattractive or outspoken or difficult or complicated or weird or ambitious or for not performing femininity. I hate those front facing camera "comedians" whose whole thing is making up a straw-woman to make fun of. I hate the obsession with "girlhood" and clinging to being a girl instead of a woman. i hate "the girl version of the roman empire" and "girlhood" and it's just consumerism and I hate the characterisation of girlhood as passivity, niceness, sweetness, helplessness and frivolity and I hate the revival of gender essentialism even as a joke!!!

i need 40yo me come from the future right fucking now and say don't worry wait a little longer it's gonna be okay you'll find your place

I'm Freezing Cold Shivering In The Snow

if you hold on to that yearning for too long it becomes indistinguishable from cowardice

this morning I am thinking about the way a space becomes charged by repeated action. Like how would a room that has held a lot of prayers feel different from a concert venue? I'm thinking about your heartbeat imbuing the space in front and behind your chest with its signature and becoming an energy center. The way repeated thought changes your mental landscape, how can intention change the energetic landscape of a space without adding items? If you clap in the room you're in, the air will feel crisp..if you're sensitive to that anyway