I Do This To U

i do this to u

This one’s more recent, I think back in August of this year? That was when I first got my hands on water-soluble graphite. Credit to @amphibizzy for getting me interested in the stuff.

sometimes u just need a witchy frog

You were good enough for them. They were not good enough for you.

The memories that you have, they have them too. The fun you had, they had that with you too. The love you gave, they have felt it. I know it seems like you didn't mean anything to them, but that's not true. They loved you too. But… not all love is the same. Your love was strong. You gave and gave and gave. You wanted them to be happy. You worked hard for the relationship to work. You put them first. You have grown a heart so big, you kept loving them even though you didn't get the same kind of love in return. You would never give up on them, and that's beautiful. And again, they loved you too. But… their love wasn't selfless like yours. It wasn't unconditional love like yours. It wasn't powerful enough to work through difficulties. They loved you in that moment, but they never grew a heart like yours. They put themself first. They thought of their own needs before yours. Most of all, they turned blind for all the love that you gave.

Right now you feel like you didn't do enough. That you were not good enough. That if you would try hard enough working on yourself, then you could fix this. Please hear me out. YOU were the strong one, YOU were the selfless one, YOU were investing all you could, YOU saw through their flaws and loved them anyway. You weren't perfect, but your mindset was. And now you're hoping that they will come back, that they have realised they made a mistake. That if you decide to move on and not wait for that to happen, that you would then be the one giving up on the relationship. That you would give up on them. But you are not. THEY ARE THE ONE GIVING UP, not you.

You will lose a person that wasn't selfless, that wasn't strong, that wasn't investing all they could, that didn't know how to love you the way you deserve to be loved. Their love is the one with shortcomings, not yours. They are losing the person that would have sticked with them through everything, the person that was much more than what they deserved. You were good enough for them. They were not good enough for you.