I Learn So Much Through The Perceived Scrutiny. I Learn More About How I Wish To Show Up In The World.

i learn so much through the perceived scrutiny. i learn more about how i wish to show up in the world. the compassion that i wish to extend to others. i don't claim self-righteousness. i claim freedom and sovereignty over my body and...my birthrights. the scrutiny allows me to gauge on a more interpersonal level where society truly stands, even at the cost of my own comfort. it requires me to be brave. it requires me to get in the field. not be scared of the dark, bloodily abandoned parts of the unseen that have been neglected. i choose this....or rather it chose me? destiny maybe? fate? whatever it was...i'm deciding to choose it back instead of resisting. i accept the discomfort. i honor my discomfort.

Behind every beneficial decision you take in the name of beauty, and elevation are your female ancestors who could not choose, who could not dream, and who were robbed the right to live a prosperous life.

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why is sex limited to its physicality?

is this why people view the term 'sex-work' so one-dimensionally? i think so. today i made a tweet expanding on a podcast (i knowwwww podcast, i USUALLY hate them too) but this one caught my eye with the title "marriage is sex work." it was something i, too, had pondered before and to see the woman giving the message be scrutinized and demeaned triggered the part of me who felt shame around her thoughts because they are unconventional and "ahead of its time" (1H aqua stellium things). needless to say i received the same responses (mostly by men but ya know). i realized all the attacks stemmed from a limited perspective because of the reducing of sex work to its physical manifestation in the "modern day world," rather than from a dual standpoint that i was presenting. sex work didn't originate from sex, and when i had this epiphany, it quite literally changed everything. destroyed a lot of old paradigms that ate infiltrated in the thought-forms of majority of people. i don't seek to be a demagogue and convert everyone to my line of thinking. i only desire for people to dig deeper. to disarm the mind. to expand. to transcend old thoughts and belief systems that are no longer sustainable for this "new world" everyone refers to. the new world is not something we have to wait on. the new world is being cultivated right now and all it requires is destruction and renewal individually, ultimately creating a ripple effect. a simply yet robust task.

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