I Cant Do This Anymore

i cant do this anymore

i am thinking so many thoughts

Chapter 5: The Maze

(Y/N’s Perspective)

“All right, but why would Alby go in the Maze? I mean, he’s not – He’s not a runner,” says Thomas who’s sitting down on a log not doing anything, next to chuck.

“Things are different now. Alby went to retrace Ben’s footsteps before sundown, Look, are you going to help?” Newt says referring to the tree stump that him and Zart are trying to cut down.

“So, he’s gonna go back to where Ben was just stung?” Thomas replied.

“Alby knows what he’s doing, All right. He knows better than any of us,” Newt said and went back to chopping the tree stump.

Thomas stops for a second and looks down at the ground. “What does that mean?”

I look over at Newt who I can tell is getting a bit agitated from all the questions from Thomas. All right, it’s like you’ve heard, yeah? Every month the box sends up a new arrival. But someone had to be first, right? Someone had to have spent a whole month in the Glade alone, and that was Alby. I mean it can’t have been easy. But when those other boys, and girl,” Newt says pointing towards me, which earned a small smile from me. “Started coming up, one after the other, he saw the truth. And he learned that the most important thing is that we all have each other, because we’re all in this together.”

The whole time Thomas keeps his eyes on Newt, concentrating on what he’s saying. Thomas thinks for a moment before getting up and going over to the tree stump to help Newt and Zart.

He starts chopping at the tree stump. “Yeah, there you go greenie,” Newt stated.

Thunder starts rumbling and as soon as I hear that I get up. “I’m going to get going now, see you guys later I guess,” I say.

Zart and Thomas utter a small bye to me. “All right, I’ll see you later,” Newt says with a look of what I think is a disappointment but I’m not entirely sure because I can never tell what he’s feeling.

“Yeah, I’m going to go too,” says Chuck as he gets up and we walk beside each other back to the Homestead.

(Third Person)

All the Gladers are in the homestead to avoid the rain and also waiting for Minho and Alby to return from the Maze.

“They should be back by now. What happens if they don’t make it?” Ask’s Thomas.

“They’re gonna make it,” Newt replies.

Thomas walks up to Newt. “And what happens if they don’t?” Thomas asks again.

“They’re gonna make it,” Newt says again to reassure him.

“They’re gonna make it,” Newt says again to reassure him.

Once the rain stops all the Gladers gather at the entrance of the Maze, still waiting for Minho and Alby to come back. Newt, Y/n, Thomas, Chuck, Gally and a few others are standing in the front while all the other Gladers are behind them. The doors to Maze start cracking signalling that the doors are about to close.

“Come on guys, can’t we send someone after them” Thomas asks and Gally replies. “That’s against the rules. Either they make it back or they don’t.”

“Can’t risk losing anyone else,” says Newt.

The wind from inside the Maze starts blowing in everyone’s faces and the doors start closing. Just before everyone loses hope Thomas spots Minho and Alby in the distance. “There!”

“Wait no somethings wrong,” Newt says once he realises that Alby is on top of Minhos back.

“Is he stung?” Y/N asks.

“COME ON MINHO YOU CAN DO IT!” Chuck yells to encourage him. All the other boys start yelling for Minho to come faster.

As the doors are quickly inching closer together, Minho puts Alby down and starts dragging him by his legs. “Minho, you gotta leave him!” Gally yells.

Minho is so far away, and walls are quickly closing. Before we knew it Thomas had quickly run in the Maze just before the walls shut. “Thomas, no!” Chuck yells.

The walls are fully shut with Thomas, Minho, and Alby inside. All the Gladers on the outside are standing there in shock.

“Why did he do that?” Y/N asks in a panic and looks frantically between the Gladers. No one answers.

Y/N starts walking towards the Med-Hut very fast before Newt starts calling out to her. “Hey! Y/N, come back!”

Newt catches up to her. “Hey, where are you going?” Y/N continues speed walking away and replies. “Back to work.”

Newt grabs her arm to stop her from walking away any further. “Stop walking, let’s just stop and breathe. It’s fine.”

