SO SAD AND SO BEAUTIFUL-

SO SAD AND SO BEAUTIFUL-

KIDGE ANGST

TW! death

50 years had passed. It had been 50 years since they shared their first kiss, and they had never left each other's sides.

During those 50 years, their love had only grown stronger with each passing day.

Now, she was 70.

As she lay in her bed next to her husband, Katie felt a strange sensation. Both she and her husband had been worried lately; she had been feeling weak and breathless for almost a month now, and doctors couldn't find anything wrong.

She took a deep breath and rested her head against her pillow. Keith knew exactly how she felt. He knew her so well that just one look in her eyes was enough to tell that something was wrong.

But he also knew that if he asked, she would simply answer that she was fine. So, he asked, and as expected, she said that she was okay. He insisted, and so did she.

Deciding to give up, knowing how stubborn she was but also trusting that she would confide in him later if something was truly wrong, he kissed her forehead as they wished each other a good night.

As he closed his eyes, Keith instantly fell asleep. But no matter how much she tried, Pidge couldn't.

As she grew older, it became harder for Pidge to fall asleep at night. She and Keith had lost everyone:

The first to go was Baebae, Pidge's dog. It had been complicated for her, but she stayed strong.

Then came Sam. It was years after Baebae, and it was possibly the worst day of her life by that time.

Sam was followed by Colleen, who couldn't bear losing her husband for the second time. She was an old woman who had been through so much, but her heart could not handle more. She died, drowning in sadness, and no matter how much Matt and Pidge did to save her, it wasn't enough...

After Colleen, Shiro followed. It devastated everyone, especially Keith. But with Pidge by his side, he healed faster.

Hunk died years later. A heart attack was the reason...

The only ones remaining in their lives were Lance, Matt, Krolia, Kosmo, and their kids. Some other people remained, but they were less important in their lives.

And all this kept Pidge awake at night. She remembered the old times, hurting herself by allowing her thoughts to dwell on all the happy moments. And then, she remembered that it was over, that she would never again be hugged by her father or laugh with her mother... That she would never get to hug Baebae to sleep or have nice Paladin hangouts with her friends... And, of course, she would never gossip with Allura again.

She missed Hunk's cookies and his presence when she was feeling down. She missed Shiro's advice and how reassuring he was.

She just wanted to go back in time, start everything over, and reclaim the beauty that she thought she had lost.

And she was happy with Keith. She always had been, and she felt so grateful that he was still by her side today... But she missed how they used to love each other back then, those nights when they wouldn't sleep and would share every piece of passion. She missed discovering his touch, his body; it all felt new back then, and now, it just seemed routine. She knew his touch by heart... And not that she thought it was bad, but she did think that it was better before... Because everything seemed better when they were younger.

She used to fight for peace, she used to be a model for so many people and have an important purpose. Today, she felt worthless. Just an old lady. A grandma, certainly, but then what was next?

Death. And she would feel guilty admitting that she actually waited for it every day now.

She knew that she would leave her kids behind, along with her remaining friends, her brother, and her husband.

But her kids were grown adults now, with their own families and lives that she wished she could still have. They didn't need her anymore...

As for her friends, she only really had Lance and a few acquaintances. But she rarely saw them, if ever. She called Lance often, but that was about it.

She saw Matt often. Same old Matt. And when thoughts of ending her life crossed her mind, she tried to push them away, knowing that she was his only family left.

And then there was her husband. How she loved him. He was the only reason she hadn't tried to end it herself. The only thing tormenting her now was deciding whether she wanted him to die before her or after her... Whether she would hurt him or herself.

She didn't really have a choice.

Lost in thought, her eyes closed, and she felt her body's weight growing heavier with each passing second. She understood. Summoning all her strength, she opened her eyes one last time to look at him. The only man who had ever loved her, the only man she had ever loved.

Oh, how beautiful he looked in the moonlight, she thought to herself, finding the strength to reach for his cheek...

She caressed his cheek, feeling her hand grow too heavy, and she rested it in his.

If only she could tell him how much she loved him... But she didn't want to see him cry. She didn't want him to take her to the hospital or try to "save" her.

She wanted to silently pass away in the bed where they had shared their love for years. In the room where they had once been young together. In peace.

A tear rolled down her face: she was feeling greatful in this moment to have had such a beautiful life.

And she silently hoped that she'll find him again, in another life.

(there you go and I hope this made you feel the emotional tumoil you wanted lol :') )

Let me know your thoughts about that one!!!!!!!

Hiii! Do you have any kidge headcanon about speacial dates or anniversaries??

