Qs For Muses Who Had A R O U G H Childhood

q’s for muses who had a…  r o u g h   childhood 

( tw’s for trauma, child abuse, child neglect, and violence toward children )

does your muse blame themselves for their trauma?

does your muse suffer with nightmares of their trauma?

what triggers does your muse have from their childhood?

who in their life was most responsible for your muse’s trauma?

has your muse ever been officially diagnosed with ptsd, c-ptsd?

what was the worst / most traumatic moment in their childhood? 

how old was your muse when they realized they had childhood trauma?

how does your muse react to being triggered? ( disassociates, becomes angry, etc. )

what coping methods  ( healthy or unhealthy )  did your muse learn during their childhood? 

does your muse want their abuser(s) to face consequences? Or would they rather forget any of it happened? 

was there anyone who was a shining light for your muse? Ie. was there any adult who they could genuinely rely on / trust? 

you know what, stop couching shit in terms of what you ‘need.’ no matter how generous you are with it, it’s bull to have to figure things into necessity at all. you want to feel actually free to seek the things you deserve? fuck needing them. say you want it. and then get it.

FUCK my school.

So I have to watch this webinar right. And the page it's on says "The system will track that you have watched the video in its entirety." And I'm thinking, "okay that's reasonable, I think I'll keep the window open and do other shit on my computer while I let the video play." BUT NO. IT WON'T LET ME DO THAT. IT'S LITERALLY SO STRICT THAT IT PAUSES THE FUCKING VIDEO IF MY CURSOR EVEN /CLICKS/ ON ANOTHER WINDOW. I can't fucking multitask on my computer, I have to sit here for almost 45 minutes mobile bound for Tumblr and Discord if I want a distraction to make this webinar a little less boring.

That'll teach me not to miss another one of these sessions in person. This is going to be torture.

Glares at Zinnia.

Jupiter still could not believe that his noble, indomitable Rider would settle for someone so... insignificant? Dull? It was impossible to tell just how little the steel dragon thought of Marina's lover, but it was safe to say that he did not like Zinnia.

Not one bit.

Oh, she hates this dragon's vibes.

At least he isn't trying to hide it--she has to laugh whenever a draconic being tries to hide their ill intent around her, a Draconid, and a chosen one of Rayquaza at that--but right now, it isn't making her feel any better. She returns the creature's glare, and even does him one better with a vicious growl that could have come from her draconic patron.

"What the fuck is your problem?" she says, her voice containing a snarl. "I don't need to have dragon empathy to tell you have a bone to pick with me. Spit it out."