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UWU?????

I relate to this on a spiritual level

Actually I love finding gay subtext in things, it’s like seeing gay shrimp colours and straight people are never going to experience it

english isnt my first language btw so when u read my posts in ur head I want u to mispronounce at least one word in it and add a really heavy accent

Also: Whenever I hear a guy go “Oooh, but women don’t like porn” i think of the enormous amount of porn in fandom created by women for women and all I can think is: “Well, maybe we just don’t like your porn…”

“why are you like that” well i picked up that big book of illustrated greek myths as a kid and i’ve been this way ever since

so let’s talk for a sec about the genderswap!Twilight

dazzling, magnetic, emotional Edythe Cullen who wears sweaters and messy buns? yes

tall, awkward, somewhat-depressed Beau Swan, who takes everything too seriously but is absolutely mesmerized by this girl? yes yes 

the new Cullen family: ferocious terrifying man-bun sporting Royal, giant muscular volleyball captain Eleanor, silent and unsettling Jessamine, strange dancer buzz-cut Archie? YES AWESOME

and my most favorites: Marilyn Monroe-like, fabulous, hard-working, head-of-the-family, superstar surgeon Carine Cullen and her compassionate trophy husband Earnest? everyone respects and appreciates her, refers to her by her job title, and never once second-guesses her or considers her a “bitch” or an “ice queen” or “aggressive”?? yes yes YESSS

a world where a male protagonist is surrounded by powerful females, and he never doubts their judgement or abilities once?? sign me UP

needless to say i loved this version, i thought it was a lot of fun and really refreshing–it showed me a society that i expect 2015 to be (but isn’t yet), and i am not ashamed at all about it. so i drew what i imagined the characters looking like when i was reading it.

the notes on this one are amazing

Obviously I hate that SMeyer did the whole "oh I'm OCD about kitchen cupboards lol" thing in Life and Death but as someone actually with OCD I think it'd be rlly interesting if Beau was written to actually have OCD

I would also definitely be interested in seeing an Edward with OCD, struggling with intrusive thoughts about accidental harm or violent intrusive thoughts that contribute to his conviction that he's an evil soulless monster

Also if anyone else has any Twilight & mental health head canons I'd love to hear about them!!

The real monsters

Guys, hear me out. 

Twilight, but with all humans, focused on family issues and personal drama.

See Doc Carlisle adopting all the hurt children, marrying a former patient that he helped escape from a abusive marriage and cope with the loss of her son.

Edward, the first adopted brat, who suddenly lost his parents and constantly struggles with depression and suicidal tendencies.

And little Rosalie, a sexual abuse survivor who killed her abuser in self-defense.

See, Emmett, almost killed in an animal attack, with scars all over his body.

Jasper, rescued from a war zone country where children were used as small soldiers, with PTSD and deep physical and psychological scars.

Alice, who spent most of her life in a psychiatric clinic where she was abandoned by her family.

Feel the drama?

Charlie, how he helps Bella to understand that she doesn’t need to take care of her parents, but the other way around. That being the functional adult in the relationship with her mother was not right, and that she can trust him when she needs help, that she doesn’t have to work it out on her own.

Let’s talk about Jacob, how he needs to take care of his disabled father when he can’t even take care of himself.

Focus on Benjamin escaping Amun’s unhealthy authority and finding a family that doesn’t see him as an object.

Focus on them.

Focus on it.

Forget the vampires, focus on real monsters: humans, and how they can break people.

I just finished reading RougeDruid’s fic ‘Hero Class Civil Warfare’ on Ao3 and I’ve never felt so mentally and physically exhausted from reading a FANFIC. My body is trying to relearn what it’s like to not be constantly tense.

It was fucking fantastic, and as much as I want to scream right now into a pillow, I HIGHLY reccomend it to anyone who hasn’t read it.

I’m just gonna….die now. Pls read the fic. It’s so good.

the ship sways but the heart is steady

chapter one: the ship sways

the untamed pairing: jiang cheng & wei ying, lan zhan/wei ying word count: 2549 summary: Wei Ying’s friends are at rock-bottom, and Wei Ying puts his life on hold to help them put theirs back together. To absolutely no one’s surprise except Wei Ying’s, his family goes with him. read on ao3

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During family dinner, Wei Ying’s phone rings, cutting mother off mid-sentence.

Jiang Cheng cringes inwardly and his brother’s face goes two shades paler. They have guests over, so mother doesn’t do more than glare hatefully in Wei Ying’s direction.

She won’t make a scene in front of Yanli’s husband, or even Wei Ying’s fiancé—Jin Zixuan is everything Yu Ziyuan wants in a match for her daughter, and Lan Zhan’s family is one of the richest on the East Coast.

Lan Zhan is also willing to give as good as he gets. His eyes are already narrowing in mother’s direction, the tentative ceasefire of family dinner wobbling precariously beneath their feet as he perceives the great and unforgivable offense of insult to Wei Ying. A-Li resolutely tries to pick the conversation back up from where it lulled, with all the steely resolve of someone throwing herself into the path of a rampaging bull. Jin Zixuan has graduated from grimacing into his wineglass to gazing hopefully at the clock every three minutes.

