Guess-whos-now-a-mood - Some Things Need To Be Put Online, Let Me Do That

having trauma feels so cringe sometimes like ohhhh look at me look at me my mom was mean when I was little and it's going to continue to affect me and all my relationships for the rest of my life. I'm gonna be sick

okay so there’s a thing i’ve being doing recently to get myself to do my work tasks. i have adhd and it’s barely manageable even with the meds, the executive disfunction is ruining my career, no kidding. but i might’ve found something that actually helps, even if it’s very embarrassing.

i stuff myself with a dildo, put on my boxers and sweatpants to hold it in, and go sit on my desk to work. i have the following rules:

i’m not allowed to cum until i finish all of my work

for every finished task i reward myself. usually i divide my tasks in three groups and after i finish the first one, i reward myself with stuffing myself with a bigger toy. after i finish the second one, i reward myself with turning the vibe on (and after i finish the third one, i naturally reward myself with finally touching my throbbing dick while the vibe is turning my insides into mush)

i’m currently single so i imagine an abstract dom praising me and teasing me and cooing at me while i am at it. telling me i’m such a good and needy boy, that i just have to finish this thing and i’m gonna get my reward.

it works pretty well, the only problem is that being the undisciplined brat i am i can’t help but slip occasionally and find excuses to give myself a reward without earning it… i can only imagine how effective it would’ve been if i had someone to actually control me and punish me if i try to find an easy way out…

but this is also like. really embarrassing. because i have been prescribed meds and i know lot of normal life-hacks, but this is the most effective thing i’ve ever tried and i hate the fact. but like feel free to try it out, I’ll be glad if it works for you as well.

honestly my favorite 4chan post

For the sake of the mission, I will do it!😋🥰

If only I had someone I could hold by the throat against the wall and growl in your ear "you are mine to play with and break as I please, do you understand? Your body, your holes, your mind, belong to me and only me"

Standing over them, my beard brushing against their neck, fingers leaving red marks on their skin....

Of course, I'd have to bend them over my knee and start spanking them when they resisted, or refused to make eye contact... Really I'll take any excuse to turn your ass bright red, covered in my handprints, listening to those cute little noises you'd make for me. I wonder how long it would take for your juices to start flowing, leaking down your thighs as I keep spanking you, stopping every few swats to tease your little clit. I might have to pin you to the wall again, but this time on your knees with my cock forcing it's way down your throat, only letting you breathe when I see a vein popping on your forehead, your face turning dark red. I'll make sure to tell you how pretty you look, being my personal fleshlight, as I collect your drool and use it to lube my cock as I bend you over the nearest furniture and start pounding away. Your face is going to be pushed into it, one of my hands wrapped in your hair while the other leaves marks on your pretty skin, claiming you as my toy. Maybe once your legs start shaking and you can't even stand on your own, I'll give myself the pleasure of using your tight ass too, completely claiming your body as mine and finishing the process of turning you into a fuckdoll for me and me only.

Oh, and to claim your mind? Playing with your nipples and clit, with my fingers, tongue, a vibe, whatever it takes to make you cum over and over again, until you think you can't anymore and then even more. You'll be crying trying to get away from my touch, only to be pinned by your throat and forced to endure it. I want to see your eyes roll back in your head, your mouth hanging open, your body shaking so much you go limp afterwards. I want you to be so completely used and spent that you can't do anything but lay there in a puddle of our juices and whine for more. I want you so far gone that no matter how hard I bite or slap you, no matter what I call you, no matter how I'm treating your worthless body, you don't even register that I'm doing anything.

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