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this whole vacation, i've been bedrotting, which really sucks. It feels like im wasting it, and my potential along with it
man im not sure if i'll ever be good enough as a daughter. I've given it my all. If there's another life, i hope i won't have to go through it again.
next time i do something stupid, pls throw a chair at me, thanks. iloveyou :D
economics is going to be the death of me.
"What's your poison of choice?" potassium cyanide :D *awkward silence* oh you were talking about alcohol? :0 ah I don't drink anyway, thanks :3
'everything happens for a reason', and the reason is your horrifying, questionable life choices. youre welcome :D
someone told me they can't see me in a romantic relationship, LIKE EVER (yea they accentuated that part) so am I that unlovable or was that a compliment? (guess we'll never know) either way, they're not wrong :D
sometimes I wonder how I would be if none of that had happened. Would I be living up to my full potential? Would I be a carefree soul? Would I be fearless? Would I be loveable? Would I be happy? Guess we'll never know.
what are you apologizing for? youve changed my brain chemistry. Now what? Everything is different. I cant go back to how I was before. Do you think apologizing will fix the damage you've done? Pathetic.
With all respect and appreciation, try as much as you can to support them and help me, so that I may be able to help my family before it is too late.
ofc, will do my very best with whatever I can do
I finally did it. Wrote 3 long pages for this friend who's practically family (or at least that's what I like to think) but now that it's their birthday, im freaking out. Took a lot of guts for a scaredy-cat like me to spill my heart out like this. And now, im too nervous to actually hand it over. What if they read it in front of everyone? (or even just in front of me? shoot, pls im not ready for that kind of stuff) ive poured out stuff ive never even said out loud. Holding those pages, my palms are sweaty, and my vision's blurry from the tears. I can't even breathe right. How am I supposed to face them after giving this? im tempted to just rip it all up, but part of me wants them to know, even if it terrifies me.
"aw, you're blushing", NO IT'S EMBARRASSING, AND YOURE MAKING IT EVEN WORSE FOR ME !!
CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM AND PASSIVE AGGRESSION ARE NOT SYNONYMOUS. THEY'RE DISTINCT BEHAVIORS. LABELING PASSIVE AGGRESSION AS CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM IS INVALID !!
these self-proclaimed online 'philosophers' and 'therapists' think they're 'superior' just bcs they state something as basic as '2+2=4' once and then they shape their entire persona around being the 'reality checks' guru, all the while sneaking in their personal agendas, distorting reality and misinformation, and even brainwashing + influencing people with their word salad game. What's even sadder is that some people actually get influenced by it to the point where they start defending these 'influencers' with only half-knowledge and full aggression
the number of times ive said, 'mera gala khraab hai', as my opening line is directly proportional to the number of ice cubes ive consumed
ive got a sore throat just bcs I ate an ice cube (okay maybe 3-4, but THAT'S IT) yesterday, and my system is so drama queen coded—LIKE ARE YOU KIDDING ME? it can't even handle a damn ice cube (3-4, but you get the point na) plus today, I put 6 ice cubes in my drink to cool down (it's like 42 degrees outside) and I probably shouldn't have done that bcs now I sound like a broken record. BUT it's a good excuse for me to stay quiet in social settings, so ig it's not that bad (I cant even open my mouth)
yayay i aced my psych test today, and the teacher was super proud of me :D
I was mentally screaming bcs this bunch of ineffable idiots was talking way too loudly IN THE LIBRARY (I was so pissed off) when I told them to shutup, they did (for a sec okay), but then they moved behind me (they had been in front before), and one of them started making noises ON PURPOSE. There was no librarian around, so it was even more ANNOYING
ahem so this person complimented me and like any sane person, I said thankyou (I hope they heard that) but they didn't stop there so you know what I said next? i told them to SHUTUP like literally 'shaant' (bcs I was embarrassed? and my whole face felt like it was on fire so) BUT DID THEY STOP? no :)) then for the next few minutes, I toh couldn't even look at them, and they were just STARING INTO MY SOUL (I bet they had a blast teasing me to no end) (kms)
sure, but only if I get to be the target :3
now just when MY SCHEDULE IS FINALLY STABLE and im getting the concepts pretty well, this HOD decides to change our schedule AGAIN (for the sixth time now) like pls im gonna cry. shutup
now just when MY SCHEDULE IS FINALLY STABLE and im getting the concepts pretty well, this HOD decides to change our schedule AGAIN (for the sixth time now) like pls im gonna cry. shutup
the school faculty has decided to schedule exams during the summer vacation period !! (kms) they're gonna take a week out of that period (kms) and might even shorten it further (kms) PLEASE, IM ABOUT TO SNAP