Jeonghan - Day Off

jeonghan - day off

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a day off, something you weren't used to. what else was on your list of things you weren't used to? your husband having the day off too.

"y/n, my wife, come back here~"

you chuckled when you heard jeonghan call for you from the bedroom. you were down the hall, folding laundry in the living room.

"you could come here and help me fold all of this,” you suggested to him. “most of the laundry is yours anyways.”

"but i rather cuddle with you. who cares about laundry?" he replied.

you stood up with a small stack of jeans in your hands. you walked to your shared bedroom and found your husband laying on your bed like a starfish above the comforter.

jeonghan lifted his head and gasped, "you came." he said and shook his head to move his hair out of his face.

"to put clothes away," you said, unintentionally finishing his sentence. you opened a drawer to the dresser and started putting the jeans away. "i would be folding laundry in here, but someone decided to occupy the entire bed."

"just come here for five minutes," jeonghan requested from you.

"honey."

"sweetheart."

you closed the drawer and turned around to look at jeonghan, who was smiling at you.

"you were staring at my ass, weren't you?"

"and if i was?"

you rolled your eyes, "yea, i'm not coming back in here anytime soon,” you said and walked out of the room.

"y/n!"

you returned to the living room and continued folding everything else that was in the laundry basket. while folding, you heard your husband singing in attempt to both serenade and persuade you to cuddle with him.

after awhile, you finished folding everything. you placed everything back into the basket for easy transport and placed the basket on the coffee table.

"jeonghan?" you called out, "what do you want for lunch?" you asked. however, you received no response. "jeonghan!" you yelled louder, assuming he fell asleep. "that damn—WHAT THE HELL?" you felt someone tackle you from behind and into the couch. "jeonghan! that hurt!" you immediately complained.

"i told you that i wanted to cuddle," jeonghan said. you two shifted around so you were laying on top of him instead of being face first into the couch.

"you're so annoying."

"and yet you still said "i do" on the beach," he said with a smirk. "you know, you looked so beautiful on the beach."

"you say that to me like everyday."

"cause it's true."

you put your hands on his cheeks, "hey babe?"

"yes?"

"as much as i love cuddling with you, can i please do some chores?" you asked him.

"you're gonna have to do them again another day, so what's the point?" he replied. you brushed his hair away from his forehead, "what?"

"you're ugly."

then, you escaped from his grasp and started running away. you heard jeonghan get up and run after you, but right as you were about to make it to your room, he grabbed you.

"you're mine~”

you turned to face him to see him smiling at you. you kissed him and felt him move his hands.

"stop touching my ass."

"no."

“it’s over” | hong joshua

summary: you and joshua are perfect couple goals, but even perfect couples still have arguments.

genre: one-shot, established relationship | joshua x gn!reader

part of the he calls you clingy series.

request - reaction to the s/o getting a dare and kissing them .

(you can imagine whether they are in a relationship or complete strangers situation or whatever) thanks!!

SVT and dared kiss

95s, 96s, 97s, 98s, 99s ··- ฅ^._.^ฅ

a/n: this one was a blast to write. it did took quite a while cause for some reason, half way through my will and want to live just disappeared, but I'm glad I got it done lmaoo, enjoy reader !! (vernon's one is messy but I had funnn) all interactions (likes, reblogs, comment)are appreciated !!

genre: fluff

warning: none (do tell me if i missed any!)

Minghao: girlfriend 

Minghao was rather shocked when he was asked the dare. He truly isn’t one for PDA, but they were drinking, and almost everyone in your mutual friend group is either drop-down drunk or half asleep. Jun’s apartment sheltered you all with close friends and a secure place, so you went to look at him if it was okay, despite the cheering of your friends. It seemed like alcohol can’t stop you from being genuine and caring to your boyfriend. With a nod and a roll of the eye to your group of friends, minghao melted into your lips.

Mingyu: brother's best friend

You haven't seen him in a while, but a slight sight of him at the mall you and your brothers were in made all the butterflies come back. Hurdling your stomach, making you dizzy with how much he’s grown since the last time all of you hung out when you were little. The little reunion led to a get-together dinner in said mall. And your brothers, being the little idiots they are, somehow knowing about your little (enormous) crush, decided to play a little game. “Dare you to kiss gyu.” and you were red. Mingyu was red. (Shit this is red too) and then they laughed, saying how you don't have to and they were only kidding. Only to be beaten by mingyu, who swiftly stole your first kiss. The looks on your brother's face were hilarious.

