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Ithinkiprobablyjustneedanap - Kate - Tumblr Blog

Things like depression, anxiety, and a whole host of other things can really mess with a person's memory.
the difference matters:
sex-positive: you want people in general to be able to sexually express themselves freely. this should ideally include asexuality. this is not about you as an individual.
sex-favourable: you want to have sex for whatever reason.
sex-neutral: you don't really have an opinion about freedom of sexual expression. this is about people in general, not you specifically.
sex-indifferent: you don't really care if you personally have sex or not, you could take it or leave it.
sex-negative: you only want people to have a limited sexual expression.
sex-averse: you don't want to participate in sex.
positive/neutral/negative refer to your stance on how sex is treated within society.
favourable/indifferent/averse refer to how you personally feel about participating in sex.
you can be a sex-averse asexual and still be sex-positive.
there's a common misconception that aces, especially sex-averse aces, are all "anti-sex", but some parts of the ace community still hasn't learned the nuance of these terms either. i still see people call sex-favourable aces sex-positive when they mean different things.
ibuprofen is my pookie ♡
being chronically ill with fluctuating symptoms is so annoying because when it's at it's worst im like "okay i desperately need some type of mobility aid right now, i haven't been able to leave my house in days" but then i'm able to go for a walk one day and suddenly i feel like im exaggerating my symptoms and that i actually can walk fine and it would just be embarrassing and pointless to ask for a mobility aid assessment
but like ... not struggling as much one day doesn't take away from the days that i struggle the most
our pain is valid even when it's not at it's worst and we deserve the accommodations we need even if we don't always need them at all times
there's something so raw and soul crushing about spending your late childhood+teen years suicidal then growing up and actually wanting to live, after an ungodly effort, only to see your health deteriorate because of chronic illness.
“slut era” i whisper to myself as i rot in my bed, sick like a frail victorian child
i have a cart :]

perfect representation of what it’s like to be bed bound because of chronic illness /disability.
me: I'm done grieving, I already accepted my illness and all it brings with it, it's totally ok
also me on a random tuesday: my life is never going back to what it was, I'm never going to be able to do the things I loved the most the same, it's over and I gotta learn to live with that but it's kinda impossible because I'm so young and I had so many dreams and so many things I wanted to do that I can't anymore, at least not without all this pain and suffering
needed this today actually
notes for my impostor syndrome:
• no, it's not painful to walk for abled-bodied people
• no, healthy people don't usually use every chance they get to lean against walls or sit down
• no, ableds don't dream about shower stool
• no, ableds don't celebrate days when they're not in pain. because usually they're not in pain
• no, ableds don't want to stop walking mid-way, lay down on the ground, curl up and cry and whine from pain
• no, ableds aren't exhausted by their own bodies 24/7
getting disabled over a period of time is so weird, because sometimes i’ll just see something, let’s say about running, and think “i should do that!” and then i slowly realise that i can’t run anymore. i can barely even walk. it’s weird because there wasn’t one event that happened that made me like it. there wasn’t a day where i woke up and couldn’t run anymore. it was slow and gradual. and sometimes i realise how much ive lost that i didn’t even realise because it all happened so gradually. sometimes it feels like yesterday i could run and today i can’t, and sometimes it feels like forever ago that i could.
I need to be kidnapped by kind aliens who take me to the alien vet and they know exactly what's wrong with me and they cure me and feed me nutritious meals
Disabilities are crazy because prior to 2022 I was chilling, I mean I was asthmatic and I had neurodivergenies I was unaware of but like it was chill
and then two years later boom💥 cane boom💥 knee brace boom💥 drugs boom💥 AHHHHHHH
whats the fucking point of having laws if people can keep making led headlights

What I was taught growing up: Wild edible plants and animals were just so naturally abundant that the indigenous people of my area, namely western Washington state, didn't have to develop agriculture and could just easily forage/hunt for all their needs.
The first pebble in what would become a landslide: Native peoples practiced intentional fire, which kept the trees from growing over the camas praire.
The next: PNW native peoples intentionally planted and cultivated forest gardens, and we can still see the increase in biodiversity where these gardens were today.
The next: We have an oak prairie savanna ecosystem that was intentionally maintained via intentional fire (which they were banned from doing for like, 100 years and we're just now starting to do again), and this ecosystem is disappearing as Douglas firs spread, invasive species take over, and land is turned into European-style agricultural systems.
The Land Slide: Actually, the native peoples had a complex agricultural and food processing system that allowed them to meet all their needs throughout the year, including storing food for the long, wet, dark winter. They collected a wide variety of plant foods (along with the salmon, deer, and other animals they hunted), from seaweeds to roots to berries, and they also managed these food systems via not only burning, but pruning, weeding, planting, digging/tilling, selectively harvesting root crops so that smaller ones were left behind to grow and the biggest were left to reseed, and careful harvesting at particular times for each species that both ensured their perennial (!) crops would continue thriving and that harvest occurred at the best time for the best quality food. American settlers were willfully ignorant of the complex agricultural system, because being thus allowed them to claim the land wasn't being used. Native peoples were actively managing the ecosystem to produce their food, in a sustainable manner that increased biodiversity, thus benefiting not only themselves but other species as well.
So that's cool. If you want to read more, I suggest "Ancient Pathways, Ancestral Knowledge: Ethnobotany and Ecological Wisdom of Indigenous Peoples of Northwestern North America" by Nancy J. Turner
some of the brightest minds of our generation post on tumblr during work hours
me too!!! what show are you seeing?
I have Ateez tickets!!!!!!!


you son of a bitch, im in! 👉
what if we committed earth-shattering acts of hubris together 👉👈
please i need someone like this
sorry i cant hang out i forgot how to mimic human like behaviour
I hate the “open floor plan” that everyone is obsessed with in houses now. I want nooks and crannies and bizarre floor plans. I don’t need to be able to see what someone is doing on the other side of the house. I want places to hide and lurk and dwell in the shadows. I am the beast who awaits in the labyrinth
i get too cold in the mornings if i shower but i also dry my hair so i dont have an itchy scalp anyway so the sleeping with wet hair issue doesnt really affect me much
$50,000 immediately dropped into my bank account wouldn't improve EVERYTHING but boy it sure would be a grand, sexy little start to a good, happy life path, don't you think
like how exercise really helps depression, im happier than ive ever been but god damn if one more person were to give me that advice i was going to stab someone
unfortunately a lot of the corny self help advice turns out to be true but the thing is you have to come to those conclusions yourself otherwise it just sounds dismissive and dumb