This Is So Heartbreaking

this is so heartbreaking

“A few years ago, I was crying and whining at my mom and sister while I was really drunk. I asked my mom and sister… it wasn’t long after we’d moved. I asked them if they were happy. I got drunk and woke up my entire sleeping family, like some ahjussi. It had been my number one goal in life, you know, to make my mom and sister happy. They both woke up and told me they were happy. But I was so envious at the fact that they were able to reply that they were, indeed, happy. Because it wasn’t like that for me. I told them while sobbing: I want to be happy too. Then I felt like I’d done my mom and sister wrong. But from then on, I started contemplating about happiness. For about six months, I pondered specifically over what I would need to do to become happy. I think that time of transformation has come. I think I need to be happy, now. I must become happy. I am going to be happy.” 

Rest in Peace. You will be missed, our dear Jonghyun. Life may have been cruel now, but I hope you find another life where you’ll achieve your happiness. Sing on in heaven, and watch over the boys and shawols you left behind. We aren’t angry, we aren’t going to curse you, you won’t be remembered for how you died but for how you lived. You touched millions of hearts and graced a gift upon this world that can never be replaced. You’ll live on in our hearts and within the happiest memories we shared these last ten years. Go In peace, this is our final goodbye.Let’s meet again.

everytime i look up at the moon and the stars, i’ll think of you from now on

We care for you guys

some tips to get through the next few days

drink water crying gets you dehydrated so keep drinking water

do breathing exercises it will help you calm down

take naps/sleep emotions are exhausting, it’s okay to sleep a little to recover

run cold water over your wrists this is especially good if you’re trying not to cry, it will calm you down 

eat don’t eat big meals if you’re not up for it but please eat small amounts 

get comfort food don’t feel guilty about it

take a bath/shower it’ll help you feel refreshed 

cry it’s the best way to relieve some stress so it’s okay to cry as much as possible

talk to shawols, family members, friends, you need their support and it’s okay to ask for it

be easy on yourself it’s normal you don’t feel up to certain tasks or activities, don’t punish yourself and just accept that 

Stay safe everyone ❤︎

A smile worth everyone’s time and love ... a soul worthy to be cherished and admired

when jjongie gets real happy and his face does the scrunch thing

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