Microdosing On Catharsis By Watching A Fictional Character Or Persona I Relate To Have An Emotional Breakdown

microdosing on catharsis by watching a fictional character or persona i relate to have an emotional breakdown until my chest starts to ache from the amount i've repressed

Found his frickin boot

+ Danmei!

I always end up fighting for my life with nendoroids. Bakugou's boot is in a crevice somewhere and will return to him eventually. But he's here in his winter costume :3

Joining my other three, Killua, Gon, and Daichi! All the MXTX boys are on the shelf below with the danmei books.

This made me want purple hair so badly ugh

“I think a lot about queer villains, the problem and pleasure and audacity of them. I know I should have a very specific political response to them. I know, for example, I should be offended by Disney’s lineup of vain, effete, ne'er-do-wells (Scar, Jafar), sinister drag queens (Ursula, Cruella de Vil), and constipated, man-hating power dykes (Lady Tremaine, Maleficent). I should be furious at Downton Abbey’s scheming gay butler and Girlfriend’s controlling lunatic lesbian, and I should be indignant about Rebecca and Strangers on a Train and Laura and The Terror and All About Eve, and every other classic and contemporary foppish, conniving, sissy, cruel, humorless, depraved, evil, insane homosexual on the large and small screen. And yet, while I recognize the problem intellectually–the system of coding, the way villainy and queerness become a kind of shorthand for each other–I cannot help but love these fictional queer villains. I love them for all of their aesthetic lushness and theatrical glee, their fabulousness, their ruthlessness, their power. They’re always by far the most interesting characters on the screen. After all, they live in a world that hates them. They’ve adapted; they’ve learned to conceal themselves. They’ve survived.”

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“Dream House as Queer Villainy” from In The Dream House by Carmen Maria Machado

I always end up fighting for my life with nendoroids. Bakugou's boot is in a crevice somewhere and will return to him eventually. But he's here in his winter costume :3

Joining my other three, Killua, Gon, and Daichi! All the MXTX boys are on the shelf below with the danmei books.

This fic is now up to 178k on AO3 and I'm up to 225k in the draft. I don't know what has happened to me. It is one of the longest fics in the ShinZawa tag. This resurgence of BNHA brainrot following the end of the manga is WILD. Also seeing the clips of recent episodes with Shinsou 😭. He's so cute 😭. And ugh, his and Aizawa's Japanese VAs kill me. I love that Shinsou sounds 45 and Aizawa is voiced by Junichi Suwabe, my absolute fave. THEY'RE SOOOO---

New chapter of Teacher's Pet up. I can't believe this is up to 75k and I'm just starting to get somewhere with the main relationship now. (I also can't believe I picked up writing this fic again after a 4 year break.) I'm having so much fun? What the hell.

It has been very interesting to get into the heads of different characters, their voices, humor, ways of speaking and relating, to write something so indulgent yet also take it seriously. This fic is exceptionally personal to me, really coming from my own teen self (over a decade later)... but through anime characters. Who want to be super heroes. I love the absurdity of it all.

It's been so fun to dive back into MHA again, it is such a different flavor from MDZS. I'll return to my MDZS fics and I still am way more over there than MHA, but it's fun to have them both! I was worried they'd switch off (that weird anxiety of hyperfixations breaking and leaving me bereft of a source of dopamine, ya feel).

And ah, fic engagement is the best.