Yes, Ive Been Wanting To Read That! I Say With Complete Earnestness, As I Proceed To Ignore Every Opportunity

“yes, I’ve been wanting to read that!” I say with complete earnestness, as I proceed to ignore every opportunity I have to read it

Water was always calming to me, Its sound, the usual coolness, the salty smell.

It is bringing peace.

I am a lively, animated person

Because, if I weren't, people would see what's wrong with me

But now, I hide, even from my eye

When I was little, I was a black hole, outfit-wise

But my mind was bursting with ideas

I was a creator

A writer

A poet

A musician

A singer

A painter

An artist

Now, my clothes are rainbow-like

Lots of reds, browns and greens

But, I feel as empty as I've ever been

(I do not wish to be the old me but I'm not satisfied or even happy with the now me)

i don't think anybody realises how Queen's song 'I'm Going Slightly Mad' is giving me the strength to just keep on living, since I really don't want to, especially now

I don't think I realise the impact of it either

Queen and Freddie Mercury saving lives, once again

i'm not even gonna lie, I think I'm more lazy than introverted.

like, don't get me wrong. I hate most people especially bc it takes so much energy to communicate with them, but also like...

i don't like looking like shit in public?

me meltdowns are a private thing baby

only for me and my four walls

and possibly my bestie and our chat at like,,, 2AM-3AM

but like

for me to get out of my house and go into the city

it's a whole goddamn process and I'm usually not feeling it

like, physically going to school is a bother enough and to get out of my house multiple times a day if it's not for class?

fuck no.