Always willing to fall on the grenade, Wei Ying ducks his head meekly.

“Sorry, I thought I silenced it,” he says, the shape of a laugh in his voice even if he can’t manage to drag it all the way out. He’s rummaging his cellphone out of his pocket, presumably to turn it off as a gesture of good faith. “I’ll just…”

But his eyes catch on the screen, and something happens to his expression that Jiang Cheng has never seen before.

Wei Ying stands up, so abruptly his chair sails back with an awful screech, and excuses himself. Lan Zhan follows him out of the dining room without a single word or a backwards glance. That’s all it takes for mother to pick up a scathing tirade against Jiang Cheng’s good-for-nothing, ungrateful, waste-of-space brother.

He joins Jin Zixuan in watching the clock. Worry swims in the back of his mind like a school of startled fish.

Continuar lendo

Wen Ning is a complex, multidimensional character like any other in MDZS - he’s a genuinely good person, but he makes an impression of a soft sunshine boy not because he never feels anger, but because he’s too shy to actually express it.

His canonical source of power is all the resentment, pain, hatred and fear that he bottled up and kept inside of him all his life, and we can see how much of these emotions he has when he becomes a fierce corpse. His rage and violence, his gruesome revenge against his murderers, him killing the Jins without a second’s hesitation at Qiongqi path, his outburst after being captured - the reason is not purely someone else’s outside control, but also the sheer power of his own resentful energy that was buried deep and then suddenly uncovered, permitted to run free without the control of human consciousness.

And it’s normal, it’s human to feel all these emotions, and it’s also normal to actually express them, not just keep them inside until you die (and after).

My favorite Wen Ning moment is actually his confrontation with Jiang Cheng in Lotus Pier, because this is the moment when he finally doesn’t give a single fuck anymore and just speaks his mind against the person who makes him mad. And he’s being cruel and merciless about it - needlessly, but understandably so - he rubs the salt in every one of Jiang Cheng’s wounds, because he’s really, really angry, and you can finally see this side of his personality.

And this whole thing makes you appreciate Wen Ning even more, makes him more real - because you know he’s not a saint, that he can be angry, that he can feel hatred, can want to hurt someone back, and he does it more often than everyone thinks - but he still chooses to be kind, chooses to forgive, to help, to save, despite his hurt, despite the whole world trying to turn him against it, just because he’s good

and

Wen Ning is a pure and precious cinnamon roll who has done nothing wrong, ever, in his life, and deserves so many flower crowns and warm hugs

- are both valid takes that coexist in my mind at all times.

No one :

Me : *Going absolute feral at 2 am*

I HAVE TO LEARN LATIN AND FRENCH. I HAVE TO LEARN PLAYING PIANO AND GUITAR. I HAVE TO WRITE A POEM ABOUT THAT BOY I SAW IN THE LIBRARY. I HAVE TO TELL THE MOON HOW PRETTY SHE IS.

person: so when did you know you were gay? me, on the outside: so when did you know you were straight?

me, on the inside: in a time of ancient gods, warlords and kings, a land in turmoil cried out for a hero. she was xena, a mighty princess forged in the heat of battle. the power. the passion. the danger. her courage will change the world.

This seems pretty spot on 🤣

are you living or are you just jumping from one obsession to the other to run away from yourself

Unmute !

anyone else remember being like 13 years old and watching that scene in how to train your dragon (2010) where hiccup carefully navigates the maze of lines toothless has drawn between them without breaking or stepping on any of them and with his back to toothless and eyes shut to demonstrate how he’s willing to put total faith in him not to harm him or run away and to show humility and a desire to establish a natural bond of mutual trust instead of the arrogance to try to force toothless to submit to his will and hearing the music crescendo and fade into silence as he finally crosses the last obstacle so that they’re standing mere inches from one another, tension built on years of bad blood between their two races, so immense it’s almost like a physical barrier, separating them, and after what feels like forever toothless presses his nose gently into hiccup’s outstretched palm and it fits perfectly like it was made solely for that specific purpose, and feeling all the hairs on your neck stand up and a stifling sensation that brought actual tears to your eyes rise in your throat as it touched something profound and full of unspeakable yearning inside you

Me: hmm so i have some thoughts about character archetypes 

Me, ten hours later, frothing at the mouth: IT’S ABOUT THE BLONDES

no offence but i think a lot of us me included don’t actually want romantic love as badly as we think and really are just lonely and crave a closeness and intimacy that feels out of reach in friendships because of society’s emphasis on marriage and the nuclear family so we project that into the never ending search for a perfect love and a soulmate when really we all just want to mean something to someone

When you read a very good fanfiction and want to re-read it right after the end, but remember all the emotions you felt about it and that stops you

It deeply pains me to know that there are some fanfics out there, some golden fanfics, that deserve to be seen and appreciated, that I will never get the chance to read because they’re buried amongst thousands of other golden fanfics and there is simply not enough time to read all of them because of this stupid mortal countdown.

*re-watches a show for the eighth time* i can have a little serotonin. as a treat