Thank You @luvtgirlfeet And Everyone Who Got Me To 1000 Reblogs!

Thank you @luvtgirlfeet and everyone who got me to 1000 reblogs!

That was a long time ago.

Getting started is always the hardest, especially when you've given up everything and have to start from scratch. I just lie on the bed and stare at the ceiling. I want so many things, but I always hit walls when it comes to practical implementation. I want to get out of bed and start going somewhere. I did this when I was young, I set out and wandered around the city aimlessly, I didn't go home for days, and I met all kinds of people. I accepted that I was transgender, in the beginning everything just happened naturally, but I always found myself on the street, in bars, in all kinds of dubious places, at parties, where they just took me because I was good for decoration, and then they left me on the street in the morning like a beaten dog, to go where I want. No one has ever given me anything and I have never asked anyone and I never will. Even today, I don't know exactly what I should do for my dreams, but I don't want to wander aimlessly around the city anymore, I just lie on the bed and stare at the ceiling…

Selfie

Many times, as if a mysterious apparition was whispering to me from the sky. I dare not pay attention to her, but the call of this distant beauty is too strong. At such times, it seems as if a strange radiance permeates the air, but I do not want to recognize or believe the identity between myself and this distant apparition. This is all so weird…

An old video with low quality

I think everyone has a role model that they always wanted to be like. For me, it was always Kim Petras, I wanted to look like her even when she wasn't a star yet, just an average teenager who happened to be trans, and the newspapers wrote about her. Her beauty enchanted me even then. I don't think I can grow up to her, even though she is 20 years younger than me.