SORRY I TOOK SO LONG TO ANSWER ANON!

I do!

The most special date was their first!!!!

It was a stargazing date on the roof of the garrison one day before the launch of the Atlas... They talked a lot, ordered pizza and ended up holding hands as they were looking at the stars... Eventually, Keith breng her back home on his motorcycle and in front of it, they had their first kiss... HECK, BOTH OF THEM REMEMBER EACH DETAILS OF THIS NIGHT.

Then there was a simple date in the Atlas during which they were simply supposed to watch a movie... But well, it turned out to be their first time... This is why it was SO special...

Keith takes Pidge on new altea often too after the war! They do tones of stuffs there...

As for anniversaries....

They're pretty simple people... They would simply do stuffs at home, like having a romantic bath together full of soft kisses and cuddles... Or watch a movie, still cuddling..... And well, of course, more intimate stuffs follow.

They get each other gifts on that day too... THEY BOTH LOOOVE THAT DAY.

And generally, they spend it together. Only together. And in the morning, they stay in bed FOR HOURS.

Kidge headcanon 33 !

I know I made many different headcanons for kidge's last day on earth but huh... WELL ANYWAYS:

Episode 1 season 8:

Keith was watching the sunset on the head of the black lion along with his furry friend, Kosmo...

Lance came earlier to tell him about his date with Allura and of course, he was happy for them: He knew that both had feelings for each other for a while now... But that simply reminded him of how lonely he was...

He had friends... And at the moment, he had Kosmo... But being alone during his last moments on Earth for a while brought him back to his past. When his dad died, he was alone. Always. And it was okay for him now because he couldn't do otherwise... And after years, nothing had changed, apparently... Or at least, that's what he thought...

He got down from Black's head once the sun had settled... In reality, he stayed a bit longer...

He had nothing to do. Just going home in the cold desert. Plus, he had no electricity and nothing to eat for tonight... But again, it was fine for him because he couldn't do otherwise...

As he was walking in the Garrison, without a purpose, he heard some footsteps coming from the other side of the hallway... Walking directly in his direction... His gaze then met Pidge's as she stopped in front of him.

"Keith?..." she said as if it was the first time she saw him in years... "What are you still doing here?"

"Well, I was heading home now..." He sighed as Kosmo approached Pidge to get pats.

She caressed Kosmo's head with a soft smile and then raised her eyes towards Keith again; "Are you spending your last day on Earth alone?"

"Well... Yeah. Shiro is having dinner with his grandpa... So basically, It's just gonna be me and Kosmo tonight. No big deal, I guess," he admitted, sounding a bit down.

"Aw, that sucks! I heard your place doesn't have electricity either. You're gonna freeze!" she said, concerned.

"Yeah, but it's just for one night, so I'll survive," he replied in a desperate sigh.

She frowned. "How can you say that? What are you even gonna eat?"

He thought for a moment. "I have no idea... Maybe some leftovers if I can find any."

"Gosh, that sounds kinda sad," she said, her worry evident.

"Don't worry too much about it. It's just one night in my life," he reassured her.

"I'm not letting you go through this alone! Come to my place! My mom's cooking dinner tonight, and her food is amazing. Don't tell Hunk, but her cookies are even better than his!" she exclaimed with a mischievous grin.

"I don't wanna be a bother... It's a family dinner," he replied, feeling a bit embarrassed.

"Who said that it was a family dinner? You're not bothering us at all. I'm sure my family would be happy to have you with us tonight. My dad used to say that we have the family we're born into and the family we choose. I guess you're part of my chosen family," she said, smiling warmly at him. "Come on, join us!"

He thought for a moment but obviously could not say no to these eyes that were staring at him... He sighed. "Fine, I'll come."

"YAY! Did you hear that, Kosmo? You're coming home with me!" she exclaimed, scratching the back of Kosmo's ear. "Oh, and by the way, you can crash at my place too. It'll be much nicer for you than going back to the desert and catching a cold before the launch..."

"Huh... I'm not sure about that..."

"Aw, come on! Just think about it and let me know later, okay? I'll quickly text my mom to let her know you're coming for dinner. We just have to wait for my dad to finish up some stuff at the Garrison before to leave."

He nodded in agreement, realizing that his plans had taken a complete 180 in less than five minutes, all because of this short, nerdy girl who he found it hard to take his eyes off of. She was actually really pretty, even if others didn't see it. He noticed the beautiful amber color of her hair, eyes, and freckles, and he found it absolutely fascinating. And not just her looks, her personality was captivating too. She had this introverted side but always stood up for herself, and she had so many other amazing qualities that it would take forever to list them all.

