I'm So Single It Hurts (I Loved Every Single Second Of This, @heesbaby I Love Your Brain)

I'm so single it hurts 💔🤧 (I loved every single second of this, @heesbaby I love your brain)

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50 - loving you has always been easy

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(before you read: thanku for all the love and support on this smau, it was a long ride but all my lovely readers make it so worthwhile 💌 I hope you enjoyed reading this au as much as I enjoyed making it, this will hold such a special place in my heart forever,,, I love you all so much!!! I hope to see you all soon in my next smau)

"Where are you taking me Jay?" You laughed softly as he tugged you along the beach, it was nearing evening time now and the sky was a dark shade of blue.

Jay had picked you up from work that afternoon, telling you he wanted to take you somewhere. However, his usual chirpy demeanor was no where to be found when he greeted you. He was quiet, the nerves were getting to him all of a sudden and it showed.

He'd spent all day with the boys preparing, Heeseung and Jake had managed to come along for a few hours to help as well as Taehyun and Beomgyu. The only one who kept you busy at work was Niki, who was there to keep you distracted so that you wouldn't realise exactly how long the other four were on their lunch break for.

All the boys had spent the last few weeks planning and preparing this day, checking the weather forecast for when it would be warm and calm, making the decorations, preparing food for the two of you. Jungwon had even made sure you wore a cute outfit to work that day, insisting on styling you into something a little bit too fancy for work.

If you'd been paying attention then you'd probably have noticed something was up. But your mind was too occupied with the sales of your new hybrid multivitamins that you didn't even register the weird behaviour of everyone around you.

"Just a little further," he mumbled, bottom lip tucked between his teeth. His fingers were intertwined with yours, the little box in his pocket was burning a hole.

You turned a corner, seeing a setup of pillows, lights and decorations tucked away in the spot you and Jay had been to before. It was beautiful, the little makeshift seating area was cozy and there was already plates of snacks and drinks waiting for the two of you.

"Did you do all this?" You asked softly, eyes wide as you took it all in. You remembered coming here before, kissing Jay for the first time, how times had changed since then.

"I had a little help," he said shyly. He knew the boys were all hiding nearby, as soon as you'd left work everyone had made their way to the spot, taking their positions behind any bushes or trees they could find.

Heeseung was sitting behind the nearest tree, his phone out ready to film when he needed to. He wouldn't miss this moment for the world, he could feel a tear in his eye already.

"This is so beautiful Jay," you said, turning to face him. "What's this all for? It's not an anniversary or anything, is it?"

Jay shook his head, a nervous smile on his lips. He took both of your hands in his, the two of you standing underneath the fairy lights that were your only source of illumination now that the sun had gone down. Heeseung hit record on his phone.

"I love you Y/N," Jay started, taking a shaky breath. "I have for the longest time now, even before I said it to you. You've done so much for me, you came into my life and turned it upside down in the best way possible."

He caught your gaze, eyes showing so much sincerity that you felt like crying, "I never knew what love was until you came along, I never knew how amazing it could be. You taught me how to be myself, how to love myself and who I am, you showed me that it was ok to be me. And for that I'm so incredibly grateful, you have no idea how much impact you have had on me."

"Jay," you mumbled, a tear slipping down your cheek. "I love you so much, I did all that because I love you. You don't ever have to thank me for it."

"I know," he replied, smiling at you. One hand came up to cup your cheek and wipe away the tear. "You're so selfless when it comes to love, you give without expecting anything in return. That's why you're such an amazing person through and through. Falling in love with you was the easiest thing I've ever done."

He dropped your hands, stepping back slightly as you watched him with wide eyes, "you showed me how much more I was worth, you changed my life for the better. There will never be anyone else like you, you're truly one of a kind. And you're it for me, I can't imagine doing this with anyone else. I don't want to do this with anyone else, I want to live my life fully with you by my side."

Jay dug the box out of his pocket, dropping to one knee in front of you and holding it open. He watched as the penny dropped in your mind, your eyes automatically tearing up at the sight. Your hand flew to your mouth to cover the gasp that sounded, Jay's smile never once leaving his lips.

"So I'm asking you, Y/N, will you do me the honour of marrying me? So that we can spend forever with each other, so that I can continue loving you for as long as we live?"

He didn't even need to ask, because before he'd even asked the question you'd dropped to your knees and wrapped your arms around him, "of course I will. I'll marry you Jay, I'll spend forever with you."

Jay held you in his arms, pressing his lips to yours as if to seal that promise. He felt the tears run down your cheeks and onto his own, but he didn't really care. His mind was still reeling as he pulled away, slipping the ring onto your finger finally.

"Let's fucking go!" Jake screamed from somewhere in the distance, prompting the two of you to snap your heads over in their direction. All the boys came out of their hiding spots, cheering for the two of you as a wide smile broke out onto your face.

"Were they all in on this?" You asked Jay quietly, admiring the ring that sat so prettily on your finger. Jay took your hand in his, kissing it gently.

"They helped me plan this all, they bought my vision to light," Jay replied. His gaze kept falling down to your hand, loving the way the ring looked on you, "Heeseung filmed the whole thing too, I'm sure he'll use it to blackmail us one day."

"That sounds about right," you laughed softly, finally standing up and pulling Jay with you. He wrapped you up in his arms, pressing a few light kisses to your lips. "I love you Jay, I can't imagine doing this with anyone else."

He visibly relaxed, his own smile mirroring yours, "I love you too Y/N, you're my forever."

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41 - jake lies sometimes

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42 - niki don't fucking swear

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40 - stop projecting onto jungwon

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