Seokmin: childhood best friend

Seokmin has been there since day 1. Who am i kidding, he is your day 1. And it was a casual hangout at your place, him laying down on your bed and accompanying you to finish a project for an upcoming presentation. “Wanna play something?'' Seokmin chimed in and therefore began an innocent round of truth or dare. Easy truths like ‘have you ever farted in public’ or dares like ‘i dare you to hold your breath until you finish that one paragraph’, and easy laughs were shared. Until, seokmin sat on the end of your table, “I dare you to kiss me” And it felt like time had stopped abruptly. “W-what?” you stuttered, and then seokmin moved beside you, lowering himself to your level. “Y/n, i dare you to kiss me.” He was all sly and smiley until you said nothing for a solid 20 seconds. “I-i of course, if y-you don’t  want to... I was just joking-” * smooch*  and now you’re the one who's all sly and smiley. 

Seungkwan: a mutual friend

It’s been a while since you met seungkwan and your friend group. It was a class reunion you were in, where you were making small talk with the people you once called the love of your life back in highschool until all of you were drunk or tired enough to play a childish round of truth or dare. It really went over your head when a friend dared you to kiss Seungkwan who was conveniently sitting in front of you. Your hazed mind lazily went to him getting ready for a little kiss when seungkwan held your shoulder, being somewhat the only semi-sober one. “Y-you sure y/n?” “Mhmm”, you sing-songed, ensuring that you don’t mind kissing him.  A peck, and some chuckles from your friends later, his hands were around your shoulder, his jacket around you for the rest of the night. Didn’t know a touch of the lips could bring such care. 

Vernon: stranger

Oh boy, when your friend dared you to kiss a guy not far from where you were sitting, which you were obviously eyeing, you thought this was it. The day you’ll throw your friends into a little bottle and toss them out into the ocean. The sunlit beach only improved your thoughts. It looks pretty nice to float around in the ocean right about now. “Oh come on, it’s no biggie. Besides isn’t he just good-looking?” one says. “Y/n I swear to god, if you come out of this with a boyfriend, reserve us a VIP table at your wedding.” And you want nothing but to turn into a speck of sand because if you know your friends you know they're adamant and won't let you live this down. So with a sigh, you went over to the guy that sat closer to the shoreline, not that far from your place. He was topless (oh god), with a notebook on his lap, a pen on hand, and headphones on. You had to tap his shoulder to get his attention. “Hey, uhm s-sorry... I wanna come and say you look r-really attractive and all, and my friends thought it... It would be genius of me if I could randomly kiss y-you.” “i-i’m sorry? Oh uh... Thanks. But the kissing p-part?” “U-uh, sorry that was really stupid, but I swear to god my friends won’t let me live it down…o-of course! you don’t have to if you think it’s weird, you probably think I’m weird..heh uhm..” “Vernon” “right.. Vernon.” He looked at you fidgeting with your fingers, hair dramatically blown by the salty air, and a pair of echoing giggles behind him he deemed to be your friends. “I don’t mind” “What. Really?” He chuckled, “Yeah..” (fast forward 2 years later, you two are serving your friends a buffet at your wedding as a substitute for the credits you owe them  for getting you a husband)

Chan: classmate 

“Oh come on y/n, it’s only a dare! Besides, everyone knows Chan is head over heels for you!” A friend of yours whispered-shouted. “Come on! I dare you to kiss him!” You couldn’t help the blush on your face and the heat that rose first to your throat, then next to your ears. “Keep it down will you!” you hushed them. They kept on giggling and you knew they were going to press no matter how much you refuse, but lady luck was on your side cause as you were trying to pry them off of you the bell rang, and everyone sighed. Chuckling to themselves and went back to their own desks. You’d be lying if you said the dare didn’t consume most of your thoughts that noon. And having chan placed so coincidentally in the empty hallway, tempted you even more. “Hey y/n” he waved at you. You waved back, making your way to him. With every step, double the heartbeat. “I kinda’ got this dare… i-it's pretty weird b-but-”, “But?” Chan sighed and chuckled, he leaned into your right ear and whispered, “Bare with me for a sec, they won’t stop bugging me.” He then kissed you. The most chaste kiss, not risking anything hardcore because of the environment that the two of you were in. And seconds later, accompanying your blushed face and chan chuckling while resting his head on your shoulder, erupts the cheer and laughter of your friends from behind the lockers.

