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(warnings: smutttttt, mating kink basically, biting, like literal biting, like a big chomp u know, cockwarming ofc, unprotected, breeding basically, uhm idk what else, oh throat fucking yeah)

Waiting in your apartment for Jay to arrive was feeling nostalgic, you’d been here a few times before with an anxious feeling settling in your stomach. This time was worse, you felt extra nervous to see him after the events of recent. You felt guilty, and you knew you shouldn’t feel too bad because he’d still hurt you, but after his selfless act you knew Jay didn’t have a bad bone in his body. He’d never have hurt you intentionally.

Your leg was shaking up and down, your phone clenched in your hands whilst you waited on the couch for him to arrive. It had been sixteen minutes since he texted you last, if you remembered correctly it took around twelve minutes to get from Sunoo’s to yours on the subway. Had he changed his mind? Was his train delayed? He was a whole four minutes late.

Every possibility ran through your head as you counted the seconds, growing more and more nervous with each one thinking that he had changed his mind.

But all worries flew away the second your doorbell rang, prompting you to drop your phone and rush towards the front door where Jay was waiting for you, hands clasped behind his back.

“Jay,” you sighed, opening the door wide with a smile finally making its way onto your face. “I was so worried you wouldn’t come.”

Jay almost cried at your words, he hated how quickly he had managed to break your trust, “I’ll always come to you.”

You nodded, lip tucked between your teeth to try and stop the tears from falling. You pulled the door open a little wider, letting Jay slip inside, his hands still out of sight and out of reach. Almost as if your body wanted to betray you, a few tears slipped down your cheeks that you wished you’d kept at bay. Because as soon as you glanced back at him, you saw the sadness in his own eyes return.

“Oh baby,” Jay sighed, he wanted to reach out and hold you. “It’s ok, I promise it’s ok.”

You wiped at your cheeks harshly, “I don’t know why I’m crying, I’m sorry.”

“Don’t apologise,” Jay shifted on his feet a little before bringing his hands to the front, revealing a small bunch of flowers wrapped in a white ribbon. “Here, I know it’s not much, but I felt stupid if I turned up empty handed.”

And now you were crying even more.

“Jay,” you reached for the bouquet with wide eyes, letting the tears fall freely. “They’re so pretty, thank you.”

“You’re welcome baby,” he reached forward, brushing some hair from your forehead gently. “Now let’s stop crying, yeah? Otherwise I’ll start as well.”

You nodded quickly, huffing out a small laugh before setting the flowers down on the little entry table next to you. The two of you were standing in your hallway still, eyes glossy as you just took in the moment. You smiled through the tears that were starting to dry up, tugging Jay forward and wrapping him in a hug, your face burying into his chest as his arms found their rightful place around your waist.

“I love them,” you mumbled into his shirt. “No one has ever got me flowers before.”

Your fingers gripped onto his shirt, breathing him in as his hands rubbed up and down your back gently. Jay took his time, taking in how you felt against him again and taking in the scent of you that filled his senses as soon as he entered your home. Instantly he felt calm, he felt happy, and compared to the anxiety and stress he’d felt recently this was bliss to him. This was everything he needed.

“I’ll get you as many flowers as you want baby,” he kissed the top of your head before pulling back a little so that you could look up at him. You’d stopped crying now, and Jay thought you looked beautiful even with the stained tear tracks on your cheeks.

You smiled softly, one of Jay’s hands coming up to cup your cheek, “I need to tell you something Jay.” You mumbled, leaning against his palm, three words at the tip of your tongue.

“Can I say something first?” He asked quietly, rubbing his thumb over your cheek. You nodded, happy for him to take some of the pressure off of you. Jay kissed your head again, lingering his lips against your forehead as he spoke those words, “I love you Y/N.”

“You fucker,” you mumbled, eyes welling up as your bottom lip jutted out. “I was going to say that.”

You pressed your hand flat against his chest, right over his heart. Jay was trying not to cry this time, he didn’t want to cry, but knowing you felt the same way was so relieving to him and he realised just how long he’d been waiting to hear those words from you.

Jay placed the hand on your cheek over your hand instead, holding you against him until you could feel his heartbeat, “say it, please.” He voice was quiet, fragile, he was so close to crying.