To put it simply, she was a smart and beautiful girl with a vibrant spirit and a huge heart. And boy, was she courageous!

How could he not admire her? Heck, how could he not ADORE her?

But despite all that, she was the Paladin he felt the least close to. They had been through a lot together, but they never really had the chance to get to know each other well. He had a unique bond with each of the other Paladins. Shiro was like a big brother to him, Lance started by being annoying but became a friendly annoyance over time (they had known each other for a while, but Keith never really minded him), and he had a few missions with Hunk where they bonded... (Keith also knew Hunk at the Garrison, but just like Lance, he had never minded before...) He even had bonding moments with Allura!

He really wanted to get to know her better. He liked her a lot and hoped to spend some time with her. But she always seemed busy, and he didn't know how to start a conversation. But now was his chance!

"Alright, my mom said you can come over for dinner and stay the night if you want," she said, putting her phone back in her pocket and looking up at him.

"That's really kind of you... But why are you doing this exactly?" he asked.

"Keith, I couldn't let you starve or freeze to death. I would be genuinely sad, especially when I know I'll be having a nice dinner in a warm house," she replied with a light giggle. "Let's go find my dad and get going."

He smiled. "Okay, let's do that."

A/n: HELLO!

(if you want the rest of this headcanon/fic, you can ask it in the comments or in the ask box as anonymous!)

I know that I don't post a lot lately, I'm sorry about that... I just have many things to do (and I don't have wifi until the 2 of January... WHICH IS MY BIRTHDAY, YES YES PLEASEEEE I WANT A KIDGE-FIC GIFT HAAA-) but anyways, know that Im still there, preparing a few stuffs and also, I will try to do some of the prompts for the kidge winter event! I wanted to do all prompts but things didn't go as planned in my personal life unfortunately... So all I've got to say is: STAY TUNED!

Also! The ask box is always opened for some asks, headcanons and whatever you want! Please, stay respectful!

I FORGOT TO SAY MERRY KIDGEMAS! 💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️💚

Have a nice holiday and enjoy time with your family and friends! (Or alone 👍)

This is so sad and beautiful...😭😭😭

This song gives me KIDGE-

Listen to it! And then read my explanation of why!

So to me that sounds like an AU:

(tw: It's going to be sad...)

Kidge had their first son and soon after, a new war started... The baldes were needed and so was Keith...

Katie and him both talked about it a lot and she knew that they needed him... It hurt her a lot, but she decided to stay strong. She had to stay on earth for their son.

And of course, if Keith was going for a second war it was to protect his son and wife from it...

And he misses them everyday, would trade anything to see them again.

Then, one day, he ends up on a planet, fighting on grounds with his usual blade... But after killing some guys and seeing their blood on his hands and on his blades, he suddenly started to feel guilt. Wondered if that made him a monster... Because these people are just like him: fighting a war that they didn't start in the first place... Probably having a family waiting for them at home...

Would he be a good father for his son after that?... That's not who he was... He used to save families, but now...

While looking at himself in a blood puddle, someone attacked him from behind...

That's how he died, and he is sorry to leave his family this way... Sorry for destroying other families... For not even saving his own family...

But he's just a man.

(OK, WE NEED AND ANIMATIC- like really, think of this scenario while listening. It sticks exactly to the music itself! (Not talking about the lyrics here, more of the instrumentals) like it goes from soft which can be when he leaves his family and thinks of them, then, the music gets a bit more "violent" which is the war... The vocals are adding behind which can show the moment during which he is questioning himself and finally, it ends on a last and sudden note. When he died. I can picture the animatic in my head but I can't draw- if you can tho, contact me, I have ideas🙌)

Sorry if the explanation doesn't really make sense, I'm feeling dizzy while writing it🥲☠️

Kidge headcanon 45: Special Valentine's day! 1/?

tw: SUUUPER FLUFFY (Not a real TW lol)

At midnight, when it’s finally valentines, Keith would wake his wife up with a long kiss just to tell her « happy Valentine’s, love... » She’ll smile and snuggle against him, and give him a few kisses. She would answer with a simple «  Thank you… You too… Happy valentine’s » She then would yawn and fall back asleep while he gives her forehead kisses and rubs her back.

Kidge headcanon 29

Pidge actually didn't hate the outdoor, she was just too scared because of her allergies, in fact she find biology and flower inspiring! When Keith told her he loved nature because it was relazing, she almost died from laughing, but then he took her out on a date in the desert just for relax and watch everything around them and she found it very interesting... Sometimes, Keith even gave here some flowers that grow in the desert, after knowing from Colleen that she's not allergic to them, of course!