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“cheer up baby” | chwe vernon

summary: not only are you the striker of the soccer team, but you also seem to strike out with the pretty boy of the cheer team.

genre: one-shot, college au | cheerleader!vernon x soccer player!reader

part of the he calls you clingy series.

Burning Desire

Genre: threesome smut, having sex, giving head, eating out. (MINORS DNI)

Warning: it's unprotected sex (always use protection!!)

Pairing: Jeonghan x fem!reader x Soonyoung

Summary: Soonyoung secretly likes you but he would never admit it. So what happens when the three of you are in Paris?

Note: i had some struggle writing this because of my english also it's my first threesome smut. I still hope you like it though.

Jeonghan practically begged you to come with him to Paris, telling you he would feel lonely without you. After a while you finally said yes and now here you are. In Paris the City of love as they say. Between his schedules he actually found time to go on romantic little dates with you and you had to admit, you enjoyed it a lot.

And now standing in front of the Eiffel tower, his hands on your waist, your arms wrapped around his neck, sharing the sweetest kisses and whispering sweet nothings in your ear. Jeonghan could be very cheesy and romantic and he loved you more than anything.

"I can't wait for Soonyoung to join us tomorrow." Jeonghan suddenly said and your stomach dropped. You loved his friends, that's not the point. "Soonyoung? But you said you would be lonely all the time and it's going to be only us. That's why you wanted me to come along." You said a little disappointed.

"Are you seriously mad at me now?" "Jeonghan, you knew all the time he would join us too. But you let me believe it's our time." You answered him and walked away.

Soonyoung could be very clingy and you had actually other plans than having him around most of the time. When you arrived in the hotel room, you washed and got bed ready. Soon after you, Jeonghan joined you in bed. He wanted to talk to you and explain but you pretended you're sleeping, so he let you.

The next morning, you woke up alone. Your boyfriend already gone but you found a little note on his pillow for you.

My love, you looked so peaceful while sleeping so i didn't want you to wake up yet. I'm having a schedule this morning but i will message you when i'm done.

I love you, hannie ♡

You smiled at and got up, took a shower and got ready. When you left the hotel room, you got startled because of Soonyoung. "Oh i just wanted to knock. Hi, y/n. He said and beamed at you. "Hi, to you too. Uh, Jeonghan is not here though." "Yes, i know. I came to pick you up." You looked surprised but walked together with him. "You look pretty as always." Soonyoung said shyly. "Aw thank you. So are we going to meet Jeonghan?" "No, we're going to have breakfast without him." You just nodded.

After having breakfast, you met Jeonghan. When he saw you he kissed you deeply. But Soonyoungs eyes on you two didn't go unnoticed by you.

"I don't have any schedule for the rest of the day, so we can spent a lot of time together." Jeonghan said and kissed you once again.

You walked around the City, holding hands. On the other side of you, Soonyoung stayed close to you. Your hands touched here and there but every time it gave you a tingeling feeling. He seemed to feel it too.

In the evening you and Jeonghan decided to stay in your room. He got touchy and started to kiss your neck and jawline as you sat together on the bed. "And what do you think you're doing there?" "I want to make love to my girlfriend or can't I?" He said with a mischievous smile. "You want to make love?" You said giggling. "Hmm or i can fuck you silly, you can choose, baby." With that he kissed you so passionately you almost forgot to breathe. Jeonghan was very quick with undressing you, he disappeared between your legs. Flicking and lapping his tongue against your soaking wet pussy, you moaned out loud. You two didn't even realize that Soonyoung entered the room standing in the middle of it, mouth open, to shocked to move. When you opened your eyes and saw him you pushed Jeonghan away from you and pulled a blanket over your body. "What the fuck, y/n." Jeonghan muttered and then he saw where you were looking at. "Bro, are you fucking crazy? For how long have you been standing there?" "Long enough i guess." You answered as you saw the tent in his pants.

