There's Nothing Stronger Than The Bond Between An Autistic Queer And Castiel

there's nothing stronger than the bond between an autistic queer and Castiel

oh? this piece of media has religious symbolism? with extreme religious guilt?????

perfect.

i'm gonna go ahead and say it: buck and tommy's relationship extremely resonates with me as a queer man. i am very lucky to find myself in a relationship where i am extremely happy, and i'll be honest in saying that we parallel bucktommy a lot—hence the representation felt. it does not matter to me what you say, especially if you aren't a queer man. and even MORE especially if you are not a queer man watching the show specifically only because buck became bisexual, and then immediately criticize his relationship with a man. i feel genuinely sorry for the people out there that feel like this mature, healthy, loving, organic (!!! they're literally still getting to know each other and it's so beautiful to see how their relationship is blossoming) relationship is boring. because if the only way you are interested and feel represented by a relationship is if there is consistent drama, and unrequited love then i'm sorry for whatever relationship you find yourself in.

it says more about your capability—or rather, inability—to hone love and connection, than it says about the ship.

i was watching house s6: divorce edition last night and i think im getting obsessed with these episodes because they are so nonsensical

like we know the point was to get cameron off the show. we know she got fired. she has seven episodes and she’s gone.

but it’s so weird. the whole thing is so out of character on almost every side. like people joke about cameron being weak for leaving chase after he murders a genocidal dictator, but that’s not even it? she goes weeks having no clue? meanwhile:

chase avoids her straight up. there’s this wonderful drawn out scene where house gives foreman one task and cameron another and they peel off in different directions and chase hesitates and follows foreman

it’s never once said why he is avoiding her btw. he doesn’t say “i’m worried she won’t approve” or “i want to protect her from the fallout of this” or “i’m mad because she put the idea in my head,” there’s nothing. no inkling why he does this.

he’s sleeping in the lounge and not at home. when he does come home he leaves on thin excuses. chase does not want to be anywhere near cameron. why?? no clue

cameron for her part doesn’t seem to notice or worry. about any of this. she mentions she knows something is wrong and asks chase if he’s ok. chase says yes. she says nothing else. this is weirdly understanding and hands off for CAMERON. did we forget the liver lesbians. did we forget her “we have to tell house about addison’s guy!!” s3 thing. this is the one time in cameron’s life she goes “this is none of my business” and it’s her husband’s mental breakdown

chase continues to exhibit red flags like refusing to go near the ICU, being so exhausted and out of it he’s not even trying to engage in the differentials. foreman and house realize it. they have the advantage of knowing why and the cause but again it is not subtle. chase also goes out and gets super drunk after his confession escapade, which is implied to not be normal behavior for him. cameron is shown to be worried but apparently sees no red flags??? chase continues to avoid her for unknown reasons???

like there’s several reasons we can handwave but it’s never stated or even implied. he just can’t stand to be around her.

finally cameron decides he’s having an affair. this makes no sense. she apparently calls him on it, as he has a moment where he’s defensive like "i told you i'm not!" it makes no sense because she’s ignoring all the red flags except for “he’s avoiding me.” like yes put it on the list but farther down than that cam.

it's at THIS POINT, 7 episodes in, that chase informs us that telling her is "dumping a burden on her forever." however he's ok with her thinking he's having an affair? except he isn't ok with it and actually is a bit mad about it? also again why is this cameron's first guess???? it would have been like my fifth. she KNOWS he was stressed about dibala dying she's not stupid even if she doesn't think it was murder what about "do you feel guilty a patient died? it's not your fault!"

he finally confesses. cue a whole long mess of them deciding to leave princeton together and cameron deciding she can “live with” (red flag!!) the murder if he’s sorry enough. chase then decides he’s not sorry enough.

this was another weird thing btw. he goes from about to confess to cuddy and being afraid of taking foreman down with him to getting mad at a priest and telling him he did the right thing. like what flipped the switch chase? is it just that he officially got away with it?

cameron then decides he’s been ruined forever and dumps his ass. now i will be fair. this is sort of set up. chase clearly picked the hospital over her when he started avoiding her for weeks on end. he’d already made the jump to i did the right thing. house covered up the murder and didn’t scold him for the choice; house also spends teamwork planting doubts in chase’s head and not bothering with cameron. chase already picked house. cameron is not wrong

but again. when and where did chase make that switch? why was he avoiding cameron? why is he suddenly now so desperate to have cameron's approval and not weeks ago? again we can handwave but it’s literally never stated.

why did cameron look at the past months of red flag behavior and clear depression and ptsd and go “you feel no remorse?” clearly he feels remorse! clearly he is affected! why is she so hands off here? why was he so afraid to tell her, and why was cameron so passive? she loves telling people how they feel! she loves fixing people and her husband just did her the favor of getting fucked in the head!

lockdown then throws eighteen more retcons onto the pile because it has chase and cameron agree that actually everything was her fault. she led him on and never loved him and was a broken human. never mind that cameron was usually (if not always correctly) presented as sympathetic and right and a poor darling. never mind that that has nothing to do with the divorce. cameron is too broken to love and that’s why they broke up.

i mean it’s clearly because chase is still on the show and cameron got fired but honestly it just pisses me off. i love cameron. she deserved better

my favorite characters are cameron and chase and you’d think that would make me ship them but the writing is just such a hot fucking mess it's just impossible. they literally GOT MARRIED and it's impossible

in conclusion i could write a better version in ten minutes and it makes me mad

my take on talia is that she is as unhinged as mischa. look, all we know about her is that:

• she and mischa were, quote, mad passionate online lovers. on facebook and twitter. in ukrainian. was it like а-ах мішенька не зупиняйся🥵 or more of a *ніжно цілує твої губи під пісні вокарчука*??

• she found him through his youtube channel called bad egg and wrote mostly positive feedback on his video. the girl spends her free time watching badly autotuned music videos about booze and bitches. she probably makes them too

• she styles her hair like julia fucking tymoshenko. not just that this hairstyle is super hard to make, but also what sane person would chose to resemble tymoshenko??

• she agreed to marry mischa (or mb even proposed herself) at the ripe age of 18, upon never seeing him irl and probably knowing him for less than a year if not a few months

• she consciously shortened her name from natalia to talia. this was, for all i know, never done before. also talia means waist in ukrainian so there’s that

• and her middle name (?) is legit made up. were her parents pranksters by any chance? cause the fuck is moruska

• did i mention that she choose MISCHA BACHINSKI?? i mean who wouldn’t but still

verdict: she and mischa had to be separated because keeping them on one continent could’ve resulted in irreparable consequences such as everyone starting to use bro as a pronoun and dying of prolonged exposure to swagness