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otvblake· / octavia ! 

     it’s a sight to see.  blodreina seeming hesitant.  afraid, perhaps?  she’s cautious and slow as she approaches the male, watching him with each step that she takes.  her expression is anything but hardened, and in fact, it’s obvious that her walls are down in this very moment.  she’s thankful that there’s nobody else other than them. 

“ you know how it feels to be hated by everyone.  how do you make it hurt less? ”

     vulnerable.  so damn vulnerable.

EARS  PERK  AT  THE  SOUND  of  her  voice .  he  hadn’t  expected  company ,  especially  by  that  of  octavia .   ( none  other  than  blodreina  herself ! ) he’d  heard  the  stories ;  the  horrors  that  had  taken  place  in  that  bunker .  how  couldn’t  he ?  octavia  was  in  hot  water  now ,  that  much  was  clear .   ( and  oh ,  did  murphy  know  how  that  felt . )

❛ you  don’t . ❜   he  answers  finally .  the  taste  of  liquor  coats  his  tongue ,  eyes  glossed  over  in  a  buzzed  haze .  and  as  he  cranes  his  head  to  look  at  her  from  where  he  sat  at  the  bar ,  he  hates  to  think  that  he  looks  just  as  vulnerable  as  she .   ( as  tired ,  exhausted .   as  broken . )   hell  was  a  demented  place .  he  supposed  she’d  been  to  a  hell  of  her  own  and  back ,  too .

he’s  talking  now ,  and  maybe  it’s  the  alcohol  that  coaxes  it  out  of  him ,  or  maybe  it’s  just  because  he  has  something  to  say .  murphy  doesn’t  know ,  but  with  cracks  in  his  armor ,  it’s  too  late .   ❛ it  hurts ,  and  it’s  aggravating .  and  no  matter  how  much  good  you  do ,  it’s  never  enough .  you’ll  pay ,  and  you’ll  keep  paying . ❜   and  he’s  shifting  in  his  seat .  gaze  drops  for  a  moment ,  the  guilt  and  pain  and  fear  a  little  too strong  and  the  feeling  of  vulnerability  a  little  too  uncomfortable  for  him  right  now .  he  tosses  back  another  shot  as  though  to  wash  the  feeling  away ,  and  he  tries  not  to  think  of  his  mother .   (  like  mother  like  son ,  says  the  devil  in  his  head .  the  thought  makes  him  sick . )  

there’s  a  clink  as  glass  meets  wood ,  and  pale  knuckle  is  sliding  octavia  an  extra  glass .   ❛ just  give  it  time . ❜   he  says .   ❛ redemption  doesn’t  happen  overnight ;  all  you  can  do  is  wait  and  hope  whatever  god’s  out  there  lets  you  have  it . ❜  

damnstory· ,  bellamy ! 

@hevives· :   liked for a starter.

“      murphy   –––      ”            there’s   so   much   tension   between   these   two,   and   bellamy   knows   he’s   just   as   much   to   blame   for   it.      his   visceral   heart   still   has   trouble   trusting   the   fugitive,   but   his   mind   knows   that   murphy’s   on   his   side   now.      it’s   in   his   best   interest   to   be   nice   to   bellamy,   to   play   along   with   the   council’s   new   golden   boy.         the   rebel   king   doesn't  realize   that      he’s   one   of   the   privileged   now.         his   leadership   and   influence   have   given   him   the   voice   he’s   always   craved.      when   he   looks   at   the   other   boy,   he’s   not   a   chancellor  :      he’s   a   friend.            “      take   care   of   ‘em   for   me .      ”            a   dying   man’s   last   request.      bellamy   knows   that   once   he   goes   into   that   mountain,   he   might   never   come   out   and   the   hundred   the   forty  -  eight   surviving   deliquents   will   lose   a   set   of   helping   hands.         the   odds   are   stacked   against   them …      but   what   choice   do   they   have   ?         life   is   a   fight  ;      if   they   surrender,   they   die.

THE  TENSION  IN  HIS  BONES  is  almost  as  thick  as  the  cloud  of  it  that  hangs  around  the  two.  jaw  clenches  as  he  hears  bellamy  break  the  silence ,  gaze  flicking  toward  the  other  expectantly.  there  was  a  softness  in  the  gaze  that  didn’t  quite  match  the  ache  in  his  jaw  from  the  clenched  teeth ,  nor  the  shoulders  that  had  been  tied  in  knots  for  days.  it  was  a  hard  decision ,  one  that  had  been  coming ,  and  one  murphy  didn’t  know  what  to  do  with.   take  care  of  'em  for  me ,  the  elder  is  saying.  and  had  the  situation ,  or  timing ,  been  any  different ,  murphy  might’ve  scoffed.  grinned.  he  might  have  taken  the  task  with  a  sense  of  pride.  but  the  timing  wasn’t  right ,  nor  was  the  situation ,  and  the  words  didn’t  sit  well  with  him.  now ,  he  wasn’t  just  a  boy  hungry  for  power  and  acceptance.  he ,  too ,  was  a  friend  --  despite  the  differences. 