“No, it’s not fine! There stuck out there for the night. You said it yourself! No one has ever survived a night in the maze! I think we both know what this means,” Y/N says.

Newt stands there and looks down at his feet not knowing how to reply because she’s right. They’re probably not going to survive.

“We’ll talk later, I just need to be alone right now,” Y/N says before walking back to the Med-Hut. Newt watches her walk away before deciding to go back to her.

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This was supposed to come out yesterday but i forgot. sorrryy

first post!!

I'm writing a newt story because i want to. I've never posted on this app before so please bear with me while i figure it out. I just started writing the first chapter so i hope it doesn't take too long long. I'll release the detail a little bit before i release the story.

hes so hot i cant do this anymore

THE VEINS, THE HAIR. Look how small that phone looks in his hands. Guys. I think I have a problem at this point. HE LOOKS SO TALL. He’s getting more muscle too. I’m so not normal abt him.

Chapter 2: Greenie

(Y/N’S Perspective)

I was sitting around in the med-jack hut doing nothing. It was greenie day, and I was waiting for here those blaring sirens, so we all know the new greenie was on his way. Plus, a bunch supplies that the Gladers needed. I loved greenie days mostly for the fact that she knew there would be more supplies waiting in the box for her. I’d had given up ages ago on hoping for a girl to come up, even though a little part of me was always hoping a girl, it never was, and I had to accept that (whether or not it frustrated me.)

Then as if on cue those sirens started. I jumped right out of her seat and followed Jeff and Clint to the box. Once I made it over, I found herself next to Newt and gave him a smile. We’ve been close ever since his accident in the maze. He knows she doesn’t care about the greenie and just wants to see what supplies have been brought up.

The buzzer blares and Gally opens the box. Everyone looks inside to see the greenie. If I’m being honest, I’ve always felt quite bad for the greenies that come up. All your memories gone, you don’t know where the hell we are, and I don’t blame them for having questions but sometimes it just gets a bit too much. Luckily, it’s not my job to show the greenie around and hear all the questions. Unlucky for Alby, because that’s his job as first-in-command I do like to say hello to them at the bonfire though.

Gally jumps in the box. “Day one, Greenie. Rise and shine,” I like to think of it has a pretty iconic line. Every single greenie hears it. Gally gets the greenie out of the box and shoves him on the floor pretty harshly. Everyone gathers around him to get a good look. “Kid looks like a slopper to me,” someone yells out. “I could use some help in the kitchen,” says frypan. Pretty understandable considering he’s the only cook. Everyone else was just laughing at him. Poor shank.

Assuming that he was scared like most greenies when they first enter the glade, he got up and made a run for it. I have to go it to him, he’s quite fast. Runner material if I do say so myself. That was until he tripped and fell right on his back. That’s also when the laughs started. I did let out a little giggle myself.

The greenie got up and looked around. The first time a greenie gets a good look at the glade is memorable one. A look at the place that me and the other Gladers have been for a long time, a place that they will be for a long time. It has to be quite scary seeing the big walls surrounding them, keeping them from the outside world. But there’s not much we can do about that is there.

To keep him from running again the boys throw him in the pit, for good measure. And then everyone got back to work. I helped getting the supplies out seeing if there was anything good, which as usual there was. Just a bit of medication that we were running out of and some gauze. I grabbed everything that was for the med-jack hut and went back with it.

Once I finished putting all the new supplies away, I stood out at the door of the watching Alby show the greenbean the glade. I know doubt that he has loads of questions, unlucky Alby. While watching them I see Newt walking up to the two boys with his little limp. A smile forms on my face when I see him. Every time I’m around Newt he never fails to put a smile on my face, which isn’t too surprising because he is my best friend. One of the only boys who keeps me sane.

I watch the boys conversate and before I knew it newt had left the two boys, probably going to find Chuck I assume. I stay in the doorway of the med-jack hut, people watching. There isn’t always a lot to do so it’s a good past time until I can make myself useful. Alby takes the greenie up on the lookout, Newt goes and finds Chuck, The Gladers do their respective jobs. All is well.