“I love you Jay,” you could feel a tear slip down your cheek again. “I have for a while, and I’m sorry it took me so long to tell you.”

“Fucking hell Y/N,” he sighed, his own tears falling freely. He’d given up trying to hide it. “I love you so much, so fucking much. I’ll never make you doubt that, I promise you that.”

Nodding your head, you leant up, kissing his cheek softly over the tear stains. You kissed the other side before settling back down on your feet. But Jay didn’t let you rest, tugging you closer and wrapping his arms around you, his own lips finding yours as if it was by instinct.

Your own hands went to rest on his shoulders, holding him close to you as you bent your head back, allowing Jay to kiss you deeper. He pushed against you, one hand coming up to tangle in your hair and guide your mouth with his, tongue licking past your lips and into your own mouth.

“I love you,” he mumbled against your lips before diving back in to kiss you, gently pulling your hair to angle your head the way he wanted you. A small moan left your lips, instantly being muffled by Jay’s own sounds, a low growl sounding in his throat. He pulled back once again, “I love you so much, only you.”

You nodded frantically, kissing his neck just to have your lips on him somewhere until he pulled your head back by your hair, “love you too Jay, please, kiss me.”

He used your hair to guide you into the position he wanted, neck exposed so that he could kiss the skin. His teeth grazed against you, daring to bite down into you but holding back, “I wanna do so much more.” He slurred his words, drunk off your scent and taste. Jay became a mess around you, the only thoughts he had revolved around you and making you his.

Jay pulled away briefly, leaning his head back against the door, you two hadn’t even made your way out of the hallway yet. You took the opportunity, hands finding their way to the hem of his shirt and slipping underneath, palms flat against the expanse of his stomach.

“Tell me what you want babyboy,” you said, hands running up the warm skin. Jay could barely think with you touching him like this, any coherent thoughts leaving his head. He squeezed his eyes shut, willing himself to give you an actual answer.

“I want to,” he swallowed hard when your hands dropped to his lower stomach, just above his belt. “Want to fuck you,” a sharp intake of breath when you slipped a finger under the waistband. “Wanna mate you baby, make you mine.”

A clink. Jay’s belt fell to the floor, your hands returning to slip under his shirt again. You moved closer to him, pressing your crotch against his until you could feel the outline of his cock against you, “make me yours Jay.”

You wrapped your hands around the material of his shirt, pulling it down to expose his collarbones so that you could kiss over there a few times, “mate me Jay, I wanna be yours forever.”

Every part of Jay screamed that it was too soon, he had only just got you back and he didn’t want to fuck things up. But the way your hands danced over his body and how hot your lips felt on his skin made all those thoughts redundant, he was an idiot when it came to you. So instead of pulling away, instead of doing what his head told him to do and ‘take it slow’, Jay wrapped his arms around your waist, picking you up effortlessly and carrying you over to the bedroom. It felt natural, it felt right, and any doubts left this mind the moment your back hit the mattress.

“You look so pretty baby,” he sighed, running his hands up your legs until they reached your hips, coming to hover over you and kiss your lips a few times. Jay took his time to undress you, kissing over each inch of your body as the clothing was removed until you were left in just your underwear.

He knelt down on the bed over you, bringing your head up to meet his in a softer kiss, a kiss full of love and adoration. You took that moment to place your hands on his chest, pushing him gently until his own back hit the mattress and you were the one hovering over him, your positions switched.

“This is new,” he breathed out a laugh, holding onto your hips when you climbed over to straddle him. Your hands pushed up his shirt until he let you slip it over his head, dropping yourself down a little to kiss his chest a few times.

Jay chased your lips with his own, nudging you up to kiss him properly again whilst his grip tightened on your hips, urging you to grind yourself down on him. You followed his lead, pressing your hips down against him, revelling in the way his cock seemed to nestle directly against your clit where you needed him most.

“Fuck baby,” he whined into your mouth. “I need to feel you so bad.”

You nodded, slipping yourself off his lap so you were kneeling next to him. His eyes followed you, followed your hand as you reached for the zip on his jeans to start tugging them off. Only once did he break concentration on your fingers when you nudged him to lift his hips.

You pulled his jeans off, underwear following closely behind and ending up thrown halfway across the room. Jay’s cock was painfully hard, and the way you were eyeing him up with a sort of hunger in your eyes was doing nothing to help him calm down.

