250

250

Up to about 250 lbs now, feels transcendent.

It feels so good I just want to explode. I want to share it with people. I want everyone to see. I want to have someone rub my belly.

Sometimes I’ll see someone talking about how fat they’ve gotten and I kinda roll my eyes and think, “Oh that’s HARDLY eve-“ and then it hits me like a train that I have put on so much weight that it makes others’ weight gains look small in comparison.

I’m back and I’m up to 230 pounds!

I’ve been going back and forth on whether I should stuff myself today, but I ended up not doing it. I’m hesitating quite a bit recently. I feel like if you have someone to encourage you, then you can forge ahead, but it’s okay to not gain. Don’t relagate yourself to being an always-gorging gainer. Sometimes the gain is made better by a little back and forth. Sometimes you surpass your current favorite weight and need to back-pedal. Sometimes you want to gain, but just have some form of reservation. Honestly, if I could press a button and instantly gain 100 pounds, I wouldn’t- for me it’s just as much, if not more, about the journey and observing the changes as it is about having a big number on the scale. I think maybe part of my reasoning is that I’d like to share my gaining with someone. I’d like to be gently fed bigger and bigger by a kind lady who understands and gets me. Whatever the reason, I’m not stuffing my face today- tomorrow, who knows?

Oh crap! Just realized that virtual-collector-blaze is GONE! His YouTube channel (Adrien S) is gone too! Dang. That truly is a SHAME. He is one of the few gainer guys I’d actually keep up with. Good luck on your next iteration man, if you ever decide to return let me know! Kinda sad. Like I know I’ve deleted everything before, I’ve seen others do it too, but for some reason this time it actually makes me legitimately disappointed. 😆

I mean, if you want to stay active while gaining you could essentially just constantly dirty-bulk.