Imagining Mech Pilots That Manage To Survive A Career.

Imagining mech pilots that manage to survive a career.

You retire and suddenly the world is huge, slow. Your body is unspeakably fragile. A decade of constant combat drug infusions means you can barely get out of bed. Nothing feels good anymore without the reward implant firing off.

You haven’t killed in months. You snap at the slightest provocation. You want so badly to feel the suit close around you as you wade through buildings. You want to feel powerful again.

But it’s over now.

this is so haunting to me i think about it weekly

never gonna have the drip 90s hentai game girls do

I have created this image in honor of Father.

do wish there was more trans media acknowledging that like.... when you probably didn't even grow up as a feminine boy (although in my case compared to a lot of guys I was cus i like....cook and clean and tidy up and stuff) and so the trans feelings kinda just come out of nowhere and overwhelm you and all the realising stuff is in hindsight. like in hindsight i always wanted to dress a certain way or be called a girl but i absolutely didn't know it at the time. like not everyone is that stereotype and a lot of the time you were basically a bit of a lifeless husk before realising you're trans and that makes it so difficult to navigate. like you have no aspirations, maybe 3 friends all of who suck and suddenly you're realising you wish you were a girl. semi related to how vitriolic people are about the very concept of trans girls who used 4chan and stuff. it's like... I guess a lot of people's ideas of what trans women are and were like is very different to a lot of our lived experience.

like a lot of the time, pre transition gender and personality looks like a mattress on the floor, instead of cute feminine always wanted to be a girl always played with the girls sorta thing (again, complicated in my circumstances and a lot of it was essentially not being raised as a Patriarchal asshole)

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