I continue watching everyone. My eyes lingering on Newt for a bit longer than I would like to admit. I see the greenbean walk away from Chuck and towards the entry to the maze. Chuck catches up to him and try’s his best to persuade the greenie not to go out there. Seriously he’s a tough one. One out of the three rules is to not leave, and what does he want to do as soon as he leaves Alby’s eyesight. They can tough sometimes that’s for sure.

Then Minho and Ben emerge from the maze, taking a look at the Greenie running straight past him. And there the Greenie goes again, trying to ‘have a look at the maze.’ And now obviously he’s getting a bit too close, and some Gladers are noticing this. One of them being Gally. Gally being the hot-head he is goes straight up to the greenie and shoves him straight to the ground. The Greenie gets a bit agitated and grabs some Gladers attention, me included. I get up and start jogging to where the boys are.

“What the hell is wrong with you guys,” the greenie spits out. “Just calm down alright,” says Newt. “No why won’t you tell me what’s outs there,” says the greenie again. “We’re just trying to protect you man,” Alby states. “For your own good,” says newt.

“you guys can’t just keep me here!” Obvious distress.

“I can’t let you leave,” says Alby.

“Why not?” the greenie says and is if on cue we hear the walls. The rumbles signalling that they are about to close. We all focus our attention on the wall while it shuts close. Hopefully scaring the greenie enough.

“Next time, I’m going to let you leave,” says Gally, trying to prove a point. As always.

The Greenie starts at the walls in shock as if he just saw his whole family die right in front of him. I start to walk off as all the commotion has ended until I hear my name being called from behind me. And I can immediately tell from his accent that its newt. “Y/N!” Newt calls.

I turn around and looks at him. “What’s up,” I call out while he walks over.

“Are going to say hi to greenie yet or what?”

“y’know I only do that at the bonfire, that’s when they have the most questions.”

“of course, I guess we’ll talk then.”

“Yeah, see you later,” I call out while walking off. Newt shouts a little see ya while he walk in the other direction. On greenie days I never really have enough time to talk to Newt until the bonfire at night. Which is 100% the worst part of greenie days. Not being able to talk to my best friend for the whole day. It could be worse though.

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 Sorry the chapter took so long to get out. This chapter is a bit shorter than the first one. Also, this was written at 3:00 AM and I just used the editor thing on word to edit because I cant be bothered so im sorry if someone this does not make sense.

Chapter 4: Ben

(Third Person)

Alby wakes up early one morning, with the intention of waking up Thomas so he can carve his name into the maze wall. He quietly walks around all the boys sleeping, trying not to wake them up. He gets over to Thomas and covers his mouth with his hand. He lets out a quiet “Thomas” and shushes him. He takes his hand off Thomas face and asks him to follow him. Thomas quickly gets up and follows him.

While Alby and Thomas Walk towards the maze wall Alby decides to tell him a little snippet about how it was in the glade. “It’s peaceful, isn’t it? I know it’s hard to believe, but it wasn’t always this way. We had dark days. We lost a lot of boys to fear, to panic. But we’ve come far since then. Established order, made peace.”

“Yeah, why are you telling me this,” Thomas says still looking confused as always.

“Because you’re not like the others, You’re curious. But you’re one on us now. You need to know what that means,” says Alby while placing a knife in his hand.

He points at the wall behind Thomas to show him the names of the other Gladers, some crossed out for obvious reasons, but Thomas still looks concerned.

“What happened to them?” Thomas asks and points at the names crossed out on the wall.

“Like I said dark days, Thomas,” Alby says with a little crack in his voice, as if he was reliving horrible memories.

Thomas takes a few steps closer to the wall and holds up the knife to a free space at the wall and starts to carve his name, like he’s finally become a real Glader.

(Y/N’s Perspective)

I was sitting in the Med-Jack finishing wrapping up a slicers hand after he damaged it. I let him go knowing that he’s going back out to continue working hoping that he doesn’t cut it up again. Clint and Jeff are also in the Med-Jack hut helping bandage people up. I decide to clean up the place a little, but before I could get to it, I hear someone yelling help from outside. I look at Clint, Jeff and their patients and they all have their heads looking at each other as well. I immediately start to panic. Last time I heard someone screaming out for help was when Newt had his accident.

