Just A Little Side Rant...

Just a little side rant...

When you say something of no interest to me and I say "I don't care" you need to truly understand something - I don't hate you, I'm not mad at you, I'm not even annoyed and I'm really not too much of a bitch. Straight up? Sure. Unnecessarily rude and disrespectful i.e bitch? Never. I just lack interest in your statement. Really? Did I need to know that stupid piece of information? I don't care who you're hating on at this very moment. I don't care if she talks shit about you. Yeah, it sucks but seriously? I'm not one of those girls that need my morning cup of drama to get the day started. I just believe that stupid people are involved in the lives of others to the point where they become a topic in conversation. (subhumans discuss celebrities but I'll save that for another day)

So take no offense. Trust me, you would know when I started to dislike you.

Nightly musings

Time: 1:00am

Weather: -12 C feels like -19 C w/ wind chill and snow

Just went for a walk in these conditions to simply catch a glimpse of the beautiful Geminid meteor shower. Jacket did not suffice to block the cold. Snow got in my shoes. No meteors. Walked a mile with wet socks. Looked up only to find the sky concealed by clouds and falling snow. No meteors. iPod died. Walked in silence. No meteors. When I embraced the silence it described a town induced in a deadly slumber. A few zombies cautiously avoided an icy collision of metal and tragedy. No meteors. Slipped. Dusted off remnants of cloud falling onto the sidewalk. No meteors. Ahead of me was a long winding sidewalk lightly covered by a layer of snow. The only memory of me was not the buzzing from my headphones but my steps left imprinted in the untouched snow. They're being covered quickly by the flakes. The only sound left was the crunch of snow under my heavy gait. There were too many street lights. They left golden orbs in the sky illuminating the falling snow. It covered any sign of meteors. I trudged forward, hands plunged deep into my pockets. Searching for the darkest part of town. Looked to the skies. Got it. I walked two miles to catch a fleeting glimpse of one meteor. It was worth it. I would go to the darkest depths to find light-where it is most radiant. I would endure the ugliness in search of beauty-where it is most captivating. I would kill myself just to live-truly take in the flawed perfection I will leave behind when I go. Sometimes you need to brush death to understand the magnificence of life.

Confrontation is not frivolous and is in fact necessary when it stops one from getting to their goal. However, do not pause your progress much less go off on a tangent just to deal with someone. Why should you? What good does that do other than make those who are negative believe what they say is of value? It's not. People hate because that's the only way to keep a part of you on their level. They know you're so far ahead of them so they speak your name thinking that if they do they keep you in that sad, sorry part of life where they stay.

Confronting injustice is necessary. Confronting shit-talkers, rumour mongers and bitches is of no consequence and completely unimportant just like their efforts to bring you down.

They say you never know what you have till you lose it You promise your girl something you better do it You can't tell a woman you love her are you stupid Words don't express your love you got to prove it

Joe (Where You At)

Something I always wanted to say...

...the letters of my name do not carry my story. Your simple ability to pronounce it does not give you automatic knowledge about the details of my life. You have your preconceived notions and that's fine. You have your opinion which everyone is entitled to. What you don't have are the authenticated attributes which comprise who I am. So don't you dare utter those letters of my name alongside a statement you believe to be true when you in no way have any idea who I am

...I just never had the time or the balls.

You never know what you have until you lose it.

I always knew what I had, I just never thought I'd lose it.

-N