Women

Women 🤝🏿

I find myself constantly wishing I could do more. Help the people who are important to me more, work more, and play more Skyrim. It feels like a weird cycle to find myself in doing everything I can, but it is not feeling like enough. I think it is one of those things that kind of nailed into me when I was young and then reinforced once I was able to start working. I think I'll start working on myself a bit more and using this place to post/keep track of it.

I'm still tired but finally getting a few days off. Time to relax, regain my mental fortitude, get back to the point where I can complain, and think clearly about something other than work. First, I slumber, and then I conquer like a true eldritch horror. Lol

I think I'm going to try making some art again it has been a few years since I got discouraged last. Let's see how this goes. _______________________________________Well it was a good start but after a few failed attempts at arms on my snake man I am taking a break.

One more of these today just to get my thoughts out. People are allowed to be who they want. Full stop if what you do does not harm anyone else or yourself (I care way too much about people to give the okay for non kinky harm). Then do it you like people with the same parts as you great I don't care what you do in your free time. You like people with parts different than you great have a good time. You like both at the same time. Awesome, have extra fun for me. Do you like either one? Great me too! You like all types and are more into vibes of a person. Hell yeah brother thats what is up. You like neither great we can play videogames together sometimes. You don't want to be involved but like to watch people awesome as long as they know you are watching and are okay with it all cool. People can do what they want with their own dang bodies. That includes changing it if they don't like it. One thing that always bothered me was the Christian rhetoric of "God doesn't make mistakes, so you are perfect just the way you were made." Okay, let's follow that line of thought for a moment right just to play along. If God made man and woman right and made every part of every person, then he also made the people who feel like they are in the wrong bodies. Meaning that for all the bigoted folks of the church, know maybe it was God's plan to have a person go through that kind of change. I mean, look, God is meant to be a single entity and a 3 in one and also be the image that we are made in, right? So that means he would be a combination of man and woman. Otherwise, we would all be the exact same thing, so maybe just maybe some people did get the wrong body. And that's fine. I just want people to be happy. Okay, religious rant over be kind to people and let them live their lives while you live yours. Stop hurting people. Just love people like you love yourself. Or hell, if you don't love yourself, then love people the way you wish someone would love you, idk.

It's been a long day already. My brain has looped around from harassing me last night about my mistakes to hyper focusing on my father, the drug addict and how I should have done more to help him. There was nothing I could have done he was the adult and chose his high over his kids. I really want to be nicer to my younger self, but I feel like I can't.