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i'm not even gonna lie, I think I'm more lazy than introverted.

like, don't get me wrong. I hate most people especially bc it takes so much energy to communicate with them, but also like...

i don't like looking like shit in public?

me meltdowns are a private thing baby

only for me and my four walls

and possibly my bestie and our chat at like,,, 2AM-3AM

but like

for me to get out of my house and go into the city

it's a whole goddamn process and I'm usually not feeling it

like, physically going to school is a bother enough and to get out of my house multiple times a day if it's not for class?

fuck no.

hiii

hru?

i saw that norweigan wood by murakami is ur fav book.¿ i've been debating with myself on whether i should read murakami or not so its always interesting when i find someone that has read his work. what made you want to pick up noreeigan wood, if u dont mind me asking? :)

hi!

I'm busying myself with everything possible (slipping back into reading after a bit of a slump!)

how are you? <3

I must preface this by saying, that people usually start with Norwegian Wood because it's the easiest to get into Murakami's works if you start it with that but it is no easy read, by any mean

So, he focuses his writing on magical realism. But, this genre is somewhat fluid, I'd say, since his novels range from fantasy to non-fiction, which is always fascinating. Magical realism is usually characterised by the inclusion of fantastical elements in fiction that appears realistic but, it's a little bit of a different story for Norwegian Wood.

This book was so simple, simply written, yet so powerful which is always interesting to me, since it has many layers. The movie (the bits I've seen and the ppl's critiques) portrayed the book to be a love story which simply doesn't cut it in my eyes.

Some would say the main theme of the book is love. I disagree. I'd say it's discusses how to live with loss and pain. How not to drown in the abyss of emotions. How not to get consumed. Especially since the book is basically introspective, dealing with the pain associated with losing a loved one. - not talking about the characters or the exact plot since I do not wish to spoil you but! Trigger warning!!! Read them!!!

CW/TW: alcohol use, death of a loved one, mental illnesses, sexual content, suicide, depression, lesbophobia, sexual harassment

It's a heavy read. I had moments when I needed to put it down simply because of the empathy towards the characters and the pain I felt with them. Since you'd be reading it, you'd basically live through everything Toru Watanabe's going through. And man, oh man, it's a lot.

Note - the female characters are written by a man. Beware. I felt more connected to the main character, a guy - Watanabe, than any female character. They just... didn't click to me and they were 2D in my mind. But, considering the time when it was written, by whom and with what knowledge and experience, I understand. (I always consider author's personal biography when analysing the book and thinking about the plot)

Considering the book explores the concept of loss and the need to overcome one's struggles with grief, there are many great plots. Two of many them are...

“What happens when people open their hearts?"

“They get better.”

And...

“Despite your best efforts, people are going to be hurt when it's time for them to be hurt.”

If you feel like you could stomach it, if the book wouldn't harm you mentally or, if you could take it slowly, reading it slowly to process everything (bc it's worth it, at least to me), then I suggest you start reading it with an open heart, understanding mind and critical eye

I picked up Norwegian Wood in 2021 because I was getting into somewhat classics and Murakami seemed interesting so, instead of snatching it from the school's library in my mother tongue, I decided to read it in English. I do not regret that decision.

Again, brilliant book, but beware of the TW and the lack of depth in female characters. All in all, I could look past it and I'm not easily trigger so, it was a good read for me.

If you decide to read it, do write to me! I cannot wait to hear your thoughts on the book ☀️

I am a lively, animated person

Because, if I weren't, people would see what's wrong with me

But now, I hide, even from my eye

When I was little, I was a black hole, outfit-wise

But my mind was bursting with ideas

I was a creator

A writer

A poet

A musician

A singer

A painter

An artist

Now, my clothes are rainbow-like

Lots of reds, browns and greens

But, I feel as empty as I've ever been

(I do not wish to be the old me but I'm not satisfied or even happy with the now me)

<3

reblog to give somebody a fucking hug because we are all struggling to get through it. solidarity in this tough ass world.

It's not an "abandoned" WIP, I didn't intentionally leave it in the forest to die and forget about it, it is a lost wip who wandered into the forest despite my pleas not to. I sit at the edge of the forest every day and hear it calling for help but there is nothing I can do. It is a haunting wip