Running your hands up his thighs, your fingers wrapped around the base of his cock gently, but the feeling alone was enough to have Jay throwing his head back with a moan.

“Need to suck you off,” you said desperately. “Please Jay, wanna suck you off so bad.”

“Fucking hell,” he whined, head pressing back into the mattress to avoid looking at the way your eyes were wide and pleading. “Go for it baby, be a good girl, yeah?”

One of his hands came up to wrap around your hair, tugging you down so that your mouth brushed against the head of his cock, coating your lips with precum. You didn’t need to be told twice, opening your mouth automatically to accommodate his length as he slid himself down your throat.

Your hands fell to his thighs, digging into the skin as you swallowed Jay down as far as you could go, ignoring the choking that occurred when he hit the back of your throat. Jay was huge, you knew that already, but it never failed to surprise you.

“Feels so good,” he groaned out, pushing you down a little, your nose brushing against his lower stomach. “Wanna fuck your throat so bad.”

You whined, you wanted that too. You used one hand to grip his wrist, urging him to push down on your head harsher. Jay seemed to get the hint, using your hair to tug you up on his cock a little before thrusting forward so that his hips snapped his cock further down your throat each time. Tiny little gurgling noises left your lips as he continuously fucked past your lips, chasing an orgasm that already wanted to happen.

Your nails dug into his thighs, likely leaving tiny little marks in their wake. You blinked back tears as you gagged over his cock, Jay’s hand gripping your hair and tugging you off of him so that you could breathe harshly. You gulped in a few breaths, blinking over at him with wide and teary eyes. You probably looked a mess, but Jay was looking at you like you were the most beautiful person in his life.

“Why’d you stop?” You sighed, feeling as he released your hair, smoothing it over with his hand a few times. Jay laughed at you, pulling you down to lay next to him and wrapping his arm over you instead.

“If I didn’t stop you then I’d have cum right there and then,” he said, kissing your lips a couple times even though they were swollen and covered in spit. “And I really want to cum inside you.”

You rolled your eyes, a dumb smile making its way onto your lips, “well get to it then.”

And that’s all the confirmation Jay needed, a laugh tumbling out as he pushed you onto your back, crawling between your legs and ridding you of any remaining clothing, “you sure you can take me baby? It’s been a little while since.”

You knew he was genuinely concerned for you, but there was still a cocky smile on his lips. In return, you wrapped your legs around his waist to pull him closer until the head of his cock was pushing against your cunt.

“Please Jay, need you so bad,” you tugged at his neck to bring his face closer to yours, lips brushing against each other’s. “Please, make me yours.”

“God you can’t just say that,” he groaned, kissing you hard. He pushed his hips forward, cock nudging past your hole and filling you up perfectly. “You don’t know what that does to me.”

Your head fell back against the bed as he pushed further into you, hips snapping forward a few times until he was buried as far into you as he could go, “what does it do to you?” You asked breathlessly, bringing him down so that you could run your lips over his collarbones and neck.

“Drives me crazy baby,” he used one hand to pin your hips to the bed before fucking into your harshly. “Makes me want to fuck you full of cum, claim you as mine forever so no one can even touch you. Do you know how fucked up that makes me?”

Maybe you were fucked up too, because at that moment the only thing you wanted was for Jay to take you as his mate so that you were tied to him forever. And your dumb mouth didn’t know how to stop running as you told him everything you wanted him to do.

“Not fucked up if I want it too,” you whined, his cock brushing up against that little sensitive bundle of nerves deep inside you with every single thrust. Jay moaned out brokenly, bringing his head down to rest on your chest whilst he pumped his hips into yours. He was so close to your neck, so close to where he could smell your scent the strongest, it was driving him crazy.

“Don’t say things you don’t mean,” he choked out, swearing when your cunt squeezed around his cock.

“I mean it though,” your nails raked down his back. “Fuck Jay, make me cum, so close.”

“Oh my god,” one hand dropped to your clit to rub harsh circles on it. Never once did his pace stop inside you, stimulating you perfectly to the point of your orgasm, “cum for me baby. If you cum for me, I’ll make you mine. I promise.”

