Thanks For Kind Messages And Stuff And Just Being Patient With My Depressed Ass In General. Sorry For

thanks for kind messages and stuff and just being patient with my depressed ass in general. sorry for not replying, i can put scrambled thoughts down but don't know how to talk to people right now. mind just sorta blanks out

trying to be better. trying ◠⸜⸝◠｡, in own defense it'd probs help if I could do this stupid dlmo test and get anywhere with sleep specialist instead of being a zombie due to sleep issues. guess here's some humor to sorta balance out the moping around

learned recently that an easy way to play punch harmonics is to go after the bassist.

also Marshall apparently makes fridges that look like this

bet there's been at least 1 instance of a guitarist being drunk or high and spending like 10 minutes trying to figure out why it's not working.

Sabi based on the cover of Dispose by The Plot In You

This album fits her so well, the heavy and despairing atmosphere, distortion, lyrics about loss. RIGGED could straight up her theme, even has a heartbeat in the background. It's metalcore/post-hardcore but could say it feels more like a heavy post-rock sorta, and there's some softer songs on it [THE SOUND and DISPOSABLE FIX are alternative rock/ballad ithink]. also Landon's an incredible singer and worth trying for his voice alone

ALSO am seeing them [for Beartooth tour] in a few days anD GOD THE EXCITEMENT IS FUCKING EATING INSIDES. couldn't take off work that day tho so am gonna be dead af after lol

shoutout to anon for putting thought of what these two would look like if they swapped bodies/age in head. fyi, in my mind Tats is with Sabi in the 4'10 club, they did not get the nutrients they needed to grow. also sou's got great cardio because he's always running from his past

what are your age hcs for tatsuki and soutarou? and misc hcs for urotsuki?

Gonna be blunt, head is a cluttered junkyard and I'm a rambler with zero self control when right conditions are met [you ask about Special Interests]. plus am tired and really out of it from work cause we had inventory and i ordered too many lunchables [oscar mayer can go to hell]. Will do best to make this coherent, or at least intelligible, but apologies if it's a bit of a mess.

Age Headcanons [If we're going for what they are in game]

Short answer: Soutarou is late 20s-early 30s, Tatsuki ranges between 15-18. [tho ofc when I draw shippy stuff it's an AU and they're both early 20s]

Long answer: Actually thought about this on and off a decent bit and could never really get more than a vague, "Somewhere around this area" for them.

Soutarou is somewhere between late 20s and early 30s. He's old enough to have experienced some shit, try to get clean and back on his feet and get some manual labor experience, and have that ripped from him. Plus some time to isolate and have those thoughts wreck havoc on his mental state.

Tatsuki on the other hand is messier and harder to really give an age to. They could be a kid escaping into fairy tales to avoid reality, or a young adult [18-20] that was forced to grow up too fast and is now suffering from dealing with their fractured identity [have thought about Debris endings occurring around Tats 18th birthday, because they have the "You're not a child, so why do you hold onto such stupid childish fantasies?" thoughts to go on top of everything else and it sorta just breaks them.]

Misc Uro Headcanons

Big Deep angsty Uro hc/kinda what shapes her core for me

You might've heard the quote, “I think the saddest people always try their hardest to make people happy because they know what it’s like to feel absolutely worthless and they don’t want anyone else to feel like that." by Robin Williams. This more or less summarizes my view of Urotsuki at the core. She may not be weighed down by what other dreamers have gone through, but she knows what it's like to be trapped in darkness and though it may not show, she is doing her best to make others happy because she doesn't want others to go through that. [side note: this is huge part of reason for shipping her with Tatsuki. Feel like they'd be the same, tho Tats is way more introverted. That angsty, "You see through the smiles or notice the little things and softly nudge me to say you understand and are there." sorta thing].

Going off that; for the longest time have hc'd that Uro has struggled with an ED and self image issues in the past and a big part of why she loves food and is okay with being herself, and is so supportive of others doing the same, is because she had to fight to get to where she is and is doing her best to make sure others can simply see the joy in life without experiencing the hell she went through.

More lighthearted/Uro's a goofball hcs

Uro is somewhat lactose intolerant but keeps getting sick because she won't. fucking. stop. eating cheese. Or questionable foods in general. "It smells alright so it's probably fine." [narrator voice: It wasn't fine] sorta things.

Probs mentioned this one before but eh, Uro and Sou are one of few dreamers with a drivers license, and Uro's driving doesn't exactly leave most passengers feeling safe so Sou is constantly stepping in when she offers people a ride. The two bicker at each other like an old couple a surprisingly good bit when eyes aren't on them. This paired with them both being older and able to get drunk makes for quite a scene. [Sabi's laughing, Tats is on the floor trying and failing to hide it.]

She did have a dedicated dream diary at some point, but during a depressive period would start to fill and decorate it with random stuff [silly doodles, poems, stickers , ect], and it's now more like a thought scrapbook or therapeutic outlet for her. Pages that are just her jotting down memories that make her happy have little sticky note bookmarks so she can flip through them when feeling down.

Her head is a mess and all over the place, and her counting sheep is like a ritual she semi-depends on to fall asleep since it gets her to focus on one thing and relax [its a sorta behavioral dependency that if she was somehow barred from doing, she'd probs stress out and not be able to sleep.]

Hope you enjoyed or were at least satisfied with rambling anon ◠⸜⸝◠~

"Wait so if you're a bee for Halloween are you a furry? See that doesn't-thats- that sounds fucked up, that doesn't sound correct."

Seeing one of fav metalcore vocalists in a walrus onesie discuss whether or not crabs are animals was not something I realized I needed.

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curious if I've ever accidentally made people think Debris was more popular than it is. Like, "Its brought up a good bit on tumblr", "That's because some fanboy never shuts up about it."