Now he finally opened his mouth "I-I'm sorry I-you, i just wanted to ask if you wanna watch a drama together. But, ugh never mind." Then he turned around to leave. Jeonghan gave you a look you couldn't really read at the moment "i saw the way he was looking at you all day and how he stayed close to you." "What are you saying?" You asked with big doe eyes. "Come on y/n, you know exactly what i'm talking about." Then he got up, put his shirt back on and left the room.

Jeonghan went to Soonyoungs room.

When he got inside, he found his younger friend watching his drama. "Are you interested in y/n?" Soonyoung looked at the older man with big eyes. "I'm not interested like that in her but i like her." "That's the same for me. Get up and come with me." Jeonghan told him. Soonyoung did as he got told and followed him.

When they entered your room you were watching back and forth between them.

"Why did you bring him?" You asked your boyfriend. "He's joining us. Go and undress." Both you and Soonyoung let out a what at the same time. "You heard me, you only get one opportunity." "If y/n is okay with this." He said while looking at you.

"Jeonghan, why? What are you doing?" "I told you what i saw today." You would be lying if you didn't feel the tension between you and Soonyoung but that didn't mean you had any feelings for him. You looked at your boyfriend "i'm okay, if you're okay." Then Jeonghan walked over to you, climbed on top of you and started to kiss you feverishly, since you were still undressed under the covers, it was easy for him to gather all of your wetness on his fingers, while sliding them in to your pussy.

You moaned in to the kiss, opened your eyes and looked over to Soonyoung, who stood there lost. Jeonghan turned around looking him up and down, raising his eye brows "get undressed and sit behind her." You never saw someone getting undressed that fast.

Soonyoung really wanted to touch you, he wanted to kiss you and feel you. His cock was leaking precum, so when he was sitting behind you, you could feel his hard throbbing cock on your lower back.

Jeonghan took off his boxers and pumped himself a few times. Then he leaned down to you, kiss you one more time. "Baby, please turn around. While i'm going to fuck you from behind i want you to suck him off." You nodded at his words and did what he told you.

Facing Soonyoung you did something unexpected for him. You kissed down his chest until you reached his cock, licking a long stripe, swirling your tongue around his length.

Behind you Jeonghan positioned his cock on your pussy but before entering you, he let his head gliding over your wet slit gathering some of your wetness. His hands were holding your hips and when he finally entered you, both of you let out a moan.

Jeonghan's thrusts made you move forward on to Soonyoung, now deep throating him, your moans vibrating through his body. His hands in your hair, head thrown back. He couldn't stop himself from fucking in to your mouth, making you gag around him. You looked so hot, with Jeonghan fucking you from behind and your mouth on his cock. It's like everything he desired.

Jeonghan's hand started wandering down to your throbbing clit, rubbing on it. His rythm was steady but fast and when he watched you sucking off his friend he started groaning. Soonyoung on the other hand was close to cumming.

"Y/N shit i - i-m going to cum." But before he could cum you stopped. You had something else in mind.

Your boyfriends thrusts were getting sloppy and his hips started stuttering. And when you clenched around him it was over. "Y/N, fucking hell. Shit." Jeonghan let out curses and a loud moan as he came hard. You followed right away, arousal gushing out on to his cock.

This was the hottest that Soonyoung ever saw. He could cum just from watching you two. Jeonghan pulled out, his cum dripping out of your pussy. He watched you climbing on his friends lap, pumping Soonyoungs cock with your hand a few times and then sitting on him. Soonyoung felt like he was in heaven, he had you riding his cock, so his hands hold on to your hips and your hands on his shoulders as you started bouncing on him.

You knew kissing was not allowed but you went closer to him and let your lips ghost over his jawline and neck. Soonyoung could already feel his orgasm being close. His breath hitches when he looked down. Seeing his cock covered in your arousal and jeonghan's cum made his body burn from lust. He felt the knot exploded in his abdomen and without a warning he came. He moaned out your name like a prayer.

