WHAT IF I CRIED AND THREW UP

WHAT IF I CRIED AND THREW UP

battling a migraine to write this but it has to be said. that dimension 20 episode was a masterclass in storytelling, acting, roleplay, improv - everything. it was one of those episodes about life and loss and friendship and love that I already know I will come back to over and over and over again. and while every single misfit - lou, erika, danielle, brennan - knocked every scene out of the park, I'm sitting here in pure awe of aabria for each moment she created in that episode.

it was unreal. to weave something so gutpunching and beautiful and poignant and work with every choice the cast made and enhance and elevate every scene. I don't think in a hundred lifetimes I'd have the words to give justice to that brilliance and how every part of that episode hit me. and even at the end I thought to myself, okay, I could watch this thirty more times and get something new and meaningful out of it each time. because everything aabria did felt so cared for. everything felt precious and important.

and aabria's ability to bring out some of the best reactions I've seen from each of these players, especially lou, danielle, and erika??? reacting to the weight of it?? I had goosebumps. SO MANY TIMES. maybe it's weird to say but I was ecstatic to see these characters in such conflict because the acting???? THE ACTING????? Lou as Jammer and Danielle as Sam were soul-crushing in their grief and shock and it felt so real and hit so close to home. and god I cried when they did. and then Erika as K with this entirely separate shade of pain and grief which felt SO true to the helplessness and regret of losing someone you only wished to help. and finally Brennan as Evan and the struggle of facing his insecurities as they were in direct conflict of saving himself like. GOD I truly don't have the words. It feels like a gift to have witnessed it. I could write reactions to every single second of it. I'm going to watch it ten more times and cry some more idk idk

I really do feel blessed to have media that made me feel so deeply and so powerfully for 2 hours on a random wednesday night in my life. and that's because it was real magic.

Happy 2015 :)

This AU has probably been done a million times before, but I love the idea of Bill being trapped inside Stan’s head after the finale.

I’m calling it the “Still Bill” au

#stillbillau

im obsessed with this show already and it's only a single episode