Tw: Mentions Of Suicidal Thoughts

Tw: mentions of suicidal thoughts

Last night I called a suicide hotline for the first time. I haven't been this suicidal in almost 3 years, but everything is starting to get to me. I'm in my 5th semester of college (i'm only in my second official year, because i dual-enrolled two semesters my senior year of high school), and it's supposed to get easier with each semester, but it isn't.

I only have 4 classes instead of 5, but it's still too much, and I'm still getting overwhelmed. The amount of time that I have in-between semesters isn't enough, I'm still too exhausted and worn out.

AND I STILL HAVE 2 MORE YEARS LEFT (4 if i go through with my master's)

When I transfer to a 4-year college to finish my degree, I know it's going to be even harder.

While I haven't been able to get an official diagnosis, I'm pretty sure I have ADHD. And it's destroying me. I can't focus for shit, and procrastination seems to be the only word in my vocabulary.

I need medication, and unfortunately for me, my mom is against it.

I'm an adult, but everything is through my mom's insurance, plus she has full access to my medical records and would be able to see if I was prescribed anything.

Besides, I don't even have a way to get it. I still don't have my driver's license.

I don't know what to do anymore.

After drawing kinger, I had to draw pomni too :3

I'll eventually draw the other members of the digital circus lol

I had to forfeit

My dad's come to pick me up

Fighting for my life against a mosquito

Don't know if I'll make it out alive

Oh look at me, actually finishing something for once

I present to you:

Phil titties

Drew the purple bunny too lol :3

An assortment of various video game characters :3