You gave him a kiss on the cheek and got up. Jeonghan helped you going to the bathroom and then went back to the room.

"I'm going to take care of her and you can go back to your room." Jeonghan told him.

You and Jeonghan took a bath together, he hugged tight from behind, leaving kisses on your neck and back.

"You didn't say anything the whole time. You're not that quiet actually." "Hmm it was more fun to watch Soonyoungs reactions, also it's a one time thing." He answered and chuckled. "You know how much i love you right? And that i don't have any feelings for him." You said while leaning back on his chest. "I know baby. And i love you too, more than anything." He said with love and admiration in his eyes.

You never thought, Jeonghan would be in to a threesome, let alone with Soonyoung. Later in bed he told you that he knew about his friend's secret and that's why he did it. Even though you could feel the tension between you and Soonyoung you told yourself it's because of the City. You prefered to be intimate with your boyfriend alone.

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No Matter What - Part 2 - Choi Seungcheol x Reader

No Matter What – Part 2

Choi Seungcheol (Seventeen) x Reader Summary: After your revelation, you walk away from your relationship with Seungcheol, convinced you are doing what is right. You push him away time after time, but he won’t give up. Word Count: 2,267 Genre: angst, fluff Warnings/Contains: Nothing. If I missed something, please let me know!

You knew he’d be shocked by your revelation. From the moment you said yes to the first date, you knew that having a daughter would be a deal breaker. It’s more than he should have to deal with. He will break up with you. So, you can’t care about the devastation on his face. You can’t let the tears in his eyes pull at your heart. You can’t turn back. No matter how much his pain is breaking your heart, you can’t let it sway you.

His chocolate eyes glisten mirthlessly and the smile that usually graces his face is gone, replaced by a look of utter ruin. You don’t want to walk away, but if you stay and Seungcheol eventually abandons you, you won’t be able to handle it. You’ve already gone through hell once with your daughter’s father and you’re terrified of it happening again. If you walk away, you’re the one in control.

Before he can hurt you, you pull away. Like the day you met, he calls after you. It takes everything inside of you to force one foot in front of the other as he begs you not to go. Your heart is shattering, droplets of pain pouring from your eyes. You frantically wipe away the tears and walk faster. You should have broken things off with Seungcheol long ago. You waited too long, got too attached, and now you’re devastated.

When you reach home, you peek in your daughter’s bedroom. She’s sleeping soundly, her favorite pink bunny tucked under her chin. You kiss her on the forehead and smile. At least you’ll always have her. There’s a knock on your door. Looking through the peep hole, you see Seungcheol. You should have known he’d follow you. You crack open the door.

“What are you doing here? I don’t want to see you.”

“Please, let me come in, Y/N. I need to talk to you.”

“There’s nothing to say. I should have ended this a long time ago. I’m sorry.”

You shut the door and sobs begin to rack your body. He calls your name, begging you to let him in, but you turn and walk away. If he asks again, you know you won't be able to say no. You bury yourself under your covers, curling into a ball. A few minutes later your phone lights up. You roll over, put the pillow over your head, and cry yourself to sleep.

...

It’s still dark outside when you’re jolted awake. You were dreaming of Seungcheol. In the dream, you slip off the edge of a rocky cliff. You can barely hang on. You look up in desperation, searching for something to pull yourself up. Seungcheol appears from out of nowhere, reaches down and pulls you to safety.

You check the time on your phone. 4:37 AM. Your texts are full of messages from Seungcheol, the last one sent only fifteen minutes before.

Please don’t cut me out of your life. I don’t want to live without you. It doesn’t matter that you have a daughter. Nothing matters except being with you.

His words sound convincing and you want to believe him. You put your phone down and try to go back to sleep. Ten minutes later, it’s back in your hand and you’re texting him.

It does matter. You deserve someone better, someone without the baggage my life has. You deserve someone who can give you everything. I can’t be that woman.

His reply comes quickly.

You’ve already given me more than I could ever have imagined. There’s no one else for me. I want you. And if that means you come with a miniature version, I want her too. I love everything about you, and I know I will love her too. Please just give me a chance.

His words are chipping at your resolve.

No. I can’t do this. It won’t end well, and I won't get hurt again. Please let me go.

