Dilettanteinlove - Do I Dare Disturb The Universe?

Me: You know how when you were a kid and you’d wish that you’d get sick or injured in a way that would justify why you didn’t live up to your potential?

Everybody, apparently: No?

i need 40yo me come from the future right fucking now and say don't worry wait a little longer it's gonna be okay you'll find your place

- on childhood loneliness

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and let me tell you something. when the girls say it's not about the hormones, it's not about the surgery, it's not about the makeup, it's not even about the clothes, they're right. i get called ma'am just as often, if not more, in a t-shirt shorts and no makeup as i do like this (🙍‍♀️). and a lot of that is disrespect, y'know. a lot of that is disrespect.

but you wanna know what it's about ? it's about ...going to the grocery store, or the whataburger. or? ...the food bank. i love the food bank. one time the food bank gave me salmon🐟steaks.🥩 they have butternut squash in the fall...🍂🍁one time they gave me hundred count box of like. blended fruit 🍇🍍🥭🍈🍎🍉🍊slushy that came from a mental hospital. . u,m i gave some to the parents around the neighborhood and then i gave the rest to a mutual aid meetup. y'know, like free market table. because what am i gonna do with a hundred 💯frozen fruit cups right? ..i ate a couple. they were good. cherry 🍒➕🍍pineapple. youknow, they were nice. but a hundred, that's a lot.

one time they gave me TWELVE chicken thighs in a ziploc bag. and i was concerned about the ziploc bag🤔.but i decided to marinate them.a little bit of rosemary 🌿.. i think, thyme,. and Sage. salt 🧂and pepper. a honey soy sauce marinade . it was delicious. Garlic.🧄⭐💯

you need to eat. it's about food. it's about fats and oils and omega 3. PROTEIN, alright? Get Some Fat In Your Diet. three (3) meals a day and two (2) snacks. and a dessert if you're nasty...if you're kinky. that's what it's about.

so it’s a wednesday night in july and you’re at home and you’ve showered and you’ve masturbated and you’ve gnawed at the inside of your mouth and you’ve eaten and washed the dishes and fixed a corner of the fitted sheet on your bed and texted your grandmother and thought positive thoughts and still the feeling comes. what then