Happy Valentines Day They Make Me Happy

happy valentine’s day they make me happy

The Stranger is who I am. I don’t recognize myself in the mirror most of the time. I don’t have a super strong sense of identity.

The Eye is how others perceive me. The overachiever, watching and collecting and remembering information to be reiterated at any given moment.

The Spiral is who I want to be. I want to be colorful and loud and unapologetic. I want to laugh like Micheal and be cheerful in inappropriate contexts. I want to defy expectations and push the boundaries of what is “appropriate”.

The Vast is what I’m most scared of. emptiness and…well…vastness. being small and insignificant. that feeling of weightlessness before the drop on a roller coaster but never going away. the idea of something without shadows, just one flat color going on endlessly. silence. being forgotten.

"Which entities are your sun, moon and rising?"

Screw this. Why should i have to use astrology terms? I'll just make my own categories.

The Lonely is who i am. The thing that affects me most in life, the person life has made me become. (explained here)

The Eye is the way people perceive me. Intelligent, knows a lot of things, the silent observer. It has shaped the way i see myself - i think i would still feel connected to the Eye without this, but less.

The Spiral is who i want to be - and maybe who i already am deep down. I'm not even sure what i mean by this (not that i want to deceive people lol). Maybe it's about freedom, about breaking out of the limitations of reality aka society.

The Stranger is what i'm most scared of. This one doesn't even have a deeper meaning, or if it does, i don't understand it yet.

oc doodle I did instead of science

“I’m typically the one disappearing, not the one left behind.”

i can’t breathe

gotta love generic brand conversation hearts

finishing a tj klune novel is just like. how am i ever supposed to read another book again.