❛ you  say  that  like  you’re  not  coming  back . ❜   murphy  states.  it  was  a  death  sentence ,  that  much  was  certain.  so  why ,  again ,  was  this  the  game  plan ?  

❛ come  on ,  bellamy . . . ❜   it  was  a  useless  fight  that  he  was  picking ,  and  murphy  knew  that.  but  it  was  sincere.    ❛ you  know  i  can’t  lead  ( care  for )   these  people ––❜    something  he  would  never  have  admitted  just  a  week  prior.   ❛ let’s  think  of  a  better  plan. ❜   

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texts from last night! meme

[text] Does me being hung over take away from how professional I can be today? [text] The bar would not accept my money. I have reached God status here [text] He was very considerate of my needs, he offered me pizza before and after. [text] I asked him for something to clean up with after sex and he handed me a sham wow. A SHAM WOW [text] So I was putting on a condom and looked to my right to not make eye contact, she said did you just look at the American flag while putting that on. I said this one’s for Team USA. [text] He gave me the “find somebody who wants to date you for who you are” speech while I walked around the house asking people for pants. [text] I will show up on your front porch in a wet t shirt and some mac and cheese [text] I just got high off one hit and then Spent 20 minutes inspecting the gasket of our refrigerator and researching ways to replace it [text] Seriously. I’m like, “Wait, we are actually talking about physics in the middle of sex and its ACTUALLY erotic because you’re so fucking intelligent I’m turned on?” [text] Hyyypothetically, what would you do if you happened to see my boobs on the internet? [text] He fucked me so hard my nail polish actually chipped. I’m keeping him. [text] I’m making poor life decisions again. Tune in tomorrow to see how much I hate life. [text] It’s a lube slip n slide down the hallway now. Details later. [text] Just woke up with an entire pack of Oreos in my cheetah onesie. I’ve been waiting for this moment forever. [text] Lesson learned. Don’t roleplay with a real knife. [text] We got drunk and crashed a fifty year old woman’s birthday party for the food. Whoops. [text] He asked me if I wanted to blow his whistle and proceeded to pull out an actual whistle. [text] I woke up this morning with 3 phone numbers, a red Chinese New Year envelope with cash in it, and a winning scratcher all stuffed in my bra. I’d say it was a pretty successful Thursday night. [text] I’m wearing sunglasses around my house. Douchebag status. The hangover is real. [text] He’s like… An octopus that touches my vagina in all these diff ways at the right times. It’s almost unsettling [text] I was orgasming and dying of laughter at the same time. I think I’ve found the One. [text] Do me a favor I want you to reach down the front of your pants and underwear and just feel around for a while… if you happen to find your balls then join us [text] i just walked into a room at this party and someone yelled “dibs!”… [text] and then she said I drew a line on her forehead with my cum and whispered “Simba” [text] so I was just driving high and I stopped to let a pinecone cross the road because I thought it was a hedgehog. [text] Sex on bubble wrap = best decision ever. [text] Your lack of great college experience of margaritas and foam parties scares me [text] We get an extra hour of sleep. That means we can take an extra shot tonight. Sounds logical. Thank you daylight savings. [text] when someone at the bar asked you a question all you knew how to say was “chug-a-lug” [text] There’s a girl in class eating a pumpkin pie. Like a whole pie straight from the pan with a fork. [text] Apparently I taped knives to my hands and made everyone call me wolverine [text] My house smells like bleach. Also, I do not feel bad about all the stuff I stole from the hospital while I was there. [text] He told me he loved me. I didn’t know what to say so i just squirted the baby oil at him [text] Get here, there are important joints to be smoked and pies to be eaten [text] Can I even tell you how badly I want a day that is just on and off napping and sex with intermittent snack breaks? Because I want that day very badly. [text] He came so hard that he yelled what sounded like a spell from Harry Potter. [text] we were both freshly single and using each other as rebounds. most intense sex I’ve ever had. i felt like a grizzly bear emerging from hibernation in a whirlwind of sexual fury [text] I need a drink and a shade of lipstick that will put the fear of God in a man’s heart. [text] When was the last time you wore pants? [text] I’ve replaced you with thin mints and masturbation [text] Tuesday Boozeday turned into What-the-fuck-were-you-thinking Wednesday real fast. [text] Have you ever had chicken nuggets while high? Because it tastes like hearing the Beatles for the first time [text] Being able to fart in my own house is like 90% of why I pay rent [text] We played Rock Paper Scissors to see who would have to go down on the other person. [text] I just accidentally showed an old lady a pic of my penis while showing her cat pics. So how’s your day going? [text] I found a door knob in my purse this morning, I hope whoever it belonged to doesn’t need it today. [text] We go out, we get drunk, we watch Star Wars, we pass out. What’s wrong with this tradition? [text] all i’ve had to eat today is leftover bday cake and a shot of tequila. [text] Pretty sure the guy I hooked up with Saturday gave me a buy one get one free coupon for chipotle. Who said nice guys don’t exist? [text] Apparently nothing brings out sympathy in a barista like asking if they have a hangover special [text] And when I feel