No. I’m not giving up.

You know he’s going to end up hurting you. That’s what men do. You can’t be hurt again. And you can’t let your daughter get hurt either.

…

You barely make it through the week. Dragging yourself out of bed in the mornings has become nearly impossible. You teach the lessons you’ve planned, but you can’t remember a single word you’ve spoken. After you fix dinner for Amara, you go straight to your bed and bury yourself under the covers. You can’t sleep, you don’t want to eat, and your heart actually aches. You’ve never felt so distraught and agitated.

The weekend finally comes. You’d like nothing more than to lay in bed, hiding from your responsibilities and hiding from the world. But you’re awakened by a chubby hand on your cheek and a soft voice calling for Mama. You pull her close and she plants a sweet kiss on your cheek. The sun is glaring brightly through the windows already; it looks like a beautiful day. You’ve got to do something to take your mind off your breakup. “Should we go to the playground today?” you ask.

“Playground!” she shouts.

You ruffle her hair and smile. “Let’s have breakfast first, then we’ll go,” you promise.

It's a short walk from your apartment to the playground. That's part of the reason you chose this area when you were looking for a home. The two of you go there every weekend. It’s your special time together. She runs ahead of you, pulling you along the sidewalk. “Hurry Mama!” she squeals.

She wants to play on the slide first. You wait at the bottom to catch her as she comes giggling down, her hands thrown up in delight. She continually circles back to the slides again and again, after trying every other piece of equipment. She’s on what seems like her millionth trip down the slide when she looks at you strangely and points behind you. “Who’s that man, Mama?”

You lift her into your arms and look behind you. Your heart thumps inside your chest when you see Seungcheol standing beside the entrance. He starts walking toward the two of you.

“What are you doing here?” you demand.

“I remembered there was a park nearby. I hoped you might come here.” He kicks at the mulch on the ground, his hands shoved in his pockets. You aren’t sure what to do; you don’t want to cause a scene in front of Amara.

“Do you know him, Mama?” she questions you.

“My name is Seungcheol. I’m a friend of your Mama’s.” He sticks out his hand. Amara looks at him, no idea what a handshake is, and you laugh. His ears turn red.

“Do you want to play with us?” Amara asks suddenly.

“I don’t think -”

“Sure,” Seungcheol interrupts. She wiggles from your arms and takes him by the hand, pulling him toward the swing set. Your brain is telling you to grab Amara and leave before she starts to like him. Her heart is so big; if he’s nice to her, she’ll accept him unconditionally. Then, when he disappears, she’ll be devastated.

You walk slowly toward them, trying to come up with an exit strategy that won’t cause too much commotion. Stopping a few feet away from the swings, you watch the two of them. Seungcheol is gentle but awkward; he must not have much experience with children. All the more reason to get Amara away quickly. He thinks this is what he wants, but he has no idea what he would be getting himself into.

“Amara,” you call. “It’s time to go, sweetheart. We need to get home.”

“Mamaaa!” she whines. You eye her firmly and she sighs. “Okay.”

She jumps down from the swing and runs to Seungcheol, hugging his leg. He looks surprised, then smiles, hugging her back. You swallow hard.

“Will you be here next time, Cheolie?” she asks. Your heart drops. You open your mouth to object, but again, he answers first.

“I’m not sure,” he answers. “I had a lot of fun though. It was very nice to meet you.”

Amara looks sad, but then her eyes brighten. “Mama brings me here every weekend,” she reveals. “If you can’t come next time.” She smiles proudly. She’s too intuitive to only be four years old.

He chuckles lightly, and Amara takes off running. She stops and waves to Seungcheol, then runs off again. You turn to go but he grabs your hand.

“Can we please talk?”

Your voice cracks. “I have to go.”

You pull away from him and as you’re walking away, he calls, “I’m not giving up.”

Amara is waiting for you at the entrance to the playground. She takes your hand, and you walk quietly toward home. When you get back to the apartment, she looks at you seriously. “Mama?”

“Hmmm?” you respond, your mind is a million miles away.

“Do you like Cheolie? He’s really nice.”

