TSOT ..... Is The Fic That Broke Me , Patched Me Up And Dare I Say Healed Me Too.

TSOT ..... is the fic that broke me , patched me up and dare I say healed me too.

For years I have been attached to one person in my life who was emotionally unwilling or unavailable for me ... and I kept blaming it on myself - I'm not trying enough , I'm not being enough , maybe if I'm thin/thick darker/fairer or more modern/more traditional ... they will love me. They always made sure I was bound to them emotionally , knew about me liking them and kept me tethered to them with enough pieces of their life to scrape for me but never ever let me feel an actual connection ...

Finally last year broke the chain where they 'broke' up with me . I was completely shattered. It was the end of love for me . I was doing well in my career and studies but a part of me died and reborned the same day. Died the part which was eerily similar to Haejin - kind , caring , emotionally available for others overly and willing to love , willing to give second chances. Reborn was the part which was similar to what Taehyung told Haejin about healing - a stronger , more self aware person who won't love easily but still is mature enough to care.

Reading tsot was traumatic and healing ATST because I could relate to Haejin from my past pov ... and couldn't because I am no longer that loving , that willing to bend over. Parts of story after Taehyung and his therapy were introduced were my most favorite part as people don't write about how therapy works in fics. It's messy , it breaks your own beliefs about yourself down and rebuilds you up. But it is gery necessary for you life.

Thank you @sunshyngal for showing therapy works. People make gravest of the grave mistakes but they redeem themselves to an extent and more. And most importantly , sadness and happiness are extreme emotions felt rarely with specific events. What envelopes you around your memories is the memory of being happy or sad ... Thank you for showing us the beauty in sadness of the things 💜💜❤️❤️

物の哀れ ~ ( the sadness of things )

( Note : This is just a personal post for myself. I’m trying to just make a record of how the fic was conceived and all that I experienced, writing this fic ) 

Inspiration :

So, I ran into an article on Japanese words and I was incredibly fascinated by the phrase , Mono no aware or the pathos of things : Basically the sadness of things. It was a very unusual concept to me because it could be interpreted in so many ways. 

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Shadi karle yaar muz se 😓🤤😭

pov: 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗴𝗼𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝘂𝗰𝗸 𝗶𝗻 𝗮 𝗳𝗮𝗶𝗿𝘆𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗻𝗮𝗺𝗷𝗼𝗼𝗻

bebie 😌🤗😊😁😘

a cutie ♡

Woke up to having 30 notes on Preet and wajjadfhjkgdjk did NOT expect it to be reaching these many people... Celebrating my smol achievement bcz I'm just happy that people liked the idea of a Hindi Love Song associated with a fluffy story revolving around Namjoon ..

How about I make a project out of this .. one love song for each member 😇 In Indian languages ... not limited to Hindi ... That way , these songs will be known more to at least one more person 😊😊

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my gawd 💜💜💜

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CR(twt): @keizo_oguma

my world is blessed to be the same as yours ... I hope you achieve every material amd other forms of success and happiness that there are , JK . I can say platonically that ILY . As ARMY , as human 💜💜💜💜. Happy Googie day , Jungkook 😊😍💜

jungkook + solos | begin (2016) - euphoria (2018) - my time (2020) -  happy birthday to our euphoria, jungkook! ♡