Inner ChildThe Older I Get, The More I Keep My Inner Child Locked Inside. I Used To Talk More About My

Inner Child The older I get, the more I keep my inner child locked inside. I used to talk more about my past, about my dysfunctional family and how they've hurt me. But these days I feel pressured to be positive, to only paint happy things because the world is sad enough already.

Since being diagnosed with CPTSD, I've gotten therapy and it has helped a lot. But that doesn't stop the nightmares from happening and there are days when I can't do anything but cry. I used to draw myself strangling my younger self, but it never dies. There will always be a part of me that longs for a happy family, for parents that love me. Maybe one day I'll learn to co-exist with that part of myself.

I like drawing

Especially when it looks good

"Sometimes your friend (crush) is seen doing something wrong to alleviate his boredom and you don't have the courage to make him stop, so you just sweep it all under the rug anyway"

–Bruce Wayne

(I'm a beginner)

The first one was made and I hope people like it!

Thank you, @fractualized for giving me the palettes. More two to go!

Last Week Tonight, March 16, 2022

So, soon, the second palette will come. Today, I'll start drawing.

Why am I saying that?

Well, I don't want someone thinking that I'm dead or that I lost my account or that I just gave up drawing. The truth is that my motivation has been really weak lately, and I had to finish a drawing for my teacher (if we convert, it would be about 3 dollars).

For bonus, a "spoiler"

I think John would look amazing in overalls. Like, there is a specific one I saw that "just got a new idea for the next outfit"

But just for curiosity:

Some weeks ago, I showed that image of Joker (from The Dark Prince Charming) to some school friends. Then, a girl (aldery known) starts chatting with me about how "there's people who ship Batman and Joker," how "people who read fanfics of them" and in certain moment I say "like me?" And her say "uh?" And I answer "I like Batjokes," and she is "ME TOO"

Then we start laughing (and I have a scandalous laugh), and she says, "I thought you were going to judge me!"

It was an experience. Now, have you met someone, and one day, you discover that them like the same ship as you?

Bruce and John basically are going through a lesbian situationship with the compulsory lesbian heartbreak if I’ve ever seen one. I mean, LOOK AT THEM. Never kissed, always shared some weird ass touches and looks, THE FLIRTING! And then they go at each other’s throats and yearn for the good old times before they turned enemies (they just want each other so bad, it’s not funny anymore)