bad about myself I go to the library and suck my pen over an open book, counting the seconds until a guy sits across from me and tries to get my attention [text] This is a mass text to all my friends. Whoever gets this first, please find me and confiscate my phone immediately. I am far too high to have it. Even if you have to punch me in my face to get it. Otherwise, let the “High While Analyzing Disney Movies” texts begin. [text] Seriously insulted!! You can not share my dick pick with your gay brother. He won’t quit poking me on fb [text] I am trying to think of a way to make alcohol cupcakes [text] One of us needs to be functional tomorrow and it won’t be me. I’m drinking liquor out of a fishbowl. [text] You pulled the fire alarm because you had to shit and there was someone in the bathroom. you said you needed privacy [text] im guessing your the one that tried to make bacon in the toaster [text] just smoked a blunt while listening to nsync. i now know what my childhood was missing. [text] I just made out with a girl with a life jacket on wtf is going on [text] Let’s play a little game called “Chill the Fuck Out” - you’re our first contestant [text] Didn’t get laid. But got a free pie from a waitress. A whole pie. [text] I am swimming in semen. He must have been holding it in for a special occasion. [text] you should buy a sheep. A) you get an awesome pet. B) free coat [text] tonight is going to be epic. can you pre-book an ambulance? [text] We thought you were crowd-surfing until we realized it was the bouncers throwing you out [text] maybe tonight we can turn coloring into a drinking game [text] i think its awesome that according to your mom i’m your friend that caught on fire. [text] So fucked up. Can’t tell if I’m starving or about to puke. Playing it safe and eating froot loops. Tasty in, colorful out. [text] I just saw a hobo ride by on a unicycle. Good day. [text] Vodka is such a love hate relationship. [text] you traded sex for a burrito? [text] I made a game called come to class high and eat nachos. [text] You decided to make a porno with gummy bears and things went downhill from there. [text] it’s not a party till someone uses the fire extinguisher. [text] You’re always adorable, but when you’re drunk, you’re like Chia Pet adorable. [text] this kid just offered me adderall in exchange for my meal points. college at its finest [text] I was cleaning up my drunken mess and I found my ID in a cereal box [text] I am now the proud owner of a 10-12 year old’s Optimus Prime costume from Walmart. Tomorrow is going to be a good day. [text] It’s like eating cereal and milk but instead of cereal it’s gummy bears and instead of milk it’s vodka. [text] You leave a trail of fuck everywhere you go [text] Scott woke me up by cracking a beer open in my face. Best friends are awesome. [text] we woke up to him feeding us cheetos at 3am. and by feeding i mean shoving them in our mouths and saying “i mean who doesn’t like cheetos” [text] quit making up holidays to get me to go drinking with you [text] I left a cheeto on everyone’s car trailing to the house i’m at, hanzel and gretel style. [text] Just got a event reminder on my phone to never party with you again. [text] nobody understood you. You kept speaking french and hiding shit in your boobs [text] When I came home you were using a glowstick to eat peanut butter from the jar. [text] kinda considering buying a life alert for sophomore year [text] My phone auto-corrects smirnoff to poisoned. I think it is trying to tell me something. [text] Anywhere you can eat green eggs and ham, you can have sex. [text] you were running down the aisles of wal mart singing ‘follow the yellowbrick road’. i’m pretty sure you thought the night shift workers were the munchkins & started crying when they wouldnt help u find the wizard. needless to say u were pretty stoned/wasted [text] It’s like the only way I know how to apologize is by giving a blow job. [text] did you by any chance leave me that 7 minute long voicemail of you running and constantly tripping into bushes? [text] The world would be so much better with thought bubbles. [text] I love taking my adderall while im in class! As soon as I take the pill out everyone around me just stares in envy! [text] You handed some guy a spoon you found, he yelled SPOON GAME, and then the two of you spent the next 20 minutes throwing spoons all over the kitchen. [text] I just told a dude I hooked up with last night he was the pick of the litter. [text] So I woke up today with someone’s door knob in my pocket. I hope everybody else got out of the house ok. [text] So we successfully lit our bathtub on fire. Thought you should know. [text] Because when I say 'You shouldn’t drink anymore’, she hears, 'I personally challenge you to chug 3 more mixed drinks’ [text] okay, this game isn’t funny anymore. tell us where all the forks are. [text] The lack of pants and amount of productivity in my life right now is amazing. [text] when i start to cry when i lose at mario kart is when you should put me to bed [text] so apparently the car got towed with me passed out in the back seat. [text] You closed the sidewalk off to pedestrians last night. With a glitter covered safety cone [text] never. drinking. again. [text] I’m gonna get drunk and through up on the first happy couple I see. [text] got some bad news about ur virginity. she didnt make it thru the night [text] I need a good reason NOT to eat this entire jar of nutella right now [text] i’m out of smokes so i just had an after sex popsicle. this might become an addiction. [text] Yeah I think we tried to use the shower curtain as a parachute because its tied to my backpack with some string. Dont know if anyone actually attempted it though.