I Can Never Do Anything Right, Can I? I Can Never Be Good Enough, Can I Be? Haven't I Given Enough?

I can never do anything right, can I? I can never be good enough, can I be? Haven't I given enough?

HAVE I MENTIONED THAT SOMEONE I KNOW IN REAL LIFE FOUND MY TUMBLR BLOG AND CONFESSED TO STALKING IT FOR THE PAST MONTH?

I once had someone whose hugs meant the world to me, but we've moved beyond that stage now. It's as if I can't find that same physical comfort with anyone else. It's a bit difficult to admit and I feel somewhat pathetic writing this, but this is how I truly feel. I miss them and their hugs every day.

"describe yourself"

"witty, self-deprecating, sometimes uproariously funny, other times exaggeratingly boring, and occasionally unbearably sad"

I'm feeling really hurt right now. You know, when someone talks about my friends behind their backs, I always make sure to say nice things about them because that's what friends are supposed to do, right? I genuinely mean the things I say, with all the love in my heart. But it's like, when it's my turn, all I get is betrayal, and the things they say, I wouldn't even say to someone I really dislike. It's just frustrating, yk? Why does it always have to turn out this way? Am I just that unlucky, unloveable, easy to replace? At this point, I'm not even sure if I can call them friends anymore. I'm just so drained. Making friends is one thing, but keeping those friendships genuine, that's a whole different story. I pour my heart and soul into my friendships, and I truly value them. But it seems like every time, I end up hearing and seeing things that could break even the coldest heart. I'm left feeling terrible, and honestly, I don't even know who I can trust anymore. It's like every time I trust someone, they just give me a reason not to. And what's really tough is that I'm always the one who forgives and tries to make things right. It's heartbreaking, but then I have to put on a brave face and pretend everything's fine when it's really not. Can you imagine your close friends, the ones you care about deeply, talking bad about you behind your back? It's like every friendship I build turns into a life lesson. The worst part is when you're fully aware that they're gossiping about you behind your back, yet they're completely unaware that you're onto them. So, you just play it cool, not doing anything, and watch as they keep spinning their web of lies. I'm worn out from the effort it takes to keep, nurture, and sustain these friendships that seem to be slowly breaking me in the process.

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