I rush out the door and look to see where the sound is coming from. In the distance I see a group of boys near the Gardens. I start running over to see the commotion with a bit relief that it wasn’t a situation like Newts. Once I get over, I squeeze through some of the boys to see that situation. Ben on the ground with Gally, Newt and Frypan holding him down.

“Yo, What the hell happened?” Asks Frypan.

“He just attacked me,” Thomas says while quickly getting up and wiping dirt off himself. Alby walks over and Ben has a look of some sort of realisation in his eyes.

“No, No, No,” Ben starts wriggling around. Alby notices that something is off. “Alright, Lift his shirt.”

“I didn’t mean it,” Ben screams out as Newt lifts up his shirt to reveal a nasty sting. My hand covers my mouth immediately. I can feel everyone around my move back a little, quite obviously scared.

“He’s been stung, in the middle of the day,” Gally points out and Alby crouches down beside him. It is scary to think about that. No one had ever been stung in the day before, which I think had everyone a little on edge.

“Help me, please. Please. Please, just help,” Ben cry’s out. I can tell he’s in a lot of pain by the way he’s keeping his eyes closed tightly, his whimpering and rapid breathing. Right now, there is no time to worry about his pain, it’s clear he’s going to be banished for trying to attack Thomas.

“Put him in the pit. Come on, everybody help,” Alby says, and everyone starts to back away while Gally, Newt, Frypan and Jeff carry him away while everyone walks back to work.

(Third Person)

Everyone is gathered around the opening of the Maze door with their sticks. “Just listen to me. Just, please, listen to me. Please Minho,” Ben growls out while Minho walks him to the front of the Maze door and in the middle of everyone. Minho forces him down onto his knees and cuts the rope that was holding his hands ties together. Thomas and Chuck are watching this from the outside the circle.

Ben is sitting on his knees coughing and crying. “No, no please. Please don’t. Please don’t do it,” Ben cry’s out. Minho throws in Ben’s pack and then the maze door starts rumbling signalling that they’re going to start closing.

“Poles!” Alby calls out and everyone faces their poles towards Ben. “Move in,” Alby calls out again and everyone starts inching closer to Ben. By this point Chuck has walked away leaving Thomas to watch this all by himself. Everyone start pushing Ben closer in while the door is inching closer and closer.

“No. No, no, no. Please. No. Please. Please. Please don’t! No, I can get better! Please! Just listen to me!” Ben continues to cry out for help as the boys continue to push him into the Maze. The boys fully push him in and now he as no other choice. He either has to be squished by the maze doors or go inside the maze.

“I’ll get better! I’ll get better!” Ben screams out desperately. Ben takes one last looks inside the Glade before the maze doors fully close of him.

Everyone stands in place without saying a word. Alby looks around at everyone until his eyes land on Thomas who has an upset look on his face.

“He belongs to the maze now,” says Alby before walking off. All the boys and Y/N lay their poles against the maze walls and also walk off.

(Y/N Perspective)

Later that night I’m laying in my hammock trying to get to sleep. In the distance I can see Gally crossing out Bens’s name on the wall, with a couple of the other boys holding fire so he can see properly. It essentially lights up that whole corner of the Glade.

“Do you think he might make it?” Thomas Asks Chuck. Thomas is sitting down on his hammock also watching Gally, While Chuck is laying down in his hammock.

“Ben? No. No one survives a night in the Maze. You just gotta forget about him,” Chuck replies to Thomas. It’s pretty solid advice. No one is ever going to see Ben ever again; we all know it and there is nothing anyone can do to change it. Chuck rolls over facing away from Thomas.

“Go to sleep, Thomas. He isn’t going to come back,” I say to Thomas.

He turns and faces me, then nods his head before laying down in his hammock and falling asleep.

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Boring chapter I’m sorry. Also not a single bit of interaction with newt in this but maybe next chapter. I was trying to find a place to write any interaction between because I don’t know.