I'm Gonna Rant Below, You've Been Warned.

I'm gonna rant below, you've been warned.

Does anyone else feel... Unwanted? I'm an introvert, through and through, but it's been a whole year since I've had any interactions with friends. It's been a whole year since I've felt good.

I hate people, but I need human interaction. I actually was thrilled to join the ceecus squad because of this. Even if I wasn't going to get physical interactions. But it wasn't enough. The others seem to fit in naturally and I stood out like a sore thumb.

My irl friends have their own shit to do, and can't give me time. I don't resent them for it, but I'd be lying if I say I'm not affected.

My mental state is at an all time low. My GPA is at an all time low. I'm so much more capable than me right now, but I can't do anything. I can't even get a therapist because that involves telling my parents I have issues.

I've let go of Adriah, and so behind on Daishou and Tsukishima. It's gonna be just a few moments until I let go of one of them. Becoming a charanon was supposed to be my escape, but the whole minor situation gives me (and other mods) a lot of anxiety. I'm making things stricter starting from tomorrow. I can't do this.

Anyways, thank you for coming to my TedTalk, and I hope you're doing much better than I am.