And that promise was all it took for you to fall over the edge, your orgasm hitting you hard as you bit down onto his shoulder to hide your moans. The pain mixed with how good you felt around him was almost enough to send Jay into his own orgasm, but he held himself off so that he could feel you a little longer.

You cried as he fucked you through the high, fingers digging into his back enough to draw blood, “please Jay, cum for me baby, mate me.”

“Fuck, are you sure Y/N?” He gritted his teeth, using every ounce of willpower not to cum right then and there with how nicely your cunt was squeezing him.

“Please Jay,” you couldn’t help the tears that fell from your eyes with your pleading. “Need it so bad, I love you so much.”

“God I love you so much too baby,” he pressed his lips to your neck, kissing the skin a few times. “Fuck I’m cumming baby, it’s going to hurt a little, ok? But I promise I’ll make it better.”

“I trust you,” you wrapped a hand around the back of his head, pushing him closer to your neck whilst you did your best to clench your cunt around him and bring him as much pleasure as possible. “I love you.”

With those last words of affirmation, Jay sunk his teeth into your neck, finally piercing the skin as a sharp pain short through you. You winced, gritting your own teeth at the feeling. You wanted to cry out, tell him to stop, but feeling his cock press deep inside you as he came and moaned against the skin of your neck was enough to push any thoughts of the pain away.

You held his head there, wrapping your legs tight around him to keep him pressed into you as his cock shot cum into you over and over, filling you up completely until you were sure there was nothing left.

Jay sighed against you, bringing your thoughts back to him, and you realised that the pain had subsided until you just felt a soft floating of your body. He pulled his teeth from you, his tongue darting out to soothe the skin before he pressed a couple of kisses there.

Your hands fell to his shoulders, suddenly feeling too exhausted to even hold yourself up. Jay pulled away to look at you, still keeping his whole body pressed to yours so that as much skin was touching you as possible. He needed to feel close to you.

“Are you ok baby?” He asked quietly, bringing one hand up to brush your hair away from your face. He dropped that hand to rest on your neck over the small wound he’d created, “did it hurt?”

“A little,” you mumbled, tears welling in your eyes. It actually hurt a lot, but you loved Jay and would do anything for him, you were willing to put up with a little bit of pain if that meant you were made to be his.

“Oh baby,” he sighed, eyes soft now compared to the frantic lust that they held earlier. “Please don’t cry, it’ll stop hurting soon, yeah? I’ll get you some pain killers.”

He went to move off of you but you protested, more tears welling up at the thought of him leaving you. Jay noticed this, immediately moving to wrap you up as comfortably in his arms as possible with the position you were in where his cock was still buried inside you.

“You feeling a little fragile?” He asked softly, tracing along your cheeks with his fingertips.

“I don’t know,” you mumbled, closing your eyes at the feel of his touch. “Just don’t want you to leave, I’m sorry.”

Jay nodded, “that’s normal baby, it’s ok to feel like that now. After you mate with someone, it’s normal to feel a bit clingy to them, it’ll fade after a while and you’ll feel better. Please don’t apologise, I’m not going to go anywhere.” He kissed your forehead a few times, wiping away your tears.

“Can we stay like this for a little while?” You asked softly, being in his arms with his entire body intertwined with yours was comforting to you in that moment. Such intense emotions were flowing through both of you, but most of all you felt so connected to him and so in love with him that you couldn’t imagine thinking about anything else.

“We’ll stay like this as long as you need baby,” he leant down to kiss you gently before shifting so that he could hold you tight against his chest. “I love you, thank you for trusting me like this.”

“I don’t think I’ll ever get tired of hearing that,” you replied. “I love you too Jay, only you.”

“You’ll make me cry if you don’t stop,” he breathed out a small laugh. “I guess this means you’re my girlfriend now?”

“I don’t remember you asking me,” you teased, raising an eyebrow at him. Jay groaned, pushing you back a little so that he could lean over you. Each movement just reminded you that his cock was still buried inside you, a small moan leaving your lips.

“We’re mated for life now Y/N,” he kissed over the bite mark that was already starting to heal, a shiver running down your spine at the slight sting. “If you say no to being my girlfriend then I don’t know what to do with you.”

You rolled your eyes, “I’m literally in love with you, of course I’ll be your girlfriend.”

“Good,” he hovered over your lips until you could feel his breath on you. “I’m literally in love with you too. Only you.”

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