01.06.22

01.06.22

“It matters not who you love, where you love, why you love, when you love, or how you love. It matters only that you love.” —John Lennon

In my case, I love sweets from the bakery and reading. Happy pride to everyone, and—especially my aspecs—I love you guys (unironically).

14.05.22

“Summer afternoon — summer afternoon; to me those have always been the two most beautiful words in the English language.” —Henry James

A relaxing day spent practicing my Spanish, exploring the city, and eating good food. I got to see some traditional Basque folk dancing downtown as well, though I was without a doubt more focused on the food.

02.06.22

“What is this life if, full of care, / We have no time to stand and stare.” —W. H. Davies

Forgot to post this yesterday. I ate a whole pound of cherries, along with an empanada and a pastel Vasco. Right now, I’m enjoying a rainstorm and sunshine from my bedroom.

fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

picture yourself happy and then keep picturing it

excuse me while I love me