
Lucas or Kengu | 20 | AuDHD | It/He/They | Slimecicle enjoyer | mostly into Dungeons & Daddies, mp100, Saiki K, TLOZ (insane about totk), birds, dinosaurs, Burnt Cookbook Party, and Sk8 the Infinity, Legends of Avantris, COtL, etc! | Relatively inactive but I'm trying to revive this acc
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Might Change My Profile Pic Soon But I Dont Know What To Change It To O_o
Might change my profile pic soon but I dont know what to change it to o_o
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This just radiates chaotic vibes and I wanted to share it

hey, it’s gonna be okay :)
Another thing, me being my ADHD self spaces out constantly... so on top of struggling to exist, I space out, forgetting to do basic things because I get caught up in daydreaming and miss out on the important things in life. Not to mention hyperfixations, dear lord dont even get me started on those 🙄😥
Having ADHD and Depression at the same time is really wanting to call up your friends because you’re doing nothing to the point it’s making you feel physically I’ll, but having an inner voice tell you that none of them care enough to hang out or that they’re all too busy for me, as well as knowing damn well that I’m far too lazy to actually pick up my phone and text them… much less go out and do something. So, in the end, you stay home and do nothing and develop a headache all while trying to avoid doing the things that every normal functioning human does like laundry and dishes.
This is one I made recently) To be honest with you I'm feeling much better, I've never felt so alive. I'm able to smile and laugh with you, And my feelings are finally something I can explain. Yet there are still days when I feel like nothing ever changed... Days where I beg the universe to erase me. I know that those thoughts may never go away. I know there will always be days when my emptiness will consume me, to the point that I'm not sure I can feel anything but sorrow and loneliness; Days where it feels easier to drown than swim up. But I also know that there will be days that I feel like I can do anything. Days that make the empty, void like days seem so far away. When those days come it feels like I'll never touch down from the joyride that is life, The twists and turns, it's ups and downs. The parts that make your stomach drop and the ones that make you feel like you're touching the sky. I am still a long ways away from the full recovery that the future holds... I know that this road is long and hard and can seem endless and futile. But I know that with those who love and support me I will make it. For me, the best part of this whole recovery has been the moment I realized... That I finally believe it is achievable