I Still Don't Like Elis, None Of This Is My Thing, And The Workplace Toxicity Is Sometimes A Bit Of A

I still don't like Elis, none of this is my thing, and the workplace toxicity is sometimes a bit of a trigger for me, and yet

I love Patt and if he wants his big dumb boss's dick that bad then I'm rooting for him to get it

the juniors and lan qiren excluded because i feel like those are the easy answers

bonus points if you can identify the fic or fic trend that makes your chosen option McFucking Lose It

possibly one of the most hilarious exchanges on doctor who 

i'm such a clown for BOC i guess because somehow this happened twice

I actually want to rant a bit about something I keep thinking about.

Classism and homophobia probably both play into Korn's inability to be open about his relationship with Tonkla. If Korn had fallen in love with, say, Tay from KinnPorsche, would he have found it easier to eventually come out to his dad? Insist on him respecting the relationship? Tay has money and connections. So maybe?

But we can't discount homophobia and that's what I want to talk about. Korn is deeply closeted and that's an important aspect of his character. The damage that being forced/pressured to be in the closet does is an important part of the story.

We get to see how homophobia and pressure to be in the closet hurts not just Korn, but the people affected by him. Tonkla, obviously. Win, to some extent, because his relationship with Korn is one factor in Tonkla's decision to use him. Even Fasai, though I have little sympathy for her, I can see how she's been hurt by this situation as well.

Being in the closet is hard. It's damaging. It's stressful & traumatic. And we see that through Korn. And how tragic it is that he was telling himself that every step deeper into that closet was actually bringing him closer to being free of it.

So I do bristle at his relationship with Tonkla being viewed as if Tonkla is an affair, or the thing with Fasai is simple cheating, or saying Korn is treating Tonkla as a sugar baby or side piece because this kind of relationship has been the reality for countless queer relationships and still is for many. And it doesn't absolve anyone completely but it is a different kind of context.

how many years did tonkla endured being a ”side bitch” 😭 they were together for so long and in that period he never got the chance to tell anyone he's with tonkla, only there— in their last moment, i guess.

I have so many feelings about their relationship. I don't think Korn ever for a moment thought of Tonkla as a side piece or affair. Tonkla was the one he loved and dealt with the other shit in his life for. But Tonkla still had to live on the margins of Korn's life, waiting for Korn to be available for him. It's all just so terrible and tragic.

I feel for Tonkla and for Korn. I'm sad that Korn didn't find the courage to go against his dad until it was far too late. I'm sad that Tonkla didn't feel like he could assert his own needs more with Korn.

But they also really loved each other so much! For years! 😭😭😭😭