Her question you off guard. You pull her onto your lap. “Sweetheart, I don’t want you to be sad, but I don’t think you’ll see him again.”

“I will, Mama.” She’s completely confident. “I know it.”

She jumps off your lap and runs into her room to play. You sit on the couch, staring after her, and you’re heart clenches. She’s already attached. He’s infiltrated her heart as quickly as he did yours. You’re going to have to find a way to make her understand that he’s not going to be a part of your lives. Your shoulders droop as you trudge to the kitchen to make lunch. This is exactly what you were afraid would happen.

Your phone vibrates.

I’m sorry I just showed up, but I had to see you. I’m miserable without you, Y/N. What do I have to do to convince you that I’m serious about us?

You don’t know how to respond. You’re angry he insinuated himself into your daughter’s life. But you can’t deny how you felt seeing him again. You’ve missed him. So much. And as much as you wanted to yell at him to go away, you wanted even more to fall into his arms and feel his love soothing your pain. You bury your head in your hands, trying to hold back your tears.

What would it take for you to finally trust him? What else does he have to do to prove himself? He’s already shown you that he’s nothing like your ex, he’s the complete opposite. That should comfort you, it should make you trust him. But something is still tugging at you, making you hold back. What exactly is it that you’re expecting or waiting for? And does it even have anything to do with him? Or is the problem you?

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The following weekend, you’re heading to the playground, your usual Saturday routine. Your heart is torn as you walk the few blocks there with Amara. Part of you desperately wants Seungcheol to be there waiting. But your rational side hopes he’s given up. Amara hasn’t mentioned him. If she’s forgotten and he doesn’t make an appearance, maybe you can finally put all of this behind you. 

You cautiously enter the playground as Amara runs ahead. Your eyes do a quick scan, looking for Seungcheol. You feel more disappointed than relieved when you don’t see him there. You didn’t realize you’d feel this let down. It seems you were right all along. He’s turned out to be just like every other man. You shouldn’t be upset, it’s only what you expected. But deep down, you had really hoped he’d be different. 

You slump down on a bench near where Amara’s playing. You’re overwhelmed by an unforeseen wave of sadness, unable to stop yourself from crying. As fast as you can wipe your tears away, they’re replaced by new ones. You turn away in an attempt to hide yourself from her view. You don’t want her to see you crying, not over a man. 

You’d been unconsciously counting on him being different. When you walked away, you’d told yourself that you were doing what was best for everyone. It was best for you to cut ties before all of you got hurt. Because that was what would happen. You said it so many times that your brain believed it. But it’s evident from the dejection you feel that your heart wanted something different. 

And now it’s too late. 

Your plan worked. Amara will be fine; she doesn’t seem to even remember him. And Seungcheol has finally given up. He’ll move on with someone else who deserves him, and he’ll be happy. You walked away just in time; everyone will be okay. 

Everyone except you. 

…

You couldn’t have imagined that you’d still be a wreck a week later. But you can’t let go of your devastation and your regret. You cry yourself to sleep each night, replaying over and over how the scenario could have turned out differently. You beat yourself to a pulp wishing you could change what’s already happened. 

You dread the thought of taking Amara back to the playground. It reminds you of how you squandered your last chance at happiness, but you can’t let your daughter down. So, when Saturday morning comes around, you put on your best smile and walk with her, hand in hand, down the street. She’s babbling away when all of a sudden, she shrieks. You’ve only been half listening to her chatter, your mind wrapped up in your sadness, but her squeal jars you back to reality. Your jaw nearly drops to the ground when she calls out. 

 “Cheolie!”

Standing by the swing set is Seungcheol. She runs toward him. “I knew you’d come!” she cries, jumping up and down. 

He laughs. “I couldn’t miss another chance to play with you!” 

“I’m going to the slide!” she calls over her shoulder.

“I’ll be right there!” Seungcheol yells to her. He starts walking in your direction, his expression full of worry. “I’m sorry I just showed up again, I –”

You throw yourself at him, wrapping your arms tightly around his neck. He gasps in surprise. “You really are different,” you whisper, tears pooling in your eyes. “You didn’t give up.”

“I promised you I wouldn’t,” he replies as he peels you off to look into your eyes. “I don’t break my promises.”

Part 1