She Wants Him Like How She Wants Her Childhood Back. Like How She Wants That Blanket On Her Tired Skin.

she wants him like how she wants her childhood back. like how she wants that blanket on her tired skin. those days that always had a planned start and finish. the foggy white and yellow. she wants him like how she wants her childhood back. with undefiled and puerile yearning.

marker sketches from my diary

The “do you think we’re best friends in every universe” trend on tiktok actually makes me cry everytime I see it

I’ve been listening to this song, and lots of Slowdive, for a few years now. They are great. Recently, I’ve seen this specific song used for a trend on TikTok. It’s usually these lyrics - “It matters where you are”, and the instrumental part behind a slideshow that starts with a picture of whoever posted the TikTok. They usually say something along the lines of “maybe in another universe/lifetime I’m _____”, and then the rest of the slideshow presents characters in film and literature that can relate. I think it’s cool.

I’ve been thinking a lot about this particular trend on TikTok, and I think it’s meaning is deeper than just a selfie and characters we like, especially regarding the lyrics.

As someone who has spent a lifetime trying to either figure out where they belong or bask in hopelessness that they never will, with all the given situations it really does matter where you are. Now it’s up to interpretation. I’m not sure where I stand on the belief of past lives and reincarnation, but I do know that for as long as I’m in this godforsaken small town, I’ll never have a best friend, or probably romance. In this situation, it would matter where I am. I’ll probably find love and true friendship far away from where I am now.

I think the trend itself could also spark hope and self-acceptance, oddly enough. Me personally, I’d wish that I was beautiful in another lifetime. In that way, I’ve accepted that people won’t find me beautiful in this lifetime, and I’ll have to learn to find myself beautiful. That would be all I needed. But I do see a big hole, especially when people use the trend to talk about loss. I hope they are already comforted and have an idea on what’s after life, because I don’t, and I miss a whole lot of people.

It’s had me thinking and that’s what I thought.

So don’t lose hope ever. At the end of today and every other day, it’ll always matter where you are. If you can’t go somewhere else now, you’ll eventually be able to.

11-4-23 2:00 AM

It is really super fucking telling that Jews and Muslims are experiencing massive amounts of hate crimes right now and it isn't Jews and Muslims committing said hate crimes.

We are not character is in a game or some sports team. We are all very real people who very much impacted by calls for our death and traumatized by happens to members of our communities even if it is in other parts of the world.

I know there many of you on this site having the time of your life being able to go mask off and revel in calling for Jews to die.

But this is not a joke, this is not fictional. This is real.

Wadea al-Fayoume, 6 year-old Palestinian-American child was murdered in Illinois by the family's landlord. (who again I need to stress was not Jewish)

This is what you are sowing and we, the Jewish and Muslim communities, will end having reap.

Enough is enough. Stop. Just stop.

Be quiet if can not focus your words on how to send help, aid, and resources for Palestinians.

and one day, if i’m lucky enough. i will find someone who will actually enjoy my presence and the person i am enough, to choose me. over and over again. just like i will choose them and love them. one day