Kit: This Is Ridiculous.kit: Jade Doesnt Have A Crush On Me.elora:elora: Yes.she.does.boorman: Yes She

kit: this is ridiculous. kit: jade doesn’t have a crush on me. elora: elora: yes.she.does. boorman: yes she does. graydon: yes she does. willow: yes she does. airk: yes she does. jade: yes i do.

My fear, it doesn’t get to decide. It doesn’t get to define me. I’m not giving it the power. I’m giving it to you. I have never believed in anything my whole life. I believe in you.

** secret love sentence starters.

“  meet  me  tonight  ?  at  our  spot  ?  ”

“  i’m  sorry,  but  you  know  we  can’t  do  this.  ”

“  you  almost  had  even  me  believing  that.  ”

“  don’t  you  think  you  were  a  little  too  convincing  ?  ”

“  i  wished  it  could  have  been  you.  ”

“  i  think  of  you  often,  even  when  i  know  we  cannot  see  each  other.  ”

“  i  cannot  keep  this  up.  ”

“  i  can’t  pretend  not  to  be  jealous.  ”

“  i  wished  it  could  be  you  on  my  arm.  ”

“   people  will  talk  if  you  continue.  ”

“  i  thought  this  was  what  you  wanted  ?  ”

“  how  can  you  lie  so  easily  ?  ”

“  as  soon  as  i  see  someone  else  close  to  you,  i  get  jealous.  ”

“  how  can  we  live  like  this  ?  pretending  ?  ”

“  i  don’t  know  if  we  should  be  alone  together.  ”

“  we  could  have  been  happy.  ”

“  it’s  difficult  to  be  so  close  but  not  be  able  to  kiss  you.  ”

“  i  broke  the  rules  for  you,  isn’t  that  enough  ?  ”

“  i  wish  that  i  could  stop  loving  you.  but  i  can’t.  ”

“  pretending  i  wasn’t  in  love  with  you  is  the  hardest  thing  i’ve  ever  done.  ”

“  maybe  some  people  are  only  meant  to  fall  in  love  with  each  other,  but  not  be  together.  ” 

“  i  love  you,  not  them.  ”

“  will  there  ever  be  a  day  where  we  can  tell  them  about  us  ?  ”

“  were  you  with  them  ?  ”

“  is  that  why  you  didn’t  answer  your  phone  ?  ”

“  i  missed  you  whilst  you  were  gone.  ”

“  i  hate  seeing  you  with  them.  ”

“  we  shouldn’t  do  this  here.  ”

“  you  love  me,  don’t  you  ?  ”

“  you  know  how  i  feel.  ”

“  please  remember  that  i  love  you.  ”

them

“  i  love  you,  not  them.  ” — @tanthalos

“Yes, that’s certainly how it feels, Kit! Great job!” Jade retorts as she storms out of the shitty motel room into the outdoor corridor, another cheap stop on the tour route. And she can’t help but think that, of course, Kit found some cheap groupie to mess around with to go with the scenery. “Just do what you want, like always. Go back to your slag.” She tells herself she’s angry, because Kit tried sabotaging Elora live on stage tonight. Or that she’s had enough of Kit complaining about the changes the label forced on them as if it’s only been hard on her.

But the sickly feeling of jealousy is one that she knows well by now. It happens every tour. It even happens at home. If Kit’s affection isn’t directed at her, Jade can’t take it. And she wishes she could keep lying to herself, but she can’t. She wishes Kit would finally see what she does. They’re not just friends. And then the words click for her. She turns back to Kit. “Wait, what did you say?”

i am totally normal. i am not crying. i’m fine.