Im Sobbing And Throwing Rocks

I’m sobbing and throwing rocks

Genya having a crush on a Male! Reader (rewrite)

Note: I’m so sorry once again for deleting the first version. 😭 especially if you liked the first version better…but anyways, i tried my best for this one. Enjoy :) - Also this is even longer than the first version

Trope: Idk what to call this

PS - Reader is a minor !! Please don’t be creepy thank you very much

You always knew what you were. You never really was attracted to women, and honestly, you didn’t really care. When someone asked you if you had a fiancé/girlfriend, you had no problem telling them you weren’t into girls. You were very much aware that being attracted to the same gender was only gonna cause you problems, not being able to marry, not being able to have kids, not being allowed to love your partner in public.

But who cares ? You were a demon slayer. Love didn’t matter. You were gonna die sooner or later, so finding love wasn’t your priority. You had friends anyways, very good friends. One in particular.

On the other hand, Genya Shinazugawa had no idea of what sexuality was. He was always taught that men falls in love with women. I mean, its normal right ? Never in his life he has imagined that maybe, men who loved other men and women who loved other women existed. When he grew a little older, he vaguely heard of homosexuality. And don’t take it to heart, but it grossed him out at first. Boys who likes boys ? That’s so weird…why on earth would someone refuse to love a girl and date a man instead ?

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You two met a long time ago, before you officially entered the demon slayer corps.

It was the final selection. You were about 14 years old. You had to stay in those dark, hostile mountains for 7 days, trying your best to survive against demons. You saw multiple people your age getting killed, and to be fully honest, you struggled keeping your calm (which was understandable).

While you were trying to figure out if a demon was following you, you saw a tall, black haired boy from afar. He looked around your age, and you wanted to team up with somebody to feel safer. So you came up to him. It caught him off guard that you talked to him at first, He was probably expecting to work alone.

He refused to team up with you at first, assuming that you were ”too weak” and that ”you’ll slow him down”. How rude, why would he assume things about you when you two didn’t even know each other ?

For some reason, he ended up accepting anyways.

Nothing special happened during those 7 days. You two barely spoke to eachother. Just slaying demons and trying your best to survive.

Sometimes though, you could notice him staring at you for a little too long. But you didn’t pay much attention to it.

After the final selection, You said goodbye to Genya, telling him to be careful out there, and to take care of himself. He simply ignored you. What was his problem ?

Month later, you saw Genya again during a mission. What a coincidence you thought, maybe it was a sign for you two to become friends ?

You tried your best to be as patient, as nice to Genya as possible. He ended up ”tolerating you” enough to stop him from yelling at you all the time (which was a great start !) After achieving several missions together, you two slowly grew closer. Your personality matched his surprisingly well. You learned a lot about him, and he learned a lot about you. Genya started to open up to you about his brother and his struggles, asking you for advices. You were always very patient and made sure to tell him that you’ll always be there for him, which he was grateful for. He never told you, but you were his first real friend and his best friend, ever.

But things started getting weird. Well, i wouldn’t say weird, but complicated at least.

It was the first time in a long time Genya hadn’t met someone who showed so much interest with him. You were always carefully listening to whatever he was saying, the spark in your eyes never leaving. It flattered him a lot. He admired you so much, the way you fight, the way you spoke, the way you act with people. There was a desire in him that wanted to become closer to you. The more he hung out with you, the more he wanted you to spend time with him.

He didn’t know what that feeling was at first, obviously. He thought it was nothing but pure platonic appreciation. For him, being jealous whenever someone gets a little too close to you was completely normal. For him, his heart thundering in his chest whenever you complimented him was nothing but ordinary. For him, feeling his cheeks burning when your face was too close to his was a common thing. It’s normal right ? Boys don’t like boys. People like that are absurd. He’s not one of them. He’ll never be one of them.

One day, Genya had a big fight with his older brother, the wind Hashira. You hated that man. You hated the way he treated your dear friend. You had warned Genya about Sanemi a lot, telling him to never say anything about him eating demons. You knew damn well what he could do, and you wanted to do anything to prevent that from happening.

But Genya just didn’t listen. You knew he was stubborn, so when you saw him bleeding from his cheek after returning from the wind Pillar’s domain, you weren’t surprised.

You were mad, but you couldn’t express it. Genya was devastated from what just happened, and he needed you to be there for him. So, without complaining, you helped him clean his wound and stayed with him for the rest of the day.

While you two were sitting next to eachother in silence, Genya turned to face you. He stared into your eyes deeply, with a grateful gaze. He was glad to have you by his side. He didn’t want to be separated from you, ever. He loved you. He adored you.

But guys don’t like other guys. That’s repulsive.

So he stayed quiet.

Though he wished he could’ve done something else.

You hated yourself for falling in love.

You hated yourself for ruining you two’s friendship.

So you stayed quiet too.

In another universe, where one of you would’ve been born a girl, you would have kissed him, that day.

Though, Genya wished it could’ve been this one, more than anything.

But you’ll never know. Because he decided to stay quiet, that day.

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Author’s note: I’m sorry 😭

I woke up EXTRA early to listen to my glorious pink haired king Shu Itsuki’s vocals on Sacred Youths Game

I alone will bring ts to the top 100

Ngl content may be slow due to me getting my university affairs in order but not to worry I will upload eventually !

Teenage Dante would be the best and worst wingman simultaneously.

“Yeah I make six figures now.”

“Oh but you couldn’t give me twenty bucks for some pizza?”

“Oh yes I love to read the classics and philosophy is just my cup of tea.”

“Aren’t you illiterate?”

Despite this in times of need he can seriously hype you up. Be it for yourself or others.

“See now they’re totally into you, that’ll be 30.67, but, you’re my friend so I’ll take the tax out, 29.45.”

“Just say you’re broke.”

Ngl I feel like all the unofficial anime watching sites are slowly disappearing mine went poof last month😭

The one good website I watched anime on is gone, save me... I feel like that crying Pedro Pascal gif.

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