I Can Only Ever Read A Book (or Watch A Movie) Once, Even If I Really Enjoy It Because It Doesn't Matter

i can only ever read a book (or watch a movie) once, even if i really enjoy it because it doesn't matter how long i wait to try and read it again (i waited 8 years once) i will remember the whole plot after the first chapter or so and it no longer sparks joy or intrigue, i know what's going to happen so why should i read it?. and i cannot understand how people can read the same book over and over again???

I couldn't figure out which one I liked most so here is both lmao. look I didn't twinkify him this time!!! I'm so proud!!!! also I'm really fucking happy with how his face turned out!!!!

one time i had a dream where there was a death note arc where the death note notebook got replaced by a death note red solo cup that had "DN" on it in sharpie and light would kill people by drinking from it in the corner of frat parties with mikami and everytime he killed someone theyd make out and the kira police task force wanted to investigate more after the notebook disappeared but no one on the task force could bring themselves to investigate light because 1. what if theyre subconsciously targeting him bc hes gay with mikami that would make them homophobic and 2. no one wanted to ask about the cup bc everyone thought the "DN" on the cup stood for "deez nuts" and no one wanted to get deez nutted at a frat party and be embarrassed.

just spent several hours setting shit up and dolling myself up to take insta photos, just to hate all of them and give up on the idea. my spine hurts from arching my back for so long trying to get the "perfect" picture

me, trying